Until

Ephesians 4:11-32

And he gave some, apostles; and some, prophets; and some, evangelists; and some, pastors and teachers; For the perfecting of the saints, for the work of the ministry, for the edifying of the body of Christ:Till we all come in the unity of the faith, and of the knowledge of the Son of God, unto a perfect man, unto the measure of the stature of the fulness of Christ:That we henceforth be no more children, tossed to and fro, and carried about with every wind of doctrine, by the sleight of men, and cunning craftiness, whereby they lie in wait to deceive; But speaking the truth in love, may grow up into him in all things, which is the head, even Christ: From whom the whole body fitly joined together and compacted by that which every joint supplieth, according to the effectual working in the measure of every part, maketh increase of the body unto the edifying of itself in love.  This I say therefore, and testify in the Lord, that ye henceforth walk not as other Gentiles walk, in the vanity of their mind, Having the understanding darkened, being alienated from the life of God through the ignorance that is in them, because of the blindness of their heart: Who being past feeling have given themselves over unto lasciviousness, to work all uncleanness with greediness.  But ye have not so learned Christ; If so be that ye have heard him, and have been taught by him, as the truth is in Jesus: That ye put off concerning the former conversation the old man, which is corrupt according to the deceitful lusts; And be renewed in the spirit of your mind;  And that ye put on the new man, which after God is created in righteousness and true holiness.  Wherefore putting away lying, speak every man truth with his neighbour: for we are members one of another.  Be ye angry, and sin not: let not the sun go down upon your wrath: Neither give place to the devil.  Let him that stole steal no more: but rather let him labour, working with his hands the thing which is good, that he may have to give to him that needeth.  Let no corrupt communication proceed out of your mouth, but that which is good to the use of edifying, that it may minister grace unto the hearers.  And grieve not the holy Spirit of God, whereby ye are sealed unto the day of redemption.  Let all bitterness, and wrath, and anger, and clamour, and evil speaking, be put away from you, with all malice: And be ye kind one to another, tenderhearted, forgiving one another, even as God for Christ’s sake hath forgiven you.

Until the dawn, til the clouds part and our savior sets foot upon the Mount of Olives, for this we wait in patience.  Lord I see Your plan unfolding by the dark spirits that travel openly seeking to raise Your Creation.  Until Your Grace is withdrawn, they shall plunder, divide, diminish and deceive.  Until then Judgment will wait, but not for Your Glory, for it all points somehow providing insight to Your Majesty.  Until the sounds of battle, silence, I will stand with the shield of my faith, protecting my Brothers and Family as You have said that it would.  Until the sky is rolled up, falling stars littering the cosmos, I will gaze upon creation knowing it is but a clue to Your Sovereign Awesomeness.

What shall we wait upon if not for “until”.  For none of this is glory, but only tests, reflections, meanderings, diversions and wonders, set to capture our attention, while providing opportunities to rise above.  Until the moment we look into those fiery eyes and know that home for us is everlasting relationship.  Will I carry the cross made especially for me to wherever my God leads me?  I won’t know until I have succeeded.  What are we working toward, waiting upon, looking forward to?  What is that thing for you that makes you do whatever you must, stand what must be withstood, go where you should never be able?  Isn’t it simply “life” through Christ, with Christ, living in peace, contentment and service to each other to pleasure of Good Glory?  We humans crave this, paradise, this freedom, from the chaos, violence, wickedness, illness, poverty and pain of this existence.  Our disagreement and subsequently our purpose lie in the pathway to this paradise.  Where deceivers would have the bulk of humanity fooled by their own rebellion into believing that it can be collectively achieved by works, meditation, science, mysticism or cleverness, when there is but one path to Glory.

Jesus is the only way to God.  There is no tolerant way to speak the truth, for it cuts away obfuscation, deceit and flowery encumbrances.  We as Christians are left with only one stance.  It is not popular, just as warning of coming danger, whether fiscal, natural or war, our charge is to explain the need for salvation from coming judgment.  It is not my judgment, it is not up for discussion and this immovable truth, just as the commandments, leaves no room for wiggle.  God is waiting so that all who will come to salvation through belief in Jesus have had ample time to do so, for that is how much He loves us, all of us.  I cannot soften, water down, change, modify or adjust God’s Truth to make people feel better about its clarity.  That is beyond my station, my capacity or my will.  I do not want the ability to rewrite God’s Word, for it is already perfect in every way.  It demonstrates the love of the creator of every universe in that He would die for His own creation, so that we might be returned to good standing with Him.  It is man who allowed sin into the world, it is God who provided the way for us to be free, cleansed and removed from the power of our own sin.  It is therefore God who provides the door, the path, the avenue, the process.  That path is solely through trust in Jesus Christ, as God was named when He came to Earth.

I love people, I wish I had the ability to express how much I love people.  But in my humanity I want to scream at them for the things they consciously, daily and unabashedly do to each other, in the name of self service or preservation.  God’s Spirit, living within me bids me be eternally patient, understanding, kind, gentle and loving.  These are not my inherent qualities, but the characteristics of God He has grown within me.  For I often do not wish to forgive, yet I do, because God would have it so.  Until I become more like Him, I will not be able to understand the blind, irrational and frankly terminal behaviors of man.  Until I had a relationship with God, I was incapable of such compassionate understanding.  Lord, until You take me out of here or You come to set things right, I will be standing my ground, speaking Your Word, telling of Your Glorious Truth of salvation, judgment and coming Kingdom.  Give me all things that I will need to do the work you’ve set before me, until such my time is done.

One chance

This life, this one-way road, gives us one opportunity to get things right.  Some have concocted fairy tales to appease their terrible fright, allotting themselves thousands of chances to get it right.  Others are encumbered with the awful burden of measuring their goodness, needing to do one more good deed before time is up.  Some solve this collective dilemma by denying the existence of God, for if He is not there then there is no requirement to believe or be judged.  Others give into the merciless flesh, practicing every manner of sin attributable to man, hoping to remain aloof of reality.  Most of us realize the preciousness of life is that there is only one, and that so short.  Praise be to God, He has given me the opportunity to be free from sin’s burden, so that I may live this life in the knowledge of victory, never worrying what shall be done with my mistakes.

All things worth pursuing require the investment of time, treasure, maturity or sacrifice.  None of us wish for second best, though some times we settle for it or it becomes the only/best option as the sum of a string of poor choices.  But this realization is always accompanied by regret.  Certainly we may convince ourselves to be settled, or relatively happy, but all the time knowing that we somehow missed the true mark.  Isn’t it worth it to wait for God’ very best, giving everything we’ve got to reach the pinnacle of our probable/possible existence?  I don’t want regrets and each time that I settle for that which God did not intend for my life, I am always burdened with the reminder that I settled for less.  I pray to God that we all have the patience, courage and strength of character to pursue only God’s Will and wait on His Blessings.

Just as in free will, I suspect that life had to be designed this way to make it so valuable, it is crucial to value each passing moment with a knowledge that it will never be lived again.  I went to India and I was astounded that people just stepped over, ignored or mistreated the unfortunate or homeless.  They explained that the karma of their last life made them deserving of their current state, so everyone was justified in ignoring their plight.  How cruel we may become in freeing ourselves of guilt and obligation.  This life is mine, and I am solely accountable for my actions and inactions.  The inactions are often more painful than wrong actions, because I can be forgiven for making a mistake, but I will never see the opportunity to complete a missed divine appointment.  God let me be present in both mind and body for those appointments You have set before me.  Let me leave no stone unturned when it comes to my opportunities for message and ministry.

Recall

Time with You.  Spent in quiet.  Moments where troubles, thoughts, complications surrender to relationship in peace.  Questions asked, prayers extended, worship offered and blessings granted.  What of this thing, this kinship, permission to approach the King of the Universe as if we have known each other since birth?  How does this permeate my expression, my character, my resolve and determination?  Could even the greatest brigand, thief or deceiver convince you that your Father has disowned you?  Especially, when His written decree is there for you to gaze upon, know and remember.  Father, You are what this life has always been about.  Forgive for the moments when circumstances have convinced me otherwise or grabbed my attention, for a moment taking my gaze from concentration upon You.

What more precious than this time?  Time to be washed of worry.  A period of light which no darkness may dispel, nor effect.  The warmth of redemption and sanctification, being sharpened for battle, leading to everlasting peace among nations.  A King, worthy of every breath.  When foolishness is resolved, leaving its nonsensical mockery forever silenced.  The day when we need never worry for the well being of children.  For it shall come, just as the peace washes over each of us in prayer and time spent in presence of the King.

Model, mystery and maturity

The Lord has told us all that we need know, through His prophets via the scribes He chose to document His Word.  What does it all mean practically?  How am I supposed to make use of a document so large, so difficult to sift through or understand?  I sympathize with those who do not know where to begin not with them who are using a falsified complexity, which does not exist, to avoid learning scripture.  The Bible gives me comfort, joy, wisdom, ideas, direction and correction, each day.  It allows me to remain secure when hanging by a thread and find my way in the darkest night.  How do I make sense of the old testament in such a way that it applies to what is happening in this day and age?  I don’t think to hard about what I am reading, simply choosing by faith to accept it as fact.  I approach it in the following three step process.

The simplest way I seek to utilize the Bible is by first looking to the “model” of the people He chose to use in demonstrating His Love through the Word.  I then look for the “mystery”, that thing that I was meant to learn from reading, praying upon and contemplating the text.  Finally, I take steps to place into action the things I learned from reflective study, asking the Holy Spirit to intervene and “mature” me in my walk through faith.

Model; Abraham.  Abraham’s experiences with God delivered a road map by which to navigate the dangerous roads of this life.  He was a gentile, born in a Pagan land, chosen for his ability to believe as well as present the model of every Christian to follow.  We have all come from the land of unbelievers, just as Abraham, and through choice, belief and faith have now become God’s beloved.  Abraham was commanded to leave behind everything he knew, that God would show him where to go.  This is required of all believers as we must depart from the known, worldly practices and beliefs trusting God that we will be made new, directed and cared for by grace.  Abraham is a perfect model of the acquisition and practice of faith in the Promises of God.  Like us he continually made mistakes and repented, got up and renewed his faithful walk with God.

Mystery; Legacy.  Abraham’s legacy is Christ and the salvation of humanity through the creation of the Jewish people, leading to the birth, ministry, death and resurrection of Jesus Christ as payment for a debt all of us owed but none could pay.  His faith the mystery we were meant to grasp in our human intention for no one may please God without it.  The mystery of Abraham’s blessings and challenges are modeled to represent how each of us must walk through life, keeping close to God, while understanding the impact of wandering from Him.

Maturity; Peace.  God meant for believers to be at peace, here on Earth, just as He is in heaven.  This peace only comes from understanding, having been washed in the Word long enough to arrive at a robust and trusting faith in the promises of Almighty God.  What then shall I take, this day from counsel and private time spent in the Word of God.  I shall take assurance in the maturity of peace that is afforded me as a gift from God through Christ Jesus.  Maturity often means listening to my brothers and sisters in faith, knowing that God will use them to sharpen, reprove, move and encourage me.  This is the peace of God which Abraham has shown us through His walk with God.  A promise of salvation, redemption and peace with God through belief in and a walk with Jesus Christ.

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Not a thought

Splitting hairs appears to be the enemy’s bait for Christians.  For example, If I am convicted of a crime is condemnation always warranted?  Certainly not.  And in our case the Bible is very clear on there being no further condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus, Romans 8:1.  So, although the Holy Spirit may “convict” us of a sin, whether action or inaction, we shall never suffer the condemnation deserved for that guilt pronouncement.  The enemy will seek to distract, deceive and convince you that these two words mean exactly the same thing, thus trapping you in perpetual, self unforgiveness.  I need to give up on imagining myself without sin for the rest of this life.  That is not to say that I should not try with every ounce of my being to emulate Jesus, but I must also understand the nature of sin, the flesh and the devil.  Just as every other saint I am going to continue to make sin mistakes, being chastised by God’s Holy Spirit for each misstep.  I must not exacerbate this frailty by aiding the enemy in convincing me that I am therefore condemned for each of these mistakes, requiring Christ to be crucified all over again at each failure.  I am free in deed, which means that I am not going to suffer God’s condemnation, wrath or judgment, no matter how many times to Holy Spirit convicts of necessary change.

I will continue my vigorous attempt to present my body a holy sacrifice, prepared, useful and pleasing to God’s Good Will.  Justifying the enemy’s accusation of me is not my job.  If I am deserving of the enemy’s critique, no matter what is said, then it is God’s prerogative to chastise me for that deserved judgment.  My Father is the only one I either need trust or be concerned about.  Pleasing man or living up to the false pronouncements of deceitful spirits is frankly, not my concern.  God looks at me and sees Christ living here.  What more need I understand?

We must be of sound mind and body, especially in precarious times such as these, the last days.  I say the last days, not to raise someones ire regarding prophetic timelines, but because the last days started the moment Christ rose from the dead.  I believe, there is no “if” about God’s forgiveness, you either have it or you don’t.  Truly believing God’s redemption, justification and sanctification, requires an adherence to a forgiveness imputed to our account, covering every pronouncement of guilt.  Otherwise how could it wash us clean to be ready for a lifetime spent in eternity with a Holy and completely righteous God?  Christ become all sin, so that all might be set free.  He didn’t just cover the really bad ones for believers, rather all of them.  Why then waste a moment of contemplation or aid to the enemy by believing a voice of condemnation, potentially paralyzing us from our faithful walk with the Lord Jesus?

Who decides

The problem with man self defining limits of morality, corruption, behavior and law, is that the bulls-eye becomes mobile.  Is there one person that we could look to with the “appropriate”, socially acceptable list of human behavior, one upon which all of society would affirmatively agree?  That is what the great law school’s did back in 1872 and America has been screaming down the slippery slope of relativism ever since.  During that time we were told that the Bible would no longer be used as the definitive guide to arguable law that it instead it would be replaced as guide, by the history of man kind.  One man’s immorality is another man’s daily devotion for we do not all serve the one God of Abraham, Issac and Jacob.  Some serve the dark and would legalize things that most of us would immediately condemn.  The problem is that these people now have control of our educational system, our courts and our media.  Who can tell me that they will not use their position of influence to change the moral topography of America’s societal norms?

We cannot remain on this ethical relativist footing for the ground is malleable.   The basis for determining what is right and what is wrong is now a prize for the best argument.  In effect we have left our moral determination up to the best lawyer with the greatest political or monetary backing.  That is not the intention of America’s founding, that our stand would be daily defined by mood, lobbyist or worse yet nobility.  We the people, stands for the collective determination about a set of “self evident truths” to which we all agreed.  Our moral, and ethical standing must not be up for compromise, revision or bargaining chips.  We must return to an agreed upon standing based upon the only immutable truth in this world or the next, The Word of Almighty God.  Without an immovable, unchangeable truth, we remain on a platform doomed to continuous movement, impossible to pin down.

That is why America’s existence is doubtful for there is now a population of ethical relativists large enough to drown out the voice calling us to return to the absolute surety or our dependence upon Divine guidance.  All around us they call us to a Morpheus future where everyone will define legality by what satisfies each man’s lusts.  Thanks be to God, this is a sign of His imminent return, for the requirement for Him healing our land shall not be met as those who call themselves by His name will never now humbly repent.  America may go away or be transformed into a quasi socialist dictatorship, but God still remains on the throne and His truth shall never be changed by the vileness of man’s sinful and self-serving passions.  There is an immoveable truth America, written for all to review in the Word of Almighty God, given us for direction, correction and guidance in our battle for purpose and understanding.  I implore us a return to reason in our constant vacillation to the solid footing of God’s Word as law, grace, prophecy, praise and security.  To God be the glory of our lives well lived.  In Jesus Name.

The help button

It there were an award for the amount of times you have either failed or been told that you failed, I certainly should be a contender.  Each day, I seem to fall short of what I should be doing for God, My Wife, My Family, My Friends, The Church, My Country and a host of others to whom I have a duty of sufficiency.  Lord, you have seen me struggle to change in my own “newest resolution” and fall flat on my face the first opportunity in which it becomes necessary to exhibit patience, gentleness or other spiritual fruits.  I just thank everyone I know for being so patient, gentle and kind with me in allowing me to continually fail at every attempt.

But still God loves me, I don’t how, why or even if it makes any sense at all, I just know that He does.  If God can love a screw up like me, walking with me in patience through my repetitive slew of failures then He ought have no difficulty in loving you.  We must have hope, not in ourselves, for my behavior and scorecard demonstrate the foolishness in that idea.  We must have hope in Him, waiting, crying, failing and screaming at times,  but always somehow knowing in the back of our dilemma, that God is quietly at work.  I have lost hope in my ability to grow my way out of my own problems, but He has never once left me there in my ridiculousness.  He has always brought me the next person, experience, job or thought with just the right information, energy or provocation to get me to the next step.  I don’t know how He does it, but somehow He manages to drag me to the next destination or draw me there with shiny objects.

Father, I apologize for my screw ups that have shamed you in any way or hurt anyone, especially those I love dearly.  I wish that I were a finished product, but alas, we both know that just is not going happen this side of paradise.  Father forgive me for hurting those around me.  Teach me to be more gentle, especially those who do not need the impetus of a ton of buffalo chasing them around.  I know that I will not learn until You teach, I just pray You find the time to teach me and that time is soon, because I am certain my friends and family are ready for the buffalo to depart.  Walk with me Father, hold my hand because so often I do just because I do not know what to do, so I just do something.  Guide me to the understanding and patience to be a much better husband to my wife and a Brother and Friend to those around me.  In Your Name I pray Lord Jesus.

It isn’t that difficult

Men put the complications in Christianity.  Christianity is simple. Follow Christ.  This begins with repentance and forgiveness, then continues to prayer and study followed by copying His behavior in our own lives.  Then we must learn to walk through this life relying upon the Holy Spirit to guide, change and transform us to His likeness.  What the Bible says we need to know.  Why? So that we must first begin to know God.  Then when tested, tried, subjected to corrupted teaching or called upon the give testimony, we are prepared to share the Truth of Christ.  We must avoid the naive temptation to resist the devil utilizing our own strength, authority, reason or justification for it is not us that the enemy fears.  He fears Christ and must flee the Word of God.  That is why Christ demonstrated how to resist the enemy while fasting in the desert.  He always answered attacks with the Word of God.

Honesty is also simple.  How many Christians do you know who are fulfilling the great commission and making disciples of people?  How many Christians do you know that have a thorough knowledge and practiced usage of Bible text?  How many Christians do you know who are out there putting their money, time and energy in first priority to further the Kingdom of God?  In how many Christians do you see the “fruits” of the Holy Spirit of evidence of their salvation?  Are you kinder, gentler, more righteous, long-suffering than you were when you first begun your walk with Christ?  Have you begun to resemble Christ and if not, then why not?  Have you taken time to learn the Bible, pray about your questions and put into practice what you learned?  If not how do you expect to learn a discipline you are unwilling to practice?  Do not allow folly to rule your existence.

We were “set aside” to be different than this world.  The differences are not mystical, magical, spiritually high-minded or lofty, but simple.  Simple common sense and orderly living, just as our God demonstrated and bid us follow.  Radical questioning of foolishness, hypocrisy and loving care for the unfortunate, just as our God demonstrated for us to follow.  A willingness to choose God over all other things, establishing, nurturing and growing closer in relationship with the Living God so that we are transformed in our nature and subsequent reflection upon this planet.  And finally, growth to the point of “Trust” in the promises, nature and faithfulness of God to do what He said that He would.  Then reliance upon that trust to the point of standing in hope and courage in the face of battle, especially when the circumstances seem to contradict God’s Word.

Do not allow men to complicate what God has made straight forward.  Do not allow atheists to put the burden for the existence of God upon us, for His truth is know by every man.  They know He is there.  If they “choose” not to believe then it is there own folly which shall bring them into conflict and judgment of Christ. It is not my job to prove to every foolish or rebellious man that God exists, it is my job to love that man in spite of his ridiculous behavior and to forgive his transgressions, leaving the rest to God.  It is my task to repent, forgive, learn God’s Word, pray and walk spreading the Good News of the Gospel, following Christ to the Good Will of the Father.  My faith will grow by hearing the Word of God, so I should shower myself daily in that Word remembering to follow only God’s Voice.  Christianity is simple.  All efforts to complicate it have nefarious intention.

To God be all the Glory, Honor and Praise, in the Name of Jesus Christ our Lord.

Hands too small

The pain available for consumption in this wretched old world is too much for me.  Lord is nothing Holy, nothing sacred, sacrosanct or treasured anymore?  Must all be trampled underfoot or reduced to grime and ashes?  We see word twisters, and faith changers pushing ideas designed to trap simple folks in an indecent quest for “identity”.  The caps, boundaries, laws and guidelines have either been torn down, forgotten, ignored or corrupted so that all contemptible pleasure is permissible if done in the name of self expression or actualization.  The pinnacle of human resolve has been reduced to things of low character, golden trinkets and burnished medallions of lowly character and dismay.  Our children follow heroes who threaten, burn, kill and mutilate the innocent, counting themselves wealthy for ill gotten gain.  I will not mourn this world when you remake it, I shall not miss them, but for now I will bask in the remaining light of Your Glorious Spirit bidding make disciples of men, leading them away from the precipice.

Father, I long to spend time just being with You.  Just breathing, listening, watching and following every gesture, each word.  The gum has lost its flavor and though I have not lost my salt, I wish that the dish were finished.  Father, how long must the weak, orphaned, sick, hungry, thirsty, miserable and dying suffer their misfortune?  Will You not set them free and avenge their travesty, soon?  Forgive me for asking Father, but will I ever have that kind of patience?  The kind that You seem capable to displaying for millennia upon millennia, piled up through the ages.  What have we done that could make You wish to wait out our folly?  I pray to have a heart that sees us worthy in the end, for now I see nothing but disobedience, mockery and self concern.  Will I resemble Your Son enough to be recognized as Your child or must I continue to dissatisfy?  Frankly I am bored with my attempts at measuring up for they always fall short, even my grandest and most well thought efforts.  This thing, salvation, must be Your work for my own will forever be inadequate to this tasking.  Praise and bless Your Holy Name that it is Your design and not mine.

This world does not impress me, but You love it so and that is all that matters.  I love people in those moments when I see Your face kindled in their eyes, when their hearts reach out to the needy for the asking.  They may forget me, sometimes I wish that they would so that I might rest.  But Father, let anything that I do remind them so that they never forget You for even one moment.  My legacy is the child who needed love and encouragement and I happened to be there by Your Good graces to pick him up and send him on his way.  My victory is hearing the name of Jesus upon the lips of a young women we all thought lost forever to wickedness, deceit and foreign plunder.  My agony those lost to false teaching’s siren, leading them away from freedom and eternity.  Grant me those people who might be saved by our collective ministry, that I might someday look upon their faces in your presence, knowing I had some small part in making You smile.

I’ll meet you there

The thing that I love the least about you are your accomplishments.  I am proud of the work you have done, but that does not gather my love, only attention.  This world has convinced us that we must measure up, and if we haven’t done everything to stay in stride with peers then the sum total of our lives will never really matter when the chips are tallied.  It is beyond me to declare that this is falsehood, for it is what you believe.  As such it is the reality which guides, controls, governs and constrains your self-image, emotions and sense of achievement.  Telling you that it is not true will only close your ears to the Wisdom of God and I do not wish to undo any good that He has done in your life by shutting down your listening channels.  I would ask you to remember the feeling of accomplishment, the charge, the upside and next time you feel it, measure exactly how long it lasts.  If they have subscribed to truth, then it should fill you up indefinitely, unlike a drug which must be continually ingested to maintain, increase or recover that “rush”.

I love you for all the things that you are not.  You are not too proud, walking in self-oblivion, blinded by your own image.  You refuse to mock God, although you have never surrendered to Him, you see the wisdom in not taking the chance of angering the creator.  You are not callous, forgetting and overlooking everyone around you in their moments of extended agony, simply to maintain your own sense of well being.  You are not cruel, believing yourself elevated over those who have been created for their own purpose.  You are not hateful, twisting your spirit into knots with enmity of your fellow humans for whatever it is that they will do, not do or become for you.  You are not a fool, and you listen to reasonable discussion, even when it is something for which you have little consideration or perspective.  You do not look away from your gifts but use them to the best of your ability, although they are primarily utilized for your own gratification, amusement and edification.  I love you most, because God cared enough to send His son to retrieve you from certain damnation, by dying upon the cross for each of your sins.  It may seem odd to you for someone to say that they love you for the things that someone else has given you, but if you think on it for a bit it will all make sense.  For God gave you life, breath, health, wealth, the capacity to think, talents, conscience and love.  So you are the sum total of everything God has done for you and that is why I love you.

How then can I love you now, when I see you in misery, incapable of sharing your heart for fear of appearing misguided?  Don’t you know that there is a solution to every problem?  Unfortunately for your reputation the answer to your current dilemma, is God.  I do not wish that you would try every other available solution as physical scientists have confined themselves to doing.  I know that you will have to try them all, I just pray that the time goes swiftly and that you come rapidly to the eventual conclusion; God has always been the only answer to the problem of your fulfillment.  It makes sense to go to the creator of any system, engine, product or artifice when seeking resolution to efficient tuning, calibration and longevity.  That is why God is the only answer, for He was there at the beginning of all things, speaking us into being, encoding our DNA with purpose, function and operational parameters.

I do not love your folly, I do not love your sin, I do not love your rebellious or stubborn nature, but those are characteristics or actions they are not you, unless you allow them to define your existence.  I do not wish to change you, but I do wish that this life does its work and gives you the impetus and experiences necessary to bringing you into inevitable questioning and discussion regarding your God given purpose.  That is where our roads converge, that moment when the words I have offered will somehow make sense and lead you forward into an active search for Almighty God.  I look forward to that day and cherish it before it has even come, for I love you enough to wait upon God.  In Jesus Holy Name I pray.