Lord why so many questions? What internal compunction drives me to know? If I were content but to view instead of review this world would appear less complex. Is my analysis a worldly urge and urgency or something placed in my DNA as prompting to seek answers? What is this grand internal pressure that I should know that which I presently do not? Didn’t they say that somehow ignorance is bliss? How then do I create my own discontent in the quest for revelation?

Even now I am asking you questions about my questioning spirit. Am I incapable of simply being observer and learning through the quiet sensory reflection upon visual stimuli? Must my mind and mouth be attached that upon my lips appears immediate question of what I have seen? Why must I take apart the watch to discover its inner workings in presumption that there is some elevating concept in “knowing” its origin? And when confronted with that origin finding that it creates even greater questions about the maker of that origin, isn’t that the answer to my own line of questioning?

Did you make me to seek you from the word go, when as a child I immediately began to ask everyone around, WHY? What is the origin of this inquisitive nature this prompting to analyze with these senses over which I have little mastery? Data, data, data, swamped with data, over which there is little escape but to wall oneself off in a dark plaza. Are we made to be susceptible to sensory input as a production or device of enemy tactics to overwhelm the receptors that they near or find incapacity and overload? What then is the mastery or reluctance and tolerance or control of input? Are there limiting powers given within rebirth that protect these receptors from any unwanted or spurious data? Do we have filters? Is that the answer that somehow we are in You protected from this bombardment of fiery data darts or sinful visualization, auditory or epithelial input?

Father, I am always on a quest to understand, to know the comprehend, seeking controlled mastery of the world around me. Is the victory in life the decision regarding process? Am I to be given that knowledge by Your Hand for the asking instead of biting the fruit of the poisonous separation from you in seeking it through my own line of questioning? That sits well with my stomach. Yes, that is it, that I am to come to you with my questions and they will be answered in perfect timing with clarity and purpose, rather than seeking knowledge of my own accord which opens me to the wiles of this deceptive enemy. Putting the collection of knowledge first on my priority list creates enmity with you because it is looking to the world to answer the questions you stand ready to provide. I acknowledge you in my quest for understanding, depending not upon my own, but fully reliant upon your direction and provision as to what I should know and when. Thank you for bringing me contentment that I no longer seek power, control and comfort through the quest and limitation of my carnal inputs and analysis, but look to the eternal wisdom of God for revelations beyond my static capabilities.

You are My King and My God, it is you alone that I follow, In Jesus’ Mighty Name.