Paranoia, is an unhelpful dose of self defense, however true threats linger and in the escaping balance we are forced to use provocative tools better left stored or forgotten. Trust is that perpetual state of forgiveness and acceptance leaving a cleared tabulator. When that union is established all the old devices must be relinquished and healed.

What is Trust in God Almighty? What is the courage to take the blind step into mental imagery or precipice designed for one purpose; to test reliance? How will God show each of us the way to denial of self if not feeding a constant threat stream to which we apply our own insufficiency repeatedly? How many times must I mistakenly try to protect?

These enemies have powers beyond our comprehension, yet we will face them with razor’s edge or the limited extent of human projection. They are beyond my capacity to restrain and it is my own imagination that leads me into direct contest. Especially, the moot but relentless belief that somehow this time it will turn differently. What was that definition of insanity?

I have been left alone for reasons; some I am reluctant to admit for they reveal the tests and the trials I have been sent to navigate and surrender before God’s Throne of Grace. Alone is a state where I am totally responsible for the hurt I would cause others and the enemies I attempt to face in my own mortal power. How many times will I fail to Trust the Father?

“Can you make fire with the rocks, metal and chaff I have given?”, The Lord Beckons. The Panic dissolves as I use the provision and protections given rather than seeking escape or running to some other savior. Why is this time paramount? What is wrapped within the construct of this unique decade that forces all men to choose or remain indifferent?

That simple analysis points toward to origins of understanding. That. when all else fails I run to God’s robe, forced through overwhelming dilemma to make the decision of confrontation. What is paranoia, a sleepy reminder that I have failed to surrender before the tasks become overwhelming. What is important about this day? It is the day I surrender before the battle.