Wrestling with Spirit of God must be done, especially in circumstances where you cannot surrender to His Love, Wisdom, and Counsel.  Do not depart, though avenues of escape will taunt you throughout your journey.  For they lead to wondering, contrivance and craftiness in Nod or other cities of men.  Lay hold of your righteous blessing and if you must question God, do not let Him go until you have received the price of strife.  For the Lord wishes that you were cold or hot but to stay lacking belief or direction is a fate worse than departure.  At least the departed have made choice through belief in self, satisfaction and satan.  They know whom they serve.

I pity the lost in their abandon but feel greater sadness at those who are unwilling to stand up and voice their discontent with an Almighty God that loves them enough to listen to such inquisition.  That plight is one for which I will fight.  I cannot stand idle in faith while those around me squander power, authority and fulfilled existence at the expense of cowardice, indecision or doubt.  Do not expect to remain in my sphere and not be prompted, prodded, pushed or contested.  For I too have struggled with God and He won.  I carry with me the dislocations of my contention but I never let go until receiving His Blessings of Grace upon my life.  Although, I highly recommend surrender over strife, if the choices are sitting on the fence in noncommittal tepidity or wrestling with the Almighty, then I council you to fight with all you are worth.  To Him be the Glory, Honor, Praise and Service.  He is my God and I His man.  Thank You Father in the name of Jesus I pray for those who have yet to see Your Truth.  May You have mercy on us all.  Amen.