Weeping, not from personal pain or betrayal but from an understanding of my intractable desire to help in some manner when I cannot. This is God’s Work and His alone to fulfill or deem unnecessary for His Perfect reasoning. When I look upon a thing I now fully comprehend that I am viewing with inadequate insight, especially lacking the wisdom of power application outside time. God sees all our lives, not just all of us but the entirety of our lives in one snapshot and knows the ebbs and flows of our learning patterns and divine opportunities throughout our short mortal existence. Therefore in that understanding and total complex knowledge He alone knows when to apply His touch, His Word, His Will to bring about the perfect outcome. Yet, when I look upon you in desperation I still weep for lack of affect.

Is this emotion, this wishing, this perhaps hoping things are different somehow a personal betrayal to my trust in God?  Good question. Does every doctor violate God’s Will when he or she cannot save every patient? Do they contend with God when having to realize that the patient is beyond there skill level of application and now must be commended to the hand of God? We feel and that compassionate desire to help, cure, heal, support and defend those in need must be a part of our heaven kinship, for in its powerlessness, I find the only solace available, the Trust that God knows Best.

Contentment, certainly is an indication of agreement with the Lord’s singular capacity to deliver outcomes. My ambition does not outstrip this understanding for some things, though I may wish them so, are beyond my capacity to produce or have been denied by God. Will God perhaps heal your wounds, there in lies the desperation, my only answer being perhaps?

It is what I do at that point that designates and defines my Trust in God for knowing that He can do the impossible thing, it is then time for powerful and potent prayer, leaving the outcome to God but knowing that He promises to deliver for His children asking in His Name. I pray that He heals your wounds and returns you to an established confident position sans the insecurity you now experience.  I know that He can and that He does promise to deliver on those prayers, but I also know that He may know something so complex about your life that this is the event that will sponsor your fulfillment.  Thereby I will continue to pray and weep for you in your pain but I will leave the outcome to Almighty God, knowing that He loves you more than I.