I am so thankful when people either love me, not who they are planning for me to become, but the me before them or decide to depart and find someone else to hold to the fire of performance and permission. Operating within the confines of human expectation, is there are worse prison for man that you can conceive?

These are not days to dwell in mires of deception, wondering who of your friends will betray you at the slightest departure from their plan for your life. There is so little time to determine in deception those of your inner circle are real, authentic and mean well for you and yours even when the circumstances are not producing the vibrations to tickle their fancy.

Depart and find a suitable life for yourself, don’t struggle within the strict confines of what God has commanded an Holy Habitation. If you want love you must find it and fight for it in the breast of those who are willing to accept the beauty of what is and pray for the miracle of what shall be in God’s Will for the two of you.

Shaping people is not within my authority nor does it appease, rather the controlling influences of forcing, cajoling or pestering people to become sickens me. This is not commentary on others but when I see this aspect of my own character seeking to conform people to the benchmarks of my own expectation.

Don’t want any of this done to me because I certainly hate seeing myself do it to you. Be who God made you to be and become without wrestling the person He needs to become. If I can aid or encourage amen and amen. If not then most certainly find a group of people who are consistent in their love for who you are. Don’t fight God or fight the wrong people.

Argument is another tool in the potential of human interaction. Only argue when it will produce the benefits of the worth of that interaction. If it is essential to producing a dynamic relationship or producing the best results then I can see its deployment. If not find people who don’t need to argue and rather listen to your suggestions trusting that it is best for all involved.

Please do great things. Thank you for letting go. You may not feel the sigh of relief that you’ve found in not following my opinion praying for conformity or confirmation, but I have been craving it. I love people in my circle. Loving you while knowing that you are on the fringes, analyzing, testing, tasting the benefits of being only so close but yet removed, is exhausting. Not having to wonder if you are ever going to love me or the people I love again is unnecessary dalliance.

I not only have no control, I don’t wish to be in control, but neither do I desire to be lab rat or barnyard animal waiting with expectation for a kind gesture, handful of grain or bale of hay. It is not my right to be loved but it is what God wants for me and the foundation of our relationship. Without love what are we doing and why are we doing it?

Yesterday, the President proclaimed the prayer of 2nd Chronicles 7:11-22. This was perhaps the most important day for this nation since our founding. The commitment as a nation to turn our hearts to God, repenting and crying out for healing. Every make America Great Person should have rejoiced at this Presidential bravery. As that is the only way to return this nation to greatness brought about by the goodness of God’s Word. However, that is not the case, most never even acknowledged nor recognized the Historical significance of God’s Direction to Solomon. Will we miss this one opportunity to return this nation to greatness in our preparation for the return of Christ Jesus? From all appearances we won’t show up because we don’t understand that we will only be Healed by the Hand of God found through belief upon Jesus Christ. God’s Will is that all will come to the knowledge of the Truth. Though it is hard to see from here to there I know that He will make it all happen. Miracles come from God just as every good thing comes from Heaven above. In Jesus’ name may this nation be healed as we demonstrate our absolute faith in God and not in ourselves or any man to deliver U.S. when they never could.

It is frustrating that you force me to banish you from my life for insistence that only your rules must be acknowledged and followed. For this is recipe for disaster with a Pastor serving Jesus by conviction of God’s Holy Spirit. You ignored every warning, every call to caution, every appeal to listen and obey God’s direction instead insisting/demanding and slandering this Pastor to follow your lead. I cannot argue this out of you. I want nothing from you but it is just plain sad that I must step away from you permanently because I would not/cannot follow your worldly agenda. Such loss of opportunity, possibility and union in the Spirit.

Every mistake, every step I counseled to follow a simple, slow process that allowed the necessary flexibility to hear and respond to God’s Guidance. For without God’s guidance we are left to our own plans, our own power our own limitations in achieving anything. When we say at outset that we are here for sole purpose of being a Body together knowing that through God’s Power alone we may achieve His Will then there is no argument. Why then were there arguments at all? Clear that the primary understanding and commitment to God’s will was never established. For that I apologize because I should have intervened much earlier saving us the pain of proceeding down the path we walked.

It is not my job to argue with or change anyone, the Holy Spirit convicts us of what God wants changed and when we listen it all operates smoothly, granted with the challenges that He wishes to guide us through. That never happened, instead both of us as Pastor and Parishioner were forced to morph, silence or conform to expectations that were unnecessary and foolish. I told you what God was directing me to do as a Mission’s Pastor. You did not agree and exerted control reaching for the bullet Points on your own Mission statement. I should have ended contact at that point realizing what came next and as it progressed it should have been anticipated and stopped. I am sorry to God and the Body that I did not step away before trying to comply, argue or proceed in silence. Backing away from anticipated/acknowledged snare is wisdom in Proverbs.

Be aware any who come into this ministry with alternative requirement or expectation that you will not be allowed to continue. This Pastor is answering God’s Call and His Alone upon this heart, mind and book of ACTS. I am sorry that I was never the right Pastor, Friend or Council that you sought. Remember I said that from the beginning and should have listened alone to God and what I knew to be truth as we both brought damage and unnecessary strife to the Body of Christ in our spiteful words, argument and departure from God’s will in attempt to fulfill some human agenda. However, we wish to color it to suit our cathartic need any departure from God’s Will is service to self and the enemy’s of God. I cannot be controlled by funding, misunderstood Agape or deception for God is on the Throne and will not allow the anointed to continue in this faulty service. He warned me and the end should have been immediate and voluntary on my part as I was hearing His conviction regardless of how each deemed his own service self-righteous and necessary. Forgive me for this lesson learned through painful instruction by His Spirit. May that conviction/chastisement never be necessary again. Thank you Father. May they go in peace and be Known by You always.

When a man is bitter who can console him as the burden of slight is followed and corrupted by the of contorted hope, compassion and song? When people truly believe that God is an angry Sovereign punishing out of spite they will never seek redemption, freedom from sin and salvation. Without a recognition of the wonders and love of God man is bereft of his greatest need. A walking infection of the heart a man who having been hurt refuses to accept the healing cure offered for the pains of our own making.

When we review John 3:16-21 For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life. For God sent not his Son into the world to condemn the world; but that the world through him might be saved. He that believeth on him is not condemned: but he that believeth not is condemned already, because he hath not believed in the name of the only begotten Son of God. And this is the condemnation, that light is come into the world, and men loved darkness rather than light, because their deeds were evil. For every one that doeth evil hateth the light, neither cometh to the light, lest his deeds should be reproved. But he that doeth truth cometh to the light, that his deeds may be made manifest, that they are wrought in God.

If there is a desire to understand we may become equipped with the reasoning and the need for salvation, without which we may continue to view God as a mean spirited Father toying for extreme purpose with His Creation. Though it is hard for me to comprehend the level of necessary pain to arrive at those conclusions I can acknowledge misdirected anger associated with the transgressions of the world being blamed on the Creator. However, though impossible by recognition we must still attempt to reach even the most contorted heart or desperate thinking. I fully acknowledge without intervention of the Holy Spirit there neither was hope nor power at outset to convert this level of bitterness to Peace.

A man who is a nice man, by my estimation, continues to hit me with “Gotcha” questions each time we have the opportunity to chat. I pity this pattern of communication for it demands an association born of and reflecting the bitterness in his heart for which he feels that I am due contempt. I must enter each conversation not in my flesh but in full display of the Fruits of God’s Holy Spirit. Neither my compassion for the wrongs done him nor the contortion of bitterness tainting his heart may be rectified by blaming the Almighty. What men have done to us must be attributed to the sin of men, not blamed on God each time we have the opportunity to view and account for our own wrong doing.

This form of communication continues that anger, spite or ignorance to the fact that we alone created our own predicament. Without recognition of my culpability it is impossible to convince me of the need for and the delight in recognizing God’s Gift of savior. In fact, this will be compounded by my bitterness and blame of anyone or anything else but my own sin. Hating God for my problems or man’s fallen state is exactly the opposite of my need and in fact assuring that helplessness and certainty of separation.

In my opinion the church is failing at its primary function. We are meant to tell the story of the need for and the fulfillment of man’s eternal dilemma with Jesus. That is the entire reason for God’s Gift of the Ten Commandments to the Jews in the desert. Without a clear view of contemptuous behavior before God man has no idea of his plight. Thus viewing God as mean or questioning His intention for mankind demonstrates an absolute spiritual blindness to the entire plan and reason for redemption. It is easy to understand at that point why a person in this state would avoid any conversation about the Goodness of the Gospel nor pursue the cure for their spite/skepticism by searching the Gospel, praying to God or listening for the guiding hand of His Holy Spirit.

Why do I dislike this type of interaction from outset? I love this man and pray for His relationship with the God. However, the scripture is clear and no amount of thinking, works or philosophy is going to rectify is misalignment with God’s Plan of Salvation and Redemption found only through Christ Jesus. I am not meant for argument or persuasion. I am not meant for the odd pleasure of “Zinging” my neighbor in momentary embarrassment. I do not win by expressing the Gospel of my own vain imagination nor do I speak the Gospel to somehow win a door prize. This man matters to God and consequently to me. Therefore, though the attempts and expectations of the flesh aside to convince or transform must be put aside, I know that God has put us together because of His love for this man in front of me.

Shall I depart, give up or avoid the opportunity to reach him with God’s loving intention? Shall I give in to his momentary and temporary expectation associated with the brief wins of spiteful argument? Shall I do neither and remain in a paralytic position without prayer or works? Shall I become frustrated as is my fleshly nature at having failed at my human attempt to reach him without asking the Holy Spirit to miraculously intervene? Shall I leave him in his bitter, fallen and contorted state to most certainly find his end in Gehenna? What would a man with a heart for God do in this circumstance? What if any is the duty of responsibility to a Loving God?

Is the objective to be viewed in love by this man who is not known by Jesus? Perhaps indirectly. For in knowing Jesus and being known by Him would give this man, spiritual sight and seal him with God’s Holy Spirit converting him to a stone in the Earthly temple of God’s habitation. Then he would see me through the eyes of God’s understanding and reflect the love that would direct, convict and demand similar understanding. That is the reason for our endurance and perhaps worthy of any frustration. I must acknowledge that God will direct a time when decision is beyond His miraculous Hand. Until such direction I will continue to pray that he meets God and offer encouragement, rebuke, council and fellowship as Christ directs knowing fully that even in the frustration of my own fleshly inadequacy, God may defy all expectation and bring this man to Calvary’s Cross. In Jesus’ name.

Allegiance, fidelity, loyalty and fealty are similar in that they adhere to a certain dedication to an individual, group or faith and that they are voluntary. Love is not capable as a forced discipline, except through extreme means to deception, pressure or conditioning, which makes this impossible because this was never love.

Some, most in fact have chosen not to remain faithful to this ministry. For whatever reason, most likely found in my idiosyncratic life style, most choose to move on, keeping tabs or avenue to scan, ingest and utilize this Pastor as resource without lineage. That is okay, acknowledging the Holy Spirit as the only Power in my life demands this make sense.

Both of us consider the level of investment or distance adequate or commensurate with personal need, however I know that given some understanding of real love in Christ Jesus this level of participation with promise, cost or accountability is a misunderstanding of the Body of Christ as we find our forte/force in the combined study, fellowship and love through the abundance of knowledge in Christ Jesus.

So few stay in touch, for whatever reasons and again though I acknowledge the plethora of my inadequacies as potential cause, it is not appreciated but understood. Some have received a request for distance from this Pastor, when the Holy Spirit indicated existence of alternative agenda in approaching this Christ centered mission. Infrequently, the Lord tells me that I am not the appropriate vessel needed to bring this person to the next level in their walk with Jesus and am to step away relinquishing any expectations, council or authority as the person must follow a different path to reach God’s Will.

I am not the end all and be all of humanity. I have a specific anointing, talent and gifts given by the Holy Spirit to spread the seeds of His Gospel not to determine the worthy ground for its planting. The outcomes are God’s not mine and in fact experience demonstrates that problems occur, of my doing when I exchange my own expectations, wishes and wants for the direction/conviction given in the Spirit.

All of this being said. Don’t back bite this Pastor. If you don’t want to be loyal, you don’t love me as Christ told you to or have an alternative outcome in projection, then feel free to walk away without trespassing against God or me. I don’t deserve your contempt or disregard. Neither will I involve myself in a worldly display in explanation of why it is necessary to preform character assassination against someone with whom we each choose voluntary loyalty.

Many of the things the Holy Spirit gave me to say to you turned out to be correct and though I would have preferred you listen at the time, I also exceed that only God’s timing matters. My expectations are driven by my own pride and flesh and thus are obstacles to my obedience to the Will of God. I prefer to jettison them before they create division in relationships that are priceless before God and should be justly administered.

If you have alternative cause for knowing this Pastor or this ministry please refrain. It will be revealed, especially when the origins are in covetousness, pride, disdain or envy of the relationship each of us have with God through Christ in the filling of His Holy Spirit. I see no value in argument. There are many out there who will do this until the cow’s return. I am not meant for that purpose.

You do you, you find your council in the Lord, His Perfect Word and His Guiding Spirit if you find any cause for inconsistency in my walk. If the loyalty and love between is established I assure you that a short discussion with me will produce repentance and prayerful change on both our parts. I am called to preach, council, rebuke and train in and out of season giving no regard to itchy ears. Please respect God’s Direction with regard to this ministry.

If for any reason you are dissatisfied with this Pastor and have inquired in love to find consistent understanding and regard for slights, offenses or mistakes then please do not continue to seek from me something you may better find elsewhere. As I have said I am not the best vessel for you if you do not view me as such. Your perspective and contempt will drive a wedge between us and I not allowing that will step back to give you the power, freedom and peace God would want me to offer.

His objectives for your life are my objectives for your life. Nothing excluded or added. One final thing loving people does not allow for using their gifts without relationship for that is lukewarm Christianity. As we are in the era where those aspects of false faith will cost the body and the individual, please express your contempt in powerful action, the action of seeking elsewhere what you could not find here. Don’t use me. I certainly would not do the same to you. In Jesus’ name.

Looking, this life never gives up on the hunt. We weary and posture instead of swinging we bunt hoping upon hope to find our footing on first. Fast, scampering weasels, our minds painted easels, waiting exasperating for a listening ear and new clues. Hunt and peck the news with sharpened claws and new shoes, paying the daily dues and nightly reviews. Come morning’s silent call to hush in mad sweaty rush we plant, pant and recant yesterday’s dreams with new purple schemes praying this time is the season.

Finding a lot, begged, borrowed and bought none of it for naught. For as we are taught to overcome as we should the evil by good, with steal, flesh and wood. In spirit we plan not for causes of man but dreams provided by God though awesome or odd we prance and we prod toward and ending known not. Caught in the middle of a rhyme and a riddle, from end to the middle we back trace our steps experts and adepts left with no understanding yet somehow urges demanding. To bulwark we schlep with each cautious step testing each slip til we’re standing.

Seeking and you’ll find rings true in each mind, knock fully knowing He’ll answer. No cancer finds home in a joyous heart that follows the chart doing their part then leaving the rest unto fate, then wait for the powers beyond luck for a dime and buck to pull us from the mire that threatens to suck the life from our gills and burdened with bills we are suddenly released from the muck. Wings don’t ask for flight they demand it, nothing held back and nothing saved to be robbed by vixen or bandit. Nose to the wind forgot where we’ve sinned mouth watering for the supper at close.

No time to waste the haste is the paste that binds the sense that the clock always runs out. Twisting about with acclaim and bright shout leveraged clout and reduction of doubt we wander about to check every room, every cupboard, closet and broom for whispers and scrap memories, snips, tugs and the snaps. We struggle to recall the meaning of it all as if somehow we once knew and forgot what to do. So me, him and you scurry about in the rain, sun and night a desperate plight, to whine, win or fight. When in a moment of grand peace it we suddenly cease, the rush and the race and the lines on our face simply blend into space as we discover we’re home.

A man must admit that he may be deceived before preparing against its attempts and advances. Clearly we reside in the era of revelation and those same three letters rearranged give context and clarity to the importance of our “EAR” in that preparation. Knowing the Holy Spirit is the EARnest of our Salvation lends listening as essential to defense against the wiley darts of God’s enemy assaults. Faith comes by hEARing and hEARing by the Word of the Lord. Faith being our shield against those enemy darts solidifies the importance of our listening to the Holy Spirit’s guidance as primary defense expectation.

First, we must heed Biblical command against “Quenching” The Holy Spirit’s voice in our Ear. Basic and simple definition of the quench gives its own guidance. To quench one’s thirst through the Everlasting Water of Life, the Gospel or to quench the flames of a fire. This asserts that quenching is refreshing of our Faith in slaking thirst while sealing us with the baptismal protection of the Fire Rebirth. Therefore quenching the Holy Spirit is any practice that “extinguishes” the voice of God’s Holy Word and Spirit in our guidance to and through truth. Therefore to defend and stop the enemy we must remain open to and attentive to God. Seeking first to understand and then be understood.

God is neither complacent nor asleep. Jesus Lives. His Spirit, guides, protects, leads, councils, educates, convicts and comforts believers. An indication that ACTS are the essential component of a Christians prosperity. To act a person must receive good direction and then ACT upon that direction to an expected end. Thus, Christianity is a process never fully completed while remaining one’s backside. This understanding demands that we receive by listening direction to complete those benchmarks of God’s Will for our purpose. It rings essential to me that the first four books of the New Testament are that direction, thus it is rational to expect the next book to be that of “ACTS” which it is.

Maturity in any system or organization occurs following practice of those essential elements of successful deployment of tactics based on strategic planning. Thus the New Testament Letters of Paul mature us as a body of believers to put into practice and submit to rational analysis, accountability, correct, agreement, fellowship and prayerful combined worship to become and maintain a “Healthy Body” of Christians. However, maturity is not the end, for we are called to apply this collective maturity in seeding, watering, encouraging, mending, sharpening and preparing the individuals to become impervious to the wiles of false doctrine or deceptive assaults upon the Temple of God’s Holy Spirit, the Christian Body. We then are turned to the word of specific teachers and Apostles to prepare us for the time of God’s Wrath, Israel’s covenant and grace all eager for the Joy of Jesus’ Glorious Appearing.

In an appreciation of History’s importance in seeing the weak spots and moments for strength within the body we begin to see how these thousands of years have been effective deployed for our ambition to be Ready as Jesus taught. To that end we must also look to the pages of these data to demonstrate the unfortunately, daunting deceptive tactics of an enemy determined to devour us whole by dividing and conquering each of us individually. As we face the continuing Roman Empire in these last days as vehicle of Satan’s agents against the Church. It is imperative and essential that we fully comprehend the cleverness of our enemies in asking God’s Rebuke upon them. Just as our primary recognition in the potential danger of deception we must now in maturity reflect upon when those strategies and tactics were used in development in our current era of danger.

Today, I will go through some of those periods that were especially effective in setting the Body of Christ up for future assault. I am not asserting opinion but rather reviewing dates, data and revealing moves of obvious planning and strategy that we as body may take it to prayer, meditation and humble request before God’s Throne for further transformation and quickening of our defenses. We are blessed and armored in these moments of our testing and frustration. The opportunity is the catalyst to our victory in overcoming this world as Jesus did before our arrival. Remember, this enemy has time but also knows that time is limited by God’s Plan for return, rule and reign for eternity. Knowing that mortal limitation we may perhaps delight that though we must hold out for as long as it takes that the Almighty God we; Love, Worship and serve knows exactly how long we are capable of enduring.

A lasting embrace of Truth for in its review all is corrected immediately. What commitment my heart craves yet my mind twists in its thinking, filthy fingers will relieve pressures, open coffers and grease the skids of my escape from reason, wisdom and repercussion?

What is hope if based upon the vain attempts of my own psyche to write plausible and comforting end to my own sordid tale of transgression and fame pursuit? What framework this folly? What certainly in lies told and revised to create a version of wiggle room history?

Before God none of this is possible for in His Presence there are no lies, no attempts to revise and extend my remarks until I conjure sufficient argument, no will to serve my evil self in the bright white healing stripping from me all desire, dare and disclaim bathed in Truth.

Yearning to be stripped clean, knowing fully that it must be done in surrender and voluntary humility before the Grace of God’s remaking of my life, soul and eternity. Hating the garments of my counsel before man, in laughing breach of my fealty and love for God.

Replace in me Lord the quest for gain of all the world offers, infuses and taints. Ingestion, digestion and incorporation be stopped and frustrated until the dawn of Your new age comes. Let none of me remain reserved for that evil day when mask again demands the dark.

May I admit and find forgiveness only found in repentance and emptying the cistern of my own omission and co-mission. Let all that is hidden as gas within the tires of my campaigns be emptied. Leaving me cleansed, freed prepared to do nothing other than speak no more lies.

It is not your fault. It had to be this way, no other path accessible to the summit. You must go whether by choice or agreed wisdom, His Will calls for shared understanding.

Making progress requires the difficult pain of growth. Things must be removed and replaced to transform all living things, no new skin without molting no wings without chrysalis.

Even the fallen angels made the choice to remove their habitation, the Divine recognition of inclusion in the Lord. We must put off the incorruptible to be born of everlasting.

What is my love but the act in progress of a temporary man being conformed to heavenly image? Please hear my one request and that is forgiveness for not being the man God demands.

How leveraged are my heart and ability to discern wisdom from foolishness? What investments require I be selective in the teachings and demands of God?

These are not the days to follow men. Perhaps they never were? In all our years of reviewable history has any but God stood this test in transfiguration?

If we can through process become like Him, then He can easily become one of us. My process takes a lifetime, therefore He showed me the way by living His and ascending.

It is not as hard as we appear intended on making it. I do not need to argue with truth, or wisdom or the benefit and loss of living outside of the parameters of God’s Image.

It is easy to see righteousness. What was Eve doing speaking with Satan? What was her objective of standing in secrecy from her man? Where was Adam anyway?

If you go looking for sin fulfillment don’t blame God or man for that quest in departure. And if you cannot teach and stand in good courage defending God’s command, do not blame God or Woman when you have so done.

Oh, the miles we go to free ourselves from accountability for actions taken on our own. For when I acted whether deceived, foolish or brash there may have been accomplice but the reasons and actions were my own.

What then is the end of this beginning? If act in progress which direction and guide do I choose? Is it God or man that is the wrestling match within the head of each man.

I pray God wins in your house and mine. In Jesus’ name.

They desperately want to outsmart God. Mocking Him, not comprehending they are challenging the God who made them. Blindly following some whim to overcome the only being who loves them enough to be long suffering that they would take seriously His command against Sin.

Though I feel for them, God is more than capable of dealing with all within His creation. My job is to be an example of that which God is offering every human, the opportunity to be forgiven and have relationship with the Sovereign Creator of the universe and through this gift spend eternity in His presence.

Saddening that they cannot find value in this gift. Maddening that they would consider comedic chastisement of those that have found relationship with God as somehow a win. This is the contortion of man’s mind locating and placing investment as value or even well thought idea that victory may be found in wrestling with God.

How many centuries have they sought to prove this tactic? As millennia pass every person that challenges God loses, yet oddly we fail to reckon history. It is laughable the repetitive calamity that is man. Worse then whack a mole we seem determined to spend eternity separated from our making, simply to prove ourselves worthy of a rye laugh at the expense of our Father.

This is when we must admit that we are no longer of the same family, that their Father by choice, practice and proclamation is the enemy of God. They have no reverent Fear of God. It will always be their undoing and worse yet they feel compelled to take their madness out on those who enjoy obedience to somehow sweeten their insanity. I invite them to prayer and the fact that they avoid or decline compels us to see the awful truth in their predicament.