Whatever you think of me it is good to my heart to see great things happen to good people. I don’t want every surprise to be about me, because God is the Center and the outer reaches of His Universe I am happy being a hockey puck bouncing around inside of it.

When I think of all the things I never celebrated because they would have seen my tears of joy I chide myself for being romantic, foolish or simply manly weak. But those are not the true qualities of man that make him different. It is the those tears that separate real from plastic.

When we went head to head you lost repeatedly. That is the nature of a man with talent who was groomed from birth to win against you, but that is not who we both may know that stands before you. For when you fell I didn’t applaud or run on without you I stopped with outstretched hand.

It has always been that way the real man in me is the one that seeks your healing not your destruction. I am the one that does those little things that go unnoticed until they are gone. That is the failure of humanity taking those valuable things for granted in this life we don’t respect.

It is okay. For the price of caring is that when there is a road that people have named for themselves that they must travel alone I cheer them to go follow it. Knowing all along that at some point they return for it is nice to have someone who loves you enough to let you go and dream.

As Pastor, I would love to have real family and I do, it is a small one and for the longest time that bothered me. You see, the greatest value in this mammon run mindset is that everyone must love you that achievement to be met. On that note I was always wrong just never saw it.

For the less people who love me and will never leave means that most are caught up in something they cannot control, especially when late at night when they are happy or truly sad it is to me they make a call. It hurts more than it helps, but that is from my perspective.

For in service it doesn’t matter in the moment what is best for me, but how God would want me to reach out to you or listen to that valuable instant. For He loves you and I do as well. However, there are only very few who have committed to travel this and the next life with me by their side and for them Just as with those who have chosen Christ, they don’t ever want to lose Him.

Me, not so much. But some day I will see Him as He is and be just like Jesus. Amen.