Filled

Posted on December 15, 2014 by awrkhakhaya16

Fill my heart with forgiveness, love and focus upon the righteous things of God. There is only so much space in our hearts and minds for the inconsequential emotions and frustrations of this world. Anger, bitterness and despair, rob me of the space necessary to see the harvest of God’s planting, growth and change within. I don’t want to remember the horrible things that have happened to me throughout this life. I have no time to contemplate my anger and reserved grudges for the people who have betrayed me in the past. As with most things in this life the catalyst is “choice”, choosing to let go of those things that consume, instead deciding to concentrate on those aspects of life which generate positive affect. Do not mistake that I have in any way been able to accomplish this “house cleaning” via my own efforts, that work must be attributed to the Lord’s Healing Hand in my life. However, as with any surrender I had to choose to give up, give in, throw my hands up, throw the cupboards of my life wide open for the Lord’s Cleansing.

I rejoice that I have been set free of the bondage of negative emotions and memories. They no longer clog my thinking, eroding or sapping my energy as I now contemplate only the productive subjects of life. What is gained by my concentration upon past hurts, unless it is reflection upon the wound in order to let the Doctor in to heal them? I used to believe and perhaps you share this thinking that I somehow punished those who hurt me by concentrating upon their betrayal and either banishing them from my life or continually holding them accountable for historical misbehavior. This is falsehood perpetrated by ignorant flesh and the enemy, for it instead relegates believers to hardship, despair, lost relationships and diminished joy. These are not the facets of victorious living. Fill your heart with forgiveness and be set free.

Is there evidence of the sealing and indwelling of the Holy Spirit in my life? Do I exhibit unusual patience, forgiveness, long suffering, kindness, gentleness and peace in circumstances that call for loss of control? To what thinking have I aligned my life and heart? Am I concentrating on all the righteous, pure, holy, graceful and kind things of Christ’s reflection or do I remain a captive of the loss in my past? What has become of my heart? Has this change been inhibited by my own unwillingness to choose life, forgiveness and peace? Do I truly wish to be set free through the Grace of God or have I chosen to remain imprisoned by the ill will of the past? The choice is mine, be filled with Spirit and forgive or become increasingly more bitter as my poisonous past festers, clogging my memory, growth, mind and heart.

Lord Jesus, cleanse me, wash over me, cut all my bonds and set me free. Fill me with Your Holy Spirit so that I might reflect Your Heart. Thank you.

http://www.oneplace.com/ministries/love-worth-finding/player/the-freedom-of-forgiveness-437704.html A greatly used and anointed man of God, the late Adrian Rogers.

Indomitable

Posted on December 13, 2014 by awrkhakhaya16

What is it in the indomitable spirit of man that we can take a truly bad day and decide to turn it around? It is not what we’ve dreamed it to be, but a man or woman filled with true joy can make the best in the worst of circumstances. What makes people go on through circumstances that would defeat most? Why is it the same people who end up making it through difficulty after difficulty, whilst others choose to quit at some point determining the road too tough to navigate or task to arduous to complete? What is it in the spirit of a man/woman that makes them the leaders in every environment? What is this “will to live” which is the basis for the bulk of American novels, that overcoming spirit endemic to the desire to discover, succeed and outlast any obstacle? Is there a commonality between these people and if so what is the tie which binds them?

What makes people “go on” through the dark of night, the horrors of battle and the quest to establish new lands? Do people with the indomitable capacity possess hope that guides them passed potential defeatism or is hope somehow granted them because of learned and difficult empirical circumstance? What about those who succumb the world through tyranny, coveting all lands before them, persecuting everyone whom stands in their path to conquest? Is theirs an equal hope, although born of desire to control? Is victory through conquest the same indomitable spirit that indwells those that stand in the face of certain defeat, proclaiming victory? What of those who have been used by God throughout history to shape borders, nations and outcomes, having been blessed simply by the Plan of God?

Perhaps the difference is the origin of their desire to overcome and their fulfillment when the obstacles were dissolved. Alexander the Great was grand reflection of this concept as he notably wept when there were no more lands to conquer. He had historically defeated every known enemy to the point where there was literally no one left to fight against. Conversely, for those who overcome arguably insurmountable obstacles there is nothing left but residual joy beyond that moment of victory. Perhaps they will miss the struggle in some sense, as many have done, because it brought out their greatest energy, but it is not the same remorse felt by those who have conquered everyone in their path through covetousness. Points for reflection, at the age of thirty-three, Alexander the Great apparently died of swamp fever near Baghdad attempting to reconstruct the historic tower of Babel in fabled Babylon, modern day Iraq. Perhaps having no more men to battle against he turned his sights upon God, foolishly believing himself adequate to such conquest? I doubt he was filled with joy as his health and life languished at the hand of an unseen feverish enemy.

Do you know of anyone who is filled with joy even in their worst moments on this planet? Perhaps you will spend some time and inquire as to their reasoning. What buoys the spirit in the face of tragedy, causing some to overcome and others to give up? For me it has always been Christ. Certainly I have possessed a unique capacity to find that reserve energy/capacity to rise above circumstance and taste victory, but before Christ the victories were always shallow, empty and purposeless. When I felt His indwelling Spirit I knew that there was a reason for me to overcome, His Plan for my life and for humanity. I knew for good that my continued struggle for something beyond my own desire for conquest and that my previous competitive war with humanity and with God was over. My joy was completed by Christ’s acceptance, forgiveness and faithfulness. The reason for my joy is Christ and the purpose of my joy is my fellow man, to encourage, support, love and point them toward Christ. Hope is not the thing that allows me conquer this world my hope is “He” who has already conquered this world.

Praise God for everlasting Joy, found only in Christ Jesus.

There yet?

Posted on December 11, 2014 by awrkhakhaya16

My sin earned me nothing but death. I coveted no lasting relationships, enhancements, allegiances, improvements or trust. Nothing good ever came from any of my sins, except that it made me eligible for Christ’s offer of forgiveness, redemption to God and eternal life. If by my acceptance of that forgiveness and pardon for my “sentence”, I agree to live an entirely different life, as a new man, what then are the implications if I continue on the same sinful path sans course correction? What then does it say about my belief in that sacrifice if I lack obedience to direction or evidence of belief? Does it diminish Christ’s surrender to God’s Hand of Judgment or perhaps does it nullify my access to aforementioned absolution? If I truly believe that my sin earned me a death sentence, and I truly believe that Christ sacrificed His perfect life as ransom for my crime, would I not demonstrate requisite evidence of said belief via transformation through my future actions? Have I determined to remain earning nothing for my continued sin, remaining in my original position? Or have I been transformed into a new man, freed of the sentence for which I received pardon? What is the price for backsliding, is it perhaps nil and only effectively mentioned to increase financial deposits or renewed vigor in service missions? These submissions remain inconsistent with the warnings of Jude, James, Paul and other Apostles as to the costs of falling away from faith.

Does my imagination count? Paul said that none of us can comprehend what awaits us through Grace in Glory. I imagine that Adam had significant authority as he was tasked with naming all the animals and tending God’s creation in the garden. My mind causes me to speculate if he even had the capacity to communicate and direct the animals. What then are we to do in our tasks for the Lord throughout eternity? Am I to be placed in charge of gardens on many planets, tending God’s creation as we were once originally intended? You see Paul’s comments sponsor this type of grand speculation. What does await us in eternity? The Lord has always had purpose and intention for each of our lives, shall eternity be different? In His plan I have always had a job to perform that fulfilled my spirit and utilized my specific talent for His Good Glory. What then shall be my purpose in God’s New Heaven and New Earth. I certainly do not wish to be sitting around strumming a harp, sitting on a cloud counting millennia, unless of course that is the job God has planned for me. What then am I living for in this short but important life? Am I looking forward to my place in eternity or am I attempting to capture legacy and glory on the practice field, before even entering the commencement of the “real” game?

Does what I do here in some measure limit the spectrum of options available throughout my place in eternity? I won’t comment on that but I believe you may find evidence to support this concept, crowns, mansions, contact with God, etc. I do not live for the accolades of glory but I know that we serve a God who loves us and remembers our fealty. Spending eternity with God is enough for me, but I also know that He has always had a plan for this life, I have to assume He has one for the next. Paraphrase from Proverbs; It is the nature of God to conceal a thing and the nature of kings to figure it out. I delight in what God has waiting for us in heaven, I rejoice in the comfort that I will spend eternity with the faithful, free of sin, intimately acquainted with God. That is what keeps me going through the storm, knowing that He has this all figured out and that somehow I am part of the winning team. Rejoice in God through salvation in Christ Jesus. Find joy and peace in kinship to Christ. We have won by His victory over sin and death on the cross. Rejoice, I say rejoice. Thank you Jesus.

Simple

Posted on December 11, 2014 by awrkhakhaya16

Do I feel inadequate having not been chosen by God as a hero of Biblical proportions? Lacking eloquence, charisma, talent and treasure, do I feel diminished having been relegated to a position of “simply” telling the good news at every opportunity? Where is my self worth derived? Is it thinly designed, emerging from the impressions, passions and insubstantial dimensions of a worldly man? Do I truly crave attention enough to allow the enemy in conversation to convince me that being a disciple of Christ is anything less than glorious? In a discussion with several “elders” of the Mormon faith who came to my door, they were dumbfounded when I challenged their belief that we are all gods, by asking them, “what if I just want to be a simple man serving a righteous God”?, “what if I do not want to be God, does that eliminate me for consideration in your quest to reach heaven”?

I have a job for Christ, planting the seed of God’s Word into every bit of soil I encounter. I did not make the seed, invent the creativity of the seed, manufacture its capacity to produce life, and growth and harvest. I did not breathe my life into the seed, encoding its DNA with characteristics beyond statistical understanding. I did not allow myself, educate myself or prepare myself for planting, having earned documentation that certifies my “authority” to go on planting seeds. I simply listened, obeyed and improved my understanding of good farming techniques, carrying water and inviting colleagues in Christ to bring their fertilizer to support those seeds I have planted. Do I wish to be a hero of Biblical proportion? I have the same answer that I gave when confronted with the Mormon belief that we are gods. I do not want the responsibility that comes along with being a hero, I simply want to love people in such a way that they want to meet and form a relationship with God. That is my definition of success.

God knew before the beginning of creation that satan would rebel and yet He still chose to create him. What does that tell you about the God that we serve? Would you create an enemy to your divine purpose, having foreknowledge of the struggle, devastation and chaos that enemy would perpetrate? This is the God we serve, who has confidence in His own Glory, Grace and Love. The enemy has lost because principalities lack at their inception and intention that required measure to overcome, Love. I love bringing people to the Cross where they may meet Jesus and become acquainted with their Creator, being indwelt by His Spirit. I love the Lord for what He has done for each of us, that which by all rights He could have righteously foregone. I love people and continue to be surprised by their capacity to rise above this world through Christ and demonstrate our resemblance to God. Lord thank you for making me a simple man, following Your Plan, and allowing me to see immediate results of my efficacy for Your Kingdom.

Well lived, well loved.

Posted on December 10, 2014 by awrkhakhaya16

Former military members know that the enemy never tracks, attacks or reacts to assets that pose no threat. If you are being barraged, harassed or assaulted by enemy attacks you should count yourself fortunate. If you are a believer the enemy must have permission to attack you, without it you stand impervious under the protective hedge of God’s security. So, if enemy arrows are finding purchase in your life then God has allowed this either to alert you to enemy footholds in your life thereby strengthening your resistance or to chasten you so that you return to the Lord in humility requesting assistance. We are commanded to stand in the face of enemy attack, our feet firmly rooted in the courage and confidence upon the Lord’s Faithfulness. If I never receive any attacks then I will neither fully comprehend the Lord’s perpetual coverage over my life nor will my courage and resolve ever be sharpened, expanded and improved. Praise God He is faithful to complete the work He once began in my life.

This leads me to a frightening observation. If you aren’t receiving enemy attacks then there is cause for concern. Either, the enemy has no fear of the Holy Spirit working for His Glory through your life or you have quenched the sanctification of the Holy Spirit to the point where you are no longer being sharpened by the Lord’s Hand of discipline. Our churches should collectively be called to alert by the absence of enemy attacks upon its parishioners. Complacency is the greatest enemy of a willing saint. Satan has convinced humanity, including Christians that comfort, peace and lack of conflict in this lifetime is our greatest, achievable “success”.

All those out there who have experience serving in the military know this to be false. We understand that diligence requires constant training, for perfection is not a destination it is a process. I look at myself in the mirror and I still weep for the work left to be done in my own heart. How can I ever accept complacency when I know that I fall so short of God’s Glorious intention for my life? I am not saying that I prescribe to a doctrine of works for I fully understand that God looks at me and sees Christ’s righteousness, but I also know that I am still here in this short lifetime, therefore I clearly have not finished the work for which God created me.

His sanctification in my life will be done when I face those eyes of fire and have to give an accounting for this life, not before. As Paul stated we should run this race as if we intend to win, not just place or show. I am not perfect, but if my intention is to be like Jesus, then that is the plateau to which I am dedicated. Nothing short of His likeness should be acceptable for any of us, therefore I welcome suffering for Christ, with Christ and understand that the enemy’s presence in my life is indicative of God’s involvement in His process of my ongoing perfection. I am at peace and know that the Lord is my God and “all things are worked together for the good of God’s Will” for I love God and walk according to His purpose. God’s plan is Glorious is it not? Praise Him and welcome His chastisement for it is the only guarantee to a life well lived.

For those Brothers and Sisters who have resolved themselves to the comforts of God’s continued monetary bounty I say “tremble”, for the Lord is not a God of debauchery, laziness and contentment. The battle rages and even now we enter the greater fray. The time of harvest approaches and for those found doing the work when the master returns I say, thank you for your obedience and demonstrated Love of God. For those, and you know who you are, who sit in the pews, piously self-proclaiming your innocence I say “Awake” for the Kingdom is at hand. I pray for workers for the harvest and that all those who have tasted Grace remember the value that has been placed upon them. Live worthy of God’s sacrifice, stand and face the enemy in battle clothed with the armor of God. Praise God that He gave us His Son for our eternal salvation and redemption to God. Let us acknowledge the depth of such a gift with humility, surrender and service of our Righteous King.

Cautiously prepared

Posted on December 9, 2014 by awrkhakhaya16

A wicked and adulterous generation seeketh after a sign; and there shall no sign be given unto it, but the sign of the prophet Jonas. And he left them, and departed. Matthew 16:4

As the crowds increased, Jesus said, “This is a wicked generation. It asks for a sign, but none will be given it except the sign of Jonah. Luke 11:29 NIV

But He answered and said to them, “An evil and adulterous generation craves for a sign; and yet no sign will be given to it but the sign of Jonah the prophet; Matthew 12:39

http://lovestthoume.com/FeedMySheep/UntowardGeneration.html

http://www.sermonindex.net/modules/articles/index.php?view=article&aid=20547

Let us for a moment remember the circumstances and try to see through the eyes of Lot as he beheld the unrepentant wickedness of his friends in Sodom and Gomorrah. The Bible says that Lot was a righteous man, yet the angels were sent to sternly warn him of God’s coming judgment and that he must flee to save the lives of his family. What on earth could have caused Lot to remain, living in fellowship with pure wickedness? Do any of us believe that a righteous man could remain in the midst of wickedness and not be polluted, poisoned or effected? We want to be tolerant, we want to stay our judgment, hoping and praying that this world will find repentance and belief, but if we are also to remain in the wise counsel of God we must remain apart from that social tolerance and cohabitation with wickedness. Are we standing in Lot’s sandals right now?

The sermon’s links above, given by Greg Gordon are scathing are they not? Yet, they tell the truth of nations, generations and societal erosion leading to our current circumstance where wickedness deliberately seeks to corrupt or contort all innocence. The innocent are under attack by powers and principalities of wickedness. Youth, cannot escape salacious images while simply walking the halls of education. The pure are bombarded by the persistent cries of “tolerance” of every sinful act, while the simple pious acts of the pure are disallowed. We sit in our comfortable seats of hypocrisy not realizing that our cohabitation with the world has counted among the wicked in census. How is it possible, even in the slightest manner that we have become new creatures yet continue to commit the same sins that led us to repent in our first encounters with Christ?

Are we that wicked generation demanding a sign from God, calling us to purity? We shall not receive a sign, we only receive the words of prophets repeating Christ’s call to readiness of saints. Simple Question; why did Jesus repeat parables of readiness, demanding that “believer’s” have oil in the lamps unless there is an implied negative judgment for those who fail to listen to His multiple warnings? He was not telling these parables to unbelievers because He had already established that He used parables so that only those with ears to hear would understand. These warnings are for believers who know the truth but failed to obey that truth. My greatest fear for the Church is the same fear I have felt myself hearing those words from the Lord Jesus, “Depart from me you doers of iniquity, I know you not”.

Brothers and Sisters, we will not be given a sign, we all agree that we live in the “time of Noah” or the “time of Lot” as Jesus indicated would occur in the last days. If you feel safe and secure in your church walls yet you and your church families fail to do the work to prepare for harvest, then you should awake for the Kingdom of God is upon us. If you pass judgment on those around you then go home to commit wickedness and unrighteous acts in the eyes of God, then you should fear His wrath, for it is upon this wicked generation. If you are surrounded by wickedness, seeking to corrupt your children in its unholy desire to corrupt the innocent then flee for God’s judgment imminently follows. Do not expect that angels shall be sent to warn you of God’s impending wrath, for we shall not be given any other sign then the one of Jonah. Repent or face the wrath of God.

Holy Father, awake our hearts and minds to the truth of our era. Lead hearts to You with Your Holy Voice so that they might be saved a day and time of Your imminent wrath. Father let us not tolerate the corruption and corrosive voice of inclusive wickedness, preached by this wicked generation. Snatch us from the field of Your coming judgment. Awake Church, Body of Christ, Bride to the Bridegroom of Heaven, Christ Jesus, soon to return for the faithful. If you do not feel called to do the work that has been prepared for us since the beginning of time then you should be concerned for your eternal spirit, for “Many are called but few are chosen”. Matthew 22:14 In Jesus, Holy Name I thank you Lord for drawing us to a salvation we could not find on our own.

That seed

Posted on December 6, 2014 by awrkhakhaya16

A doubting man proclaimed to me that he couldn’t see inside the mystery as everything he’d heard of God made him stop and wonder why? He had listened with ears you see, but all the time he couldn’t see, the glory in the story when Jesus chose to die. This thinking man wracked his brain to the point of having mental pain but the depths of his analysis produced insufficient clues. He looked for evidence in science and fact, yet never thought of how to react to the simplicity implicit to the Gospel News.

It is just so hard to see the light when all you’ve known is darkest night, when everything you’ve learned on faith had to be bought or sold.

So hard to let go of pride when logic, passion and evidence collide, forcing you to rethink every thing you believed or had been told.

This young man looked me in the face as if I were born in outer space, I could see the moorings of his ship were floating free from dockside. His eyes were clear and he pretended to hear as the door to his dilemma suddenly flung open wide. He reached inside his reserve of words, all that escaped were bats and birds, leaving him no alternative but to run and hide. But he was caught as the truth was wrought and the universe revealed as I began to wield the Word of the Lord. His shoes were stuck and his mind was sparked, his resistance had been locked and parked as I told him everything about my God that I’ve adored.

I did my job as a hired hand and planted the seed there in the sand, knowing that the Father would sprout to growth and flower.

That young man has been set free by the Lord of Lords who chose to use me as the vessel of His loving kindness through everlasting power.

http://www.mcclatchydc.com/2014/12/07/249256_suspected-israeli-war-jets-strike.html?sp=/99/117/&rh=1 Israel apparently has made good on their declared prohibition of the advanced Russian Missile System begin deployed in Damascus, Syria. Read Ezekiel 38 and 39 and Isaiah 17, be educated on how all of this fits into Bible Prophecy.

Decided?

Posted on December 3, 2014 by awrkhakhaya16

And if it seem evil unto you to serve the LORD, choose you this day whom ye will serve; whether the gods which your fathers served that were on the other side of the flood, or the gods of the Amorites, in whose land ye dwell: but as for me and my house, we will serve the LORD. Joshua 24:15 KJV

Am I sold out for Christ or is there still question about what I believe and which side I serve? What are the names of the other gods to whom I pay homage? Is there a chance that the Lord God will look the other way as I pursue this worship of idols and false divinity? Am I committed to the people, the principles and the passions of God’s Kingdom or am I serving any interests that would steal from those potential investments? I do not enjoy seeing these truths about myself, but remaining ill-informed, ignorant or in denial about my actions with regard to service to God is potentially eternally foolish. This is a fool’s game to play with God, we should not trifle with the Lord.

Is my mind made? If so, then do my actions, my words, my life indicate alignment with service to God through Jesus? Am I creating disciples, studying the Word to show myself approved, caring in generosity for those who need help? Am I voluntarily opening all the cupboards, closets and compartments of my life to the changing Hand of the Holy Spirit, or am I resisting sanctification? Do I feel badly each time that I even think about sinning and does that “guilt” cause me to make decisions that align with God’s Will for my life? Does everyone that I know, “Whom it is that I serve”? Is there any question in the eyes of those who review my life that I am a Christian? If so, am I standing here in fear and trembling or am I simply determining to remain nonchalant about my salvation? What have I made more important in my life that my relationship and declaration of my eternal identity in Christ Jesus?

If the battle comes, there are many that will be left behind having not asked and answered these questions for themselves. This is a personal decision and cannot be made by my parents, my wife, my friends, my ancestors or public opinion. I will not get to heaven because everyone agrees that I have been “good enough” to be found worthy. On my own behalf I deserve death for the sins in my transgressions against Almighty God. So, let us dispatch finally the idea that any of us may earn, find or somehow produce enough good karma or works to be allowed passed the pearly gates of Heaven. I will only be found righteous as God sees Christ’s Righteousness covering me. I will only enter Heaven when God the Father sees in me evidence of indwelling of the Holy Spirit having baptized me and sealed me for eternity. For me there will be no judgment day as I have already been found innocent in the eyes of God by Christ’s payment for my guilt upon that cross, two thousand, some odd years ago. I have been redeemed, set free, reconnected with Almighty God through Christ. Do I behave that way or am I still living within the corrupted flesh of the man I once was? That question should frighten each of us and be a source of peace for them who can truly say that they are “alive in Christ”.

Convenience

Posted on December 2, 2014 by awrkhakhaya16

The unifying theme of all religion is the method with which man deals with sin. Some pass it on to their ancestors, or claim that our sins and plight are the responsibility of reincarnated man. Many pay homage or ransom to this good cause or that social issue to rid themselves of the guilt associated with what we all know to be inappropriate life choices. Some boldly proclaim that sin is their mantra and age themselves rapidly, trying to gain that one last high from ill gotten gain, twisted morality of sensory affectation. Then others deny themselves even basic sustenance hoping to purify their bodies of sinful activity yet cannot free themselves of the awful thoughts that confront us all in our wakeful moments. Others try to ignore it, hoping to create agnosticism, and in so doing deny sins existence by claiming there is no God to hold them accountable for sin. Some proclaim themselves kings so that they may fulfill all their sinful desires at the expense of their subjects, justifying horrific acts in the name of their supposed, frail and temporary divinity. Others wish that aliens, who trace their lineage back to a created universe are the farmers of humanity, pondering that aliens must have rid themselves of sin’s encumbering grasp. Only Christianity deals with the issue of sin, head on, seeing its resolution through God activated by man’s choice of cleansing and redemption. We are all related in that we once were slaves to the wretched chains of sin and its partner in escrow, death.

What shall I do with sin, shall I ignore it as the psychologists claim is possible? Maybe it is merely an invention of my own mind and the customary guilt an illusion I need not feel but for a better manifestation? Perhaps I can thresh it from my wicked bones, seeking solace in pain and reminder of my own wickedness and impurity, turning from anything joyful as it must also be filled with sin? Maybe I can put it off on the lower cast, denying them food while I play with mega-toys, trying desperately to concentrate all my worldly attention on self gratification. Perchance I can repeat mantras, chants, jingles and prayers, dispelling the effect of my week spent in wickedness by putting coins in a bucket and whispering in the dark for several hours? Maybe if I investigate acceleration, black holes, vacuums and forces I can tame my own mind to forget the things I have done to my family and friends in the name of science? What shall I do with my self piety each time it is shattered by a thought I shan’t tell anyone for fear my perfect reputation will forever be soiled? The truth that binds us all is that we are sinners. We may not have created this label but we have all participated in its customary practices.

What greater may tie us together freeing us from the bondage of collective and personal sin? Why, Jesus Christ of course. God, incarnate, who came and lived our painful, sinful, foolish lives, without committing even one sin, then took the punishment which was deserved by all. He loved us enough to give His life to please His Father, and provide humanity, the opportunity to be cleansed of sin and find our rightful place at the footsteps of God. What shall be done with my sin? It has already been removed from me and taken as far as the East is from the West. Why, because I listened to God and accepted His eternal pardon through confession, repentance, belief and obedience to a King who deserves all I can give and more. I am sorry that we all have suffered or continue to suffer from sin, especially when the cure is evident to all mankind. I do not boast and hide under a false, white robe of purity, for I still walk this world and therefore I will continue to sin no matter how hard I try in my worldly skill, strength and struggle. Hallelujah that Jehovah has set me free and now His Spirit works within me to sanctify me for that great day when I will kneel at His feet in adoration. As awful the story of sin it is dwarfed by the Grace in the Will and Love of Almighty God.

Seething

Posted on December 2, 2014 by awrkhakhaya16

Rage. Rage at the machine, the Government, My Sister, the neighbors, the roads, the sky, the sun and moon. Overwhelming, inexhaustible, screaming revealed passion, broiling over from this vessel, agonizing over everything in entropy. Father, this sin is our fault, thank you for waiting us out to accept the only available cure.

Lord God, I am at loss as to what to do with this turmoil in my heart and head. Thank you for your peace that surpasses this global evil having apparently supplanted justice. If it weren’t for Your teaching Father we would have no frame of reference for Truth. I guess we would just accept this polluted era as norm. Thanks be to God that You have provided an alternative to the obvious outcome that confronts humanity. In fact it is so corrupted that those who would be emperor cannot even admit our approaching demise and keep buying trinkets as if this ship will be righted, rearranging the deck chairs for the party following calamity.

Father, I have Christian Brothers who cannot stop looking upon the naked images of women on the internet, hoping somehow that this will solve the relationship problems with their wives. There are Pastor’s who have convinced themselves that everything will be fine if the flock just gives X + Y dollars, X being the tremendous amount dedicated to fixed Church Costs and Y what will be used for presently inadequate discipleship programs. My Family hates me because I refuse to tell them what they wish to hear about our moral decay and unwillingness to surrender to Christ Jesus, as they return to the their bottle, girlfriend or video game. I have friends who practice the same old experiment, knowing confidently that this time it will somehow deliver a positive outcome. I continue to rage, although I have gotten better at internalizing it, the same old brawling spirit shows its contorted visage when I fail to get my way. Death craves the living, pestilence seeks escape from captivity and war rears its endless, consuming maw, threatening the sum of history. What am I to do with this roiling gut full of acid when the nightmares are real?

Father, how long will Your Name go mocked by the lips of the wicked and disobedient? How long will the souls of martyrs remain by Your side crying out for revenge? How long will these propped up, false kings be allowed to represent Your Authority? What must we do to call the willing to penitence? How shall we honor You when we are dedicating to our own glory twenty four by seven? What is to shake us from this stupor as we stand paralyzed on the walls watching enemy advances? Father, take me if she would but be spared this agony of daily despair. Show her joy, let her know love exists, so that hope may follow. I am powerless, yet I serve a God who holds the foundations of the world in his palm. Hear my prayer Father, hear my prayer, won’t You please. In Jesus’ Name.