My feelings are not sufficient review of circumstance to establish a defensible position of my behavior or my choices. That I feel anything is right, correct or unquestionable remains a subjective analysis of any situation. I am neither the origin or the arbiter of appropriate human action/reaction but rather the Word of God is the Source, interpretation and remedy of all human action. For the Word of God and the Sword of the Spirit of that Word is the discerner of hearts, minds and intentions. God knows all of Creation and is the sole review/judge of our individual and/or collective actions. Every behavior must be matched against God’s Word as He is the only objective definition of what is RIGHT OR GOOD. Doing so in my analysis or what I believe to be codified in self-defined correctness of my or any actions is an exercise in second hand expression of power I was never given. However, if I speak the Word of God all that I have said is Right and True and the sole arbiter of any argument whether with self, power, principality or Earthly spirit. In God I trust all else is an attempt to align with those Earthly/Worldly spirits of power and principality. Therefore when people suggest that I somehow interpret my own actions in the good and determine those I like are right and true because they are allies is in itself a violation and an attempt at wiggle room that does not exist. There is one Truth Found in interaction with God’s Word and Will.In Jesus’ name.

I have not been condemned not of my own behavior or accord but because I have in Faith appealed to the only Judge of the universe He created. I have been forgiven by His Word and HIS Actions defining, forgiving, transforming and restoring me to the Father by His Sacrifices in exchange for my Acknowledgement of my own indefensible state and the only source of deliverance from my predicament found no where else but through the Lord Jesus Christ. This is not difficult yet will be the source and content of the greatest historical and continuing arguments of mankind’s history. The rub is that there is coming a day when the arguments will suddenly resolve and the Wrath/Judgment of God begin. Those who establish either themselves as the defining reserve, explanation for the lack of self account and a self-defined piety establishing personal goodness and allowance, authentication and access to God’s Domain will be riven from the Source of any acceptance. As I can neither depend or defend my actions nor may I ever be the judge who establishes my access to God’s Kingdom I am left with one rational consideration; His Word over my own understanding. No one including and frankly most likely colleagues or those say they love me may pardon, ascertain or excuse my behaviors when they are inconsistent with God’s Word or my own interpretation. That is why it is essential and of massive gravity for those anointed to preach the Word of God carefully resist departure from God’s Word into the realm of feelings or personal understanding. When I have mistreated someone or transgressed against God’s Commands that is the simply truth and the end of personal or partisan defense. Thus departure from the Law of Man though nearly the weight is not the final interpretation for Judgment. For all transgression with the exception of blasphemy against God’s Holy Spirit is wiped clean in the belief and reliance upon Faith in Jesus the Christ.

Therefore, I am sorry for everything that I have done especially but not limited to those conscious decisions but for the times I was equally mistaken or unaware of the offenses against God and Man, Saying sorry for the times I personally felt or believed in my own understanding that I was wrong is the topic of man’s misunderstanding and the dependence upon that misunderstanding. Loving You the way that I would want to be loved requires that I see the offenses from Your Position with sole reliance upon God’s Word as the single arbiter of what is right or wrong. For that reason I appeal to God’s Word in my apologies. May I ask forgiveness and repent of every thought, word or action that is inconsistent with God’s guidelines for my behavior especially in the equipping of Grace. I have been born again to live Christ’s life here, not my own, so a continued and repetitive dependence, reliance or establishment of my lack of guilt in any situation denies that I never was the judge in the first or last place is an indefensible position whether thought or deed. May He find my actions consistent is all that matters. I will not step forward to argue with God or convince Him of my righteousness, for I have none but that which He has given me in repentant appeal for forgiveness and salvation neither of which I may offer myself. He alone is God. He alone is the Word, the Light the Life and the Sovereign. Not only do I deny the ability to utilize His authority in any manner I frankly don’t want to be equal to or above God as the evidence of Self Worship found in all who are His enemies. In Jesus’ Name, that I am saved, forgiven, returned to the Throne Room is His determination alone and I will find out my position whether now doubt remains when I am face down in front of Him. I hope, pray and reside upon the Promises that I will be raised up by His Hand and hear those wonderful words.