Know the stars at the center of your universe. Even as child, restful in the ideas and dreams that drove you through life’s passages. Were you clear, resolute, decided and sure about the things that made up matter and mattered most to your heart? Was life certain, defined, established and sensible in all its frailty such that doubt never encroached upon that determination? Never shaky, always sound, lashed to rail with no pitch or yaw.

Isn’t it a journey for just that reason, because in its unsurety, its undetermined possibility life becomes the reason for our discovery? Some may say that they knew, but when we discuss it with them who knew them better we find another story entirely. This is about doubt, bad decisions and a quest for determining what makes each of us tick. Not about convincing ourselves and those around us that we have always been and will always be contained, prepared and unshakable.

There was nothing certain about my past, present or future until I made that decision that sets each human apart from the temporary to investigate the everlasting. I am the epitome of that man who never meshed with his surroundings, never fit in, never felt comfortable in his own skin, because this skin was never meant to be fulfilled in this lifetime. Some experiences may not be found until accepted into the Kingdom, to pursue those dreams of a life spent as we were meant to be. Fortunately, we will be able to realize our true desires and fit in completely in the real life to come.

I have always been a traveler in this world. Desperately seeking that opportunity to settle down, put down roots, find a family and spend all that wonderful time just getting older. However, that has always been the fantasy that created the stress that never quite measured the silhouette of true destiny. Some were not meant for this world, just temporary assignee. This seems strange to most who believe that the answer to their dreams lay within the confines and limitations of mortal life, but my greatest achievements were not meant for this time.

I will be at home when I am with the Lord to be the creature that I even now can only stretch to imagine. Certainly I sing, in joy, love in strength and fight with veracity and the ferocious fealty of devoted man. However, my passions extend beyond the horizons of this lifetime into the next when the wisdom of the ages will be manifest for my application. I will never subdue or diminish this crucible that prepares and provides patience, but there is one thing of which I have become readily certain, that there is no answer to destiny for me here, this is preparation for the real to come.

In Jesus, I live.