Does it hurt when it’s not about me? So closely affected to the current circumstance that threatens to lock me emotionally to this moment, to this position in time, that my legacy and history remain tied to an affront meant for another. Perhaps a King? Perhaps someone with whom I have been associated at such level that I ought appreciate the optics of relation counting the assault as evidence of that kinship? Why should a man be concerned about his stance or his views unless they are questionable? The weariness calls heavily upon a man’s heart only when the interrogatory or attempted slander hold truth. In confidence a man is what he is not what is said to him or about him, for truth aids not those who wield heavy pen tongue.
My direction is love. Serving the Master of it I am called to extend loving kindness and care even in the midst of painful affront. Does it hurt and if it stings where is the bit of truth into which I may run to find the answers to the next personal Challenge of transformation. Skin is skin a permeable membrane why then does it hurt when things get “under” it? This world is motor oil to my internal waters of life. They shall not readily mix but over time shall become a putrid dark cloud where purity was meant to reside. Do not take the harm and offal from a man’s offered cup, meant in it taint to remove you from the pure and Holy Extension of Christ’s Love for mankind. They are not your enemies but are His Creation deserved of the respect mustered in reverence of His Likeness upon them. And when they have ceased in that reflection then it is solely His regard as to their outcome or disposal.
Some things are not mine to handle, twist and dispense. Some lives need no other assistance from my pen or will except that encouragement of their Kinship to the King. And all the things that I would have done or see come about are not the greatest outcomes for their lives but merely the whimsical wishes in my own screenplay. This is not my story to tell as I give not testimony of the Prince or Priest but of the King who gave me all things that I have and Am.
This direction is not my own so therefore you may not toy, touch or change it by your whim. Inalienable is a thing beyond your regard or mine. These makings and transformation of those things created by God’s Hand may only be effected in transformation by His Willing Hand. Yes I may poison myself in consuming the filth and products of a sinful world that I am no longer recognizable in His intended fashioning, but I am essentially what He has made nothing more or less a man to whom God offered Life, Love and for the Choosing more of the same in Eternal Purpose. You seek to hurt because you need to share your deep wounding in order to breathe free for a moment passing on as if virus the hurt that you will not bring to the Father for undoing. I see that pain and bid you lend to another for this is neither my fight nor God’s Will for me. Go in peace that you may find for you shall not receive it from His hand as you seek to bite.
Loving You. It is not a duty or a pressure but the authentic recognition of God’s Hand upon You. I do not look upon you and determine your worth based on characteristics either fond or fickle but know Your Worth in the Love of the King. He Loves you and that Is all that I need to do the same. Yes, I may not like your travels. Yes, I may have a different answer for you than the one you are determined to force upon the world to justify some internal conflict or warrant your angers at God, but that is not my issue and were I to make it mine then I have drunken from your cup eschewing my own. In this land of the misunderstood man and the list of theories proffered by men who would make themselves greater, I have none to offer. For in my own world I embraced shame and sin being set free only by the Loving Hand of God through His Son. There is no claim I may lay against the valor in my salvation that does not lead directly to the ONLY ONE deserved of that Glory or Honor. For my salvation is His, not of my own doing. To Love me you have but to Know Him. And if you do not love me I understand what that means. I cannot help but Love you for to do anything else would be a denial of the man He saved.