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A watchman standing my post with eyes, heart and mind open. When you combine Paul's warnings to Timothy in 2T3-4 and Mordecai's words to Esther 4-14 the truth becomes inescapable. Standing around hoping for change is folly. Cry out or come out but the path cannot be followed by standing still. Do what the Lord told "you" to do because time is short and there are many roads. Choose the narrow one that leads to life!

Reach

We seek to be different yet we crave togetherness.  How is this resolvable?  How can I seek to blend in when my DNA, my skin, my fingerprints, hair and eyes have been uniquely crafted so that I am particularly discernible from each of you?  Why create such a uniqueness if randomness, chaos and collective non-singularity are the objective?  What is the power of indoctrination, conformity and communism if not to take that which is unique and make it indistinguishable?  Why does my heart yearn and burn for something that this world desperately seeks to conceal?  Why was I made unique, because that uniqueness implies individual and singular purpose?  If that were not so I would not “be” but rather, we would exist.

The thing we reach for that is just beyond our extended fingertips, drawing each of us to tip toe, reaching out to grasp the sky.  I have a picture in my mind, one that I would love for you to see, yet I cannot paint.  I have a story that I would love for you to hear yet I am outside those that have the means to publish thought.  I am a shepherd.  The smelly part of humanity that we would rather ignore, forget or banish to our necessary fields on the untenable highlands.  We see, we protect, we love and we adore God in our quiet, windy moments spent in reflection upon the hill hoping that nothing happens outside the ordinary but preparing for those times as we know they shall come.

I do not expect that you will find my thoughts acceptable or logical or palatable.  I hope for the opposite, that you find me unique as God has made me, that my oddity inspires your need to figure it out, wondering why I am so strange.  For this is the light of Christ.  It is not like this world yet reflects Him in the world He created, for what created thing does not demonstrate the signature, aspects and insights of its Maker.  Solomon said that there is nothing new under the sun.  This I believe, except when it applies to each human being that is conceived for you are uniquely spectacular to me.  There is a song in your heart that I wish to know, a building you alone were meant to construct a problem whose solution resides in your mind alone.  Do not allow the powers of this world to package, can or lump you collectively into a beige or mauve mundane torturous nightmare.  For this life is meant for joy and realization of unique purpose, leading each of us to an intimate relationship with God.  You hold the key, it is choice and the choice is named Jesus Christ, the Door, The Way, The Light, The Lamb, The King, The Good Shepherd for all men.  He resides in Glory and in each believers heart.  Reach for Him, He is waiting.

The do’s and the don’ts

The Lord is no respecter of persons.  He loves each of us equally, paying no homage to skin, nation, wealth or geographic preferences.  That does not mean He has no requirements of humanity.  He made the world, He made the rules, we get to choose, so do so wisely my friends.  The world and the pressures therein are rapidly dividing its population into two distinct groups; those who believe in Jesus Christ’s life, death, resurrection and ascension and those who do not.  That is the line of separation by which humanity shall be judged for that is the rule which God laid down for all men.

Certainly there are those who have yet to make a decision regarding Christ.  For them the heat shall be increased, the pressures intensified, the places of safety removed, such that they will be forced to choose voluntarily or choose out of refusal.  Even the Jewish Nation, God’s beloved will be subjected to such great tyranny and tragedy that they will be forced to come to the only possible realization over which they continue to stumble, the Cornerstone of Christ.  I fear that hard times are coming to all of us, yet I do not fear from whence they come, for it is the Lord’s doing.  The Lord knew before the beginning of time that many would not choose unless given the impetus necessary to drive that decision.  We as a world will be provided the appropriate chaotic climate from which to make a decision for or against Christ.  He loves all people and wants that we will all come to the knowledge and acceptance of His gift of saving Grace.  He will lead us to the Water of Life, where we must choose to drink or to refuse.

I pray for us as a species.  We resemble God yet cannot see ourselves even when looking in the clearest, available mirror.  We debate the minutia yet miss the big picture topic.  It is not about this or that or the other.  The conversation has always been about God, as our origin and our destination.  People who seek an alternative explanation for the origin of man, use science, theory, philosophy and all available literary devices to convince themselves that we did not come from the Word of God, speaking us into existence.  They desperately must find another way so that they owe no debt of judgment for sin.  It is human nature to create illusionary circumstance where reality is too difficult to stomach.  So, many construct their own malleable version of this world in order to cope with the fear of judgment.  For them, I pray the most, for their house of cards shall tumble first.  The first moment into which God shows His face, which is coming soon, will eradicate all their illusionary safety.  When the enemies of God attack Israel and they shall, what God does next will remove the veil for all mankind.  There will be no denial as He will supernaturally destroy 5/6 of the approaching armies in one fell swoop, leaving no doubt of His sovereignty and promised protection of the remnant of Israel.

Let us depart from the truthful obfuscation of intelligentsia.  This argument is not about details, theories, strategies or battle plans.  God confounds the wisdom of the wise.  It is about God’s coming judgment and what we are willing to do about it.  Do you believe in the Lord Jesus Christ and His substitutionary death upon the Cross of Calvary to pay for the sins of mankind or don’t you?  That is the question that plagues the hearts of those who seek to steal the blood of the innocent.  They cannot afford to be found inadequate by a measure of their goodness so they turn to the only other illusion provided by the fallen angels that they must take the life of innocent people in order to receive God’s blessing.  Clear illusion, falsity and foolishness has captured the heart of desperate humans willing to seek God through ungodly, wicked acts of cruelty.  Forgive them Lord, lead them to the knowledge of the Truth so that they might see their sin and repent.  We the do’s owe it to them to give them every opportunity to choose righteously, for that is the reason why God has been so patient with humanity, giving all the time to come to that knowledge.

God help all to see the choice that lay before us as a species.  Forgive my unforgiveness and allow me to have a pure heart and clean hands.  Thank you Lord for giving us the time to come to a decision whether we do or don’t, you have freely given us the right of self determination.  Let all those who would escape judgment do so by being cleansed in the redeeming Blood of the Lord Jesus Christ.  Father I know that the wicked shall be punished in righteous fashion, for Your Judgment is Fair.  We cry out to you now on behalf of the innocent, please Father, save them from the cruelty to come, hear their blood scream to you for justice, mercy and truth.  We love You Lord, in Jesus’ Holy Name.

 

The Clock

We don’t know when, we just know, at some moment it will happen.  I cannot tell you how precious my life’s moments have become for I know not their number.  What plans are a man’s when the next breath remains outside his control?  How can I prove my love to you without the time to show you?  Are all my thoughts constrained by warden Time?  Is working out my salvation with fear and trembling possible when I have no time to understand reverence for God?  All creation is on the clock, including the fallen, but for God there is no conclusion, no beginning, no measure and no pressure to perform.  Are you warming to the idea that things are not your own, for without the time to own them there is no authority.  Try breathing without breath, try farming without rain, try dreaming without thought, try planning without time to strategize or execute your action steps.  Control is an illusion, therefore the enemy can only hope to convince us the illusion has form.

My thoughts are sinful or pure, but they are nothing without the time to think them, the time to commit them or the time to ask that they be forgiven.  I am nothing without time, the time to walk through this life making choices that God gave me the time and grace to make.  I have no time, it is given to me, not owned.  What I do with the time I have been given either serves for nothing or for God, there is no twain.  For if there were no men in the forest what legacy would I achieve if none had the time to read my godless deeds?  God’s review of my life in the time He has given is the only testimony of my worth.  Just as any other created being outside of time I am nothing.  This is not true for God.  For outside of time He is still limitless, borderless, infinite.  Rejoicing in His gifts, enjoying our relationship and loving others with the love He gave me are my greatest achievements but I needed the time to experience them or they didn’t exist.  That is why life is precious for I have the time to experience the pain, the joy, the trials, the victories and the people.  Without the clock life’s precious moments have no value for we all face the determined and inevitable countdown to what faces each of us after this life.  So, time makes each of us believe in something for we either believe it ends abruptly or continues, but we all believe in something beyond the governing hands of time.

I pray that you have the time to contemplate that belief, for it is the purpose of this life.  Ironic that what happens after this life determines the quality and fulfillment in this one.  One thing I know is that I don’t know how much time I have been given.  Therefore I choose to live the rest of it for the Lord, assured, loved and determined to live forever with God.  Thank you Lord Jesus for the opportunity to join you in eternity.

True

Would it be true for me to say that I take all of my decisions to the Lord before choosing a path?  Would it be true to say that today I treated each person I encountered in a way that reflected the way I would want to be loved?  Would it be true that I have forgiven everyone whom offended me, especially those whom would be my enemies?  Would it be true that I loved my wife as Christ loved the church?  Would it be true that I put God first in a position that recognized His authority, sovereignty and unique position as the only object of my worship?  Would it be true that I walked as if I have been filled, indwelt, accompanied, counseled and taught by the Holy Spirit?  Would it be true that I remain a light and salt, preserving, sponsoring and convicting this world through God’s Word, prayer and observable living?  Would it be true that I live in this moment as if the Bible is True and I am responsible for my obedience to that Holy Word?

The truth is not meant for the lost alone.  In fact, the Truth of God’s Word should be established as necessary and unavoidable to those who have chosen to abide in Christ.  Do I perhaps avoid Truth as inconvenient, simply choosing to pull God’s double edge sword when my personal justification is not present?  What then is the power of Truth if it is subjected or susceptible to my personal reliance, interpretation or choice of timing and application?  Ouch, that one hurts.  How about for you?

Where can I go but to the Truth of God’s Word to determine my similarity in Christ.  How may I know if I am missing/making the mark as an ambassador if I have not firmly established the “Absolute Truth” of God’s Word as it applies to my every action?  I cannot depart from the Truth in convenience and ignore the conviction associated with misbehavior, as I am the Holy of Holies where God resides in this plane.  To deny that voice of Truth, making decisions based upon my own desires, understanding or misunderstanding immediately places me in the dangerous position of conflict with God.  In Truth, I have never heard any Christian claim that they wished for or invited hardship into their lives, yet that is exactly the outcome of this personal practice and flippant handling of Truth.

I sinned today, I recognized it, confessed it to God and turned away from it.  I followed that process purely based upon God’s Truth and my belief in its inerrant nature, its sufficiency and efficiency in removing the weighty implications of my sin.  I did not rely on my ability to conceal, justify, get over, ignore, cleanse or make up for that sin.  The Truth is that I can do nothing about my sin apart from Christ.  Just as Christ is the great dividing line of humanity, His forgiveness of sin is the great burden to which no other religion provides solution.  His Truth should be my Truth and when it isn’t I should immediately ask and receive His forgiveness for my transgression of that Truth.  I know that someday I will remain in Spirit all the time, never venturing from His Will, but today was obviously not that day.  For today’s transgression and in hope of my eventual total obedience to His Truth, I ask you Lord to forgive me and teach me how to remain steadfast to Your Truth, Always.  Praise God in Jesus’ Name.  Amen.

 

No choice, no love.

A wealth of knowledge cannot earn me love.  My best laid plans and cleverness are impotent in manipulating adoration.  The respect that I gain from a job well done does not guarantee the love of my colleagues.  My monetary wealth simply assures that I have something which must be constantly attended, it does not make me eligible for the love I have been missing.  A wonderful physique, personality or astounding beauty fails to enhance my chance of being loved by one iota.  A loving Father does not demand love from his children for he fully understands that love is a choice on the part of the giver.  That is the nature of God’s gift to humanity, that we may accept His love for us in our darkest moment and “choose” to love Him back.

If you hate Christ then you will also choose to hate me.  If you cannot forgive then you have chosen to hate.  If you cannot love God for who He is then you have chosen to love your own view and understanding.  If you cannot believe the truth of the Gospel message then you have chosen out of skepticism or rebellion the need to make of yourself a graven image acceptable for your particular worship.  A child does not love out of duty but out of choice emanating from a open heart.  I want them to love me, but why?  Is it truly necessary for them to love me in order to serve their need, to sacrifice my time, treasure and talent for their comfort, health and safety?  Or may I love them simply to honor God?    Do I fully understand the inherent foundation of choice built into true love?  For if my wife, kids or family love me out of duty, obligation or relation do they truly love me?  If I love them and they never love me what then should be the price, if any, for this absent love?

Can I build and maintain intimate relationships where there is no bond of love?  It is unlikely that intimacy will ever be present in a relationship where the choice to love was declined.  If someone, out of free will choice, determines that they do not love me, can I, should I or could I ever change that circumstance in the affirmative?  Again it is unlikely, as that would again require love to be something that may be earned by my own performance.  Since, love is a choice on the part of the giver it may not be given as a reward for effort.  Doesn’t that mimic salvation?  We cannot earn salvation for it is freely given and thus accepted out of choice.  Odd isn’t it that love and salvation share this similarity?  Or is it odd at all that God’s Grace and Love are entirely the same thing?  He loved us so much that He gives us the choice to accept His Grace and Love Him in return and that freely given love leads to an intimate relationship.

We know that there is a major difference between asking someone for a favor and demanding that they do something on our behalf.  I love God because I choose to Love Him.  He certainly is worthy of my love but that is not why I love Him.  I serve God because I have chosen to love Him and feel that this is the greatest demonstration of that love.  God showed me the meaning of love.  I can love my family fully completely, sacrificially, just as Christ Loved us.  It is their choice to love me back.  Those who do not love God will never get to know Him intimately.  I loved my Earthly Father but once I got to know him better my love increased.  That is the enhancing nature of intimacy, fellowship and relation.  Love grows as we give ourselves to its shaping hand.  Oddly again that sanctification shares this similarity, that it grows over time as we volunteer to the Potter’s Hand.  For intimacy with God is sanctification through Love, the love of God for us and we for Him that transcends the limitations of this world.  I choose to love you and I hope that you choose to love me back, for if you choose to love me then it is highly likely that you have already chosen the Love of God.

May you be blessed all of your days by the Loving Grace of Almighty God through Christ the Saviour of mankind.  May the Holy Spirit fill you with love and good will toward men giving you power to aid in setting them free from worldly bondage.  May God’s Word tumble from your mouth as you seek to plant seeds for the Kingdom.  May you always be filled with knowledge of God’s steadfast love and the choice that you made to follow Him.  May those around you choose to love you, giving you the gift of intimacy with those you love.  In the precious name of Jesus.

Given

Life, personality, gifts, love, people, expression, energy, tears, pain, joy and truth.  Rebirth, transformation, faith, understanding, courage, overflowing joy, trials, mercies, a chance to lead others to the same, knowledge and peace that surpass the boundaries of this world and my original construct.  Friends, who do me justice and harm, so that I might be increased and sharpened.  Wealth, so that I may learn its righteous and selfish usage.  Freedom from thinking and acting like God.  The joy of being and serving something greater than my own ideas.  Time to test my mettle and see how my perception matches my reality.  Relationship with a God I don’t deserve who gave everything so that we all might experience that intimacy.

I have failed, he perfected.  I am finite, He made the river of eternity.  I want and wish and willfully struggle, He gives what is right, necessary and best for all concerned.  I anger, He quiets the stormy ocean.  I speak in emotion without understanding the consequence of my choices, He waits for the perfect moment to whisper edification or correction.  I take what I want and leave the rest, He uses all for the salvation of humanity so that we might see clearly His Glory.  I push, pry and bully, He offers an open hand of assistance.  I dream, He creates.  I punish, He forgives.  Please explain what evidence I should use that indicates I should be making any of these decisions.  I am thankful for what I have been given. For it is His way not my own and though I may not have the omniscience to see what is around the bend of waiting, patience and pain, I simply choose to embrace the faith He has given in perfect understanding that His destination is always better than my plan.

I wait on the Lord because that is my expression of trust and dependence upon Him to walk with me through the battles, storms and trials of this life I have been given.  Praise God in the name of Jesus Christ the King of all.

Lining up

http://apnews.myway.com/article/20151121/ml–iran-israel-802f84ed57.html

How do you view recent worldly events that coincide with Biblical Prophecy?  Not how does you Pastor feel about, or what does your church think of it or what have you seen recent Christian pundits discuss, but what is your personal view?  You see the relationship between God and every Christian is a personal one.  It was a personal decision to accept Christ, a personal decision to follow Christ and equally a personal and individual decision to  “Study to shew thyself approved unto God, a workman that needeth not to be ashamed, rightly dividing the word of truth.” (2Timothy 2:15) 

When discussing this matter with any of you I do not care what someone else has to say about these issues.  I only want to hear your view, for that is apparently how the Lord views it as well.  God forgive me if I have spoken incorrectly about His position.  Eternity will not allow us to take anything with us of a material nature, but it is clear that we will remember, regret or appreciate the things we did while in this life.  In fact, we will very clearly discuss this life with the Lord Jesus Christ when we meet Him face to face. 

How then do you see the enemies of God lining up for their part in the Battle of Gog and Magog, the tribulation times and the final battles on the day of Christ’s Second Coming, coincidentally a day that is spoken of in the Bible more than any other time in history or future.  Logically none of us would go to work, leaving the house improperly dressed, if we have seen the day is prone to inclement weather.  That would be foolishness.  It is equally foolish to leave the house ill equipped to be a Christian, not having studied or taken our work seriously for Christ.  Isn’t that taking the Lord’s name into the world in a vain attempt to accomplish something for which we have been ill advised, ill equipped or insufficiently prepared?  The Holy Spirit will give you the words that you must say, but have you taken time to know the person of the Holy Spirit so that you may recognize His Voice above the din and noise of this world?

We know that the rapture appears to be near, but none of us knows the day or the hour.  What if it comes after a time of persecution, where the prince of the world and his minions are given authority to make war against the saints?  What will you personally do when faced with the pressure of imminent loss by declaring your allegiance to God through Christ?  What will you personally do when the enemy armies entering Israel are culled by over 80% in one day?  Will you be one of those who hides his head in the sand or simply stands silent, when Bible Prophecy is fulfilled by the enemies of God in their attempt to conquer, defeat and destroy Israel?  Don’t you see the indications of the storm on the horizon and if you do not then you must not have studied what God says is soon and quickly coming for mankind?  Do you believe or did you just answer when times were tough and you wanted a free get out of hell card?  A man who believes acts upon that belief otherwise it is as James attested a “dead faith”.   

Have you asked your Pastor, elders and deacons to teach on Biblical eschatology?  If they aren’t teaching books like, Peter, John, Jude, 2nd Timothy, Daniel, Ezekiel, the minor prophets and Revelation, then I would ask you are you getting a mature understanding of God’s Word or just tickly parts?  Are we called to know truth or just the pieces that give us warm fuzzies and comfort?  Isn’t that the same reason for which people use marijuana?  Just another feel good exercise to escape the pain of life and reality?  This is a personal decision for each of us.  If you are aren’t being given the full truth then don’t you either wish to demand it be taught, seek it yourself or simply go somewhere where leaders fully accept the gravity of their responsibility as Shepherds for Christ?  If they aren’t teaching you everything at least ask them their reasoning?  I believe that the answers will surprise you.

Every one of us sees the rapid decay of social organizations, both in this country and abroad.  All of us have seen the emergence of Israel and a return to its land by God’s People.  Everyone of us sees now the obvious non-coincidence of Russia, Iran and other Biblical established characters being dragged into the battle surrounding Israel and its neighbors.  Simply look and read Isaiah 17-19 and you will see clearly that the actions in Syria and Egypt were predicted over 2700 hundred years ago.  If you will read you will know and your faith will grow.  That is a promise from God.  Hold on to Biblical truth, do not run from the trials of this life as God is always in charge, even those times when we have departed from His Will.  He is very clear and direct about His expectations and will for all of us as Christians.  If you are confused then you either have not read His Word regarding those expectations or you have chosen to disobey them.  Either way the responsibility is individual, each of us is personally accountable to God.  I see clearly Biblical Prophecy and the players in end times, “lining up” to a conflict with God.  They are about to lose BIG, doesn’t that make you want to jump for joy, praising God for His faithfulness.

Join me in singing God’s Praises for as the hymn proclaims, “Great is His Faithfulness” and we are meant to “Trust and Obey”.  Get to know God.  Learn and discuss His Word with the Holy Spirit, your family and the church.  So Jesus was saying to those Jews who had believed Him, “If you continue in My word, then you are truly disciples of Mine; and you will know the truth, and the truth will make you free.” They answered Him, “We are Abraham’s descendants and have never yet been enslaved to anyone; how is it that You say, ‘You will become free ‘?”  John 8:31-33.  The enemy wishes that you skip the work associated with being given the truth.  So, as always he twists God’s Word to make it easy, palatable and open available to even the wicked.  Jesus says you must continue in the word and then you will truly be disciples of His, then and only then will you be given the truth and be set free by it.  That is significantly different then the world’s twisted understanding of the simple phrase, “the truth shall set you free”.

God has prepared in foreknowledge for every twist, action, scheme and plan of the devil.  Remember God knew everything that the enemy would do before time began yet he still chose to create Him.  I don’t know about you but that gives me tremendous confidence in the Word of God and the 100% likelihood that those things which He said will come to pass are in fact about to happen.  Get right with God, get ready for His unfolding plan, get your hearts prepared for the return of our righteous Lord and keep your vigilant eyes heavenward assured of that imminent return.  Praise God for Jesus Christ the King.

I do not ask for anyone to follow me, it is Christ you seek and I pray that my words plant a seed within your heart to cry out to Him.  I am subject to the same sinful nature to which we all have entered through birth to this life.  Yes, I am striving, craving, asking and learning by the sanctification of God’s Holy Spirit to become an ambassador to reflect His Glory.  Do not for a moment believe that I find myself above, set apart, holier or better suited for the nice seats in the church or for the work God has set before each of us.  If I am successful in any measure with regard to the things of God then I will become invisible as you see the Master’s Light.  The following scripture should guide each of our thinking with regard to Kingdom work.  In its reading and review I see just how far I have come and equally or more greatly how far I have yet to follow Jesus.  I am not there yet, but someday, I will look into those eyes of fire and see that smiling face as I enter my real life to serve Him without the burdensome shroud of this sinful world.  Lord change my heart letting me become that which you’ve always intended.

2 Corinthians 6:1-10

We then as workers together with him, beseech you also that ye receive not the grace of God in vain.  (For he saith, I have heard these in a time accepted and in the day of salvation have I succoured thee: behold, now is the accepted time; behold, now is the day of salvation.)  Giving no offence in any thing that the ministry be not blamed: But in all things approving ourselves as the ministers of God, in much patience, in afflictions, in necessities, in distresses, In stripes, in imprisonments in tumults, in labours, in watchings, in fastings; By pureness, by knowledge, by longsuffering, by kindness, by the Holy Ghost, by love unfeigned, by the word of truth, by the power of God, by the armour of righteousness on the right hand and on the left, By honour and dishonour, by evil report and good report: as deceivers and yet true; as unknown and yet well known; as dying and behold we live; as chastened, and not killed; As sorrowful, yet away rejoicing; as poor, yet making many rich; as having nothing, yet possessing all things.

 

I watch, but still do not know

The nose ring, tugging, pulling, dragging Russia into the Middle East.  Those eloquent, prognosticators always predicted it would be oil.  Yea, that will be it Russia will be sucked into the fray by black gold.  We never thought it would be provocative terrorism or perhaps political puppet building.  What we are seeing is that evil only matters in the hearts of men for God simply uses what they intend for evil’s sake and turns it to good, the Good Will of His Plan for humanity.  Let the wicked join with their wicked colleagues, plotting, twisting reality and frightening people with rhetoric and devious deed.  We know that Russia and all the enemies of God’s commands will have to find their way to Israel.  The group that brings them into the region through the tools of terror or those who seek to prop up fallen regimes in order to protect warm water sea installations shall all serve God’s Purposes.

That must frighten unbelievers, atheists and those directly aligning themselves with the prince of this world, for they cannot escape serving God.  When everything is said and done, no matter the awfulness of their attempts, no matter how many innocent they kill, they will not forestall the return of the Lord of Lords by one instant in time.  For like it or not the fallen are subject to time’s constraints, where God is not.  He may wait as long as He wishes to wait, desiring that precise moment when all who will choose Christ have had the opportunity to do so.  Where the wicked have to succeed now for time draws to close, when no one pure or wicked may do further work.  That must frighten God’s enemies, it only strengthens me, for when He comes He comes and I hope to be found doing His work when He does.  It is not God who chooses hell for each of us but of our own volition.  We may equally decide to accept His offer of grace and avoid that horrible separation from God, but all this serves God, that we cannot escape.

I must love those who hate me, while hating their sins and evil deeds.  Men are not my enemy but the wicked spirits that drive their hearts to consume, kill, contort and contaminate humanity.  For all men who design their own reality must control the thought of all around them, so that no one, even accidentally shines light on the illusion causing their house of cards to crumble.  For sin wishes to convert all those around a sinner so that they too may join in the poisonous misery.  For sin may not be enjoyed if there is even one person around who loves you enough to tell you the truth about your frailty.  The numbness of ill company that will never call you to restraint or repentance.  I cannot stand bye while you destroy yourself and keep God outside the sphere of your illness.  I understand that you must subsequently reject me from your life, but that is okay.  I pray you shall never forget the one person who loved you enough to tell you the truth of the Gospel and of your life.  Maybe some day you will remember and seek me out.  That will be a glorious time for the both of us.  In Jesus’ Holy Name.

Good shepherd

My own understanding got me to the wrong location, situation or standing in relationship.  My desire to control a spherical environment leads me to exercise undue influence, rules and regulations upon those whom I love.  My lack of control over the circumstances in my own life leads me to pressure those around me to keep their P’s and Q’s in order, thus vicariously making my life somehow more tolerable.  None of these statements puts God first, none allows me to try God’s way and see that it is always the best and none gives me time to trustfully sit at the feet of the Master.

Do I trust God enough to let go of this false perception of control.  Have I fully realized that it is a defense or coping mechanism that is somehow socially tolerated while all other addictions are frowned upon.  That is why I do it because no one calls me to accountability, except of course the people who have gravitated away from me over the years to save themselves the onslaught of my enforced standards.  My way doesn’t work.  Certainly I have the best of intentions but intentions don’t heal wounds, time, care and medicine close open sores.  It is time to trust God.  What does that mean, I don’t know, but it will absolutely produce a more significant result than my own dis-proven efficacy.  My will or His, my will or His?  Do you hear the mantra of the internal conflict of a man wanting desperately to allow God yet holding on to the last string of self actualization?

Did I develop my own purpose or are all my dreams grown from the programming He placed within my DNA from the outset?  We know the answer.  I have wanted to be what He made me to be yet it is unreachable simply through my own talent and acquisition.  Becoming what God intends takes God’s action in each of our lives.  It is not a thing of self as the enemy would have you convinced.  My free will calls me to volunteer to or deny Christ.  That is the power of choice, but once having been made there is a significant price to fighting against the yoke.  I no longer wish to pay that price.  I no longer wish to set standards of performance for those around me when all I really want is their love.  Lord, teach me to choose your path first and settle upon it never varying, walking away of straying even in the slightest from Your direction.  Let my steps be true and in line with Your growth plan for this life.  Let me love them enough to set them free from my own imposed bondage.

Thank you for once again showing me the next thing that You will work upon in my life.  It is painful but it is freedom.  I must first see my chains before they may be broken.  Thank God I am set free from all bondage and servitude to this world and sin.  Thank you Jesus.

Creature of the Creator

In truth and resemblance to His image what am I to create?  Distress, adding potential to the stresses of the saints or arguing doctrine with the unconvinced?  Challenge to the harmonious community of believers through dissent and words ill chosen?  Isolation, calling myself and those whom I hold dear to seclusion from the false words and tickling doctrine of today’s godly marketeers?

What then shall we cling to in this moment of declaration?  Shall it be independence akin to the logical resolve of the founders?  What environment do I feel is most hospitable to profit in dispensation of God’s Holy Gospel?  Is it one of childish love, where everyone and every behavior is accepted or acceptable?  Or is an adult understanding of the power living internally, leading me to challenge wickedness, hunger, disease and poverty?

Since the Gospel is foolishness to them who perish, may I politically regard their blindness as sufficient excuse for inclusion?  What then of men who have ignored, disobeyed, denied or mocked the truth of God, given so that none shall have excuse?  Shall I continue to banter, offer my breast for rapier wit, making myself a fool through refusing conflict?  What then has God called you to do?  Stand in the face of overwhelming enemies, odds and consequence, seeking capture of the High Ground or simply recede refusing to vie for the lives in balance?  What then is my position as a prince and priest in the order of Melchizedek?  Is there anything worth fighting for or have we been transformed by the world to believing that nothing is worth ultimate sacrifice?

A leader who stands bye as those around him perish is committing the sin of complacency.  We have been given talents, position, authority and Spirit’s Power to embark and complete the work to which each of us is assigned by the Master.  If ignorance is no excuse for them who will not accept God’s Truth, then it shall provide less solace and justification for them who should trust and obey.  We are slaves to righteousness and so commanded may not simply decide to ignore the weight of God’s expectations.  It is not the doing which earns us heaven but having been freely given heaven we have been filled with the desire to do as we have been told out of reverence for God.  The choice has been made.  What shall I create.  The same thing that the Lord did as He wandered Israel, inquiring hearts, desperately seeking freedom from bondage through the one available path for all men.  Seeking that which has been lost and delivering them the Gospel so that they might be redeemed to God through the Blood of Jesus Christ.

If I must fight then let it be to save those precarious few peering into the abyss or in defense of the innocent or maybe even so that my enemy may see through sacrifice that there really is one true God.  If I must argue, let me argue for the righteousness of God among the saints keeping them Holy and Pure for the day of our completed betrothal.  If I must be complacent then let me stand silent when I have the right of unforgiveness, forgiving them who have wounded me worst.  Let me create an environment of trust through truth and dependence in my character over time.  Let me be like Christ in my devotion to His Will and to loving them especially when they are fallen.

It is the Creator I serve, so let there be light.  Let me be salt water of healing to them who are wounded or overcome by putrefaction and sin.  Let me preserve the tiniest hope in them who have been overcome by despair.  Let me lead them even in my last step or breath to the foot of the Cross of Christ, so that they might find rest.  Let me be like Christ.  Praise you Lord God for the opportunity to create that which You would have me produce.  In Jesus Holy Name.