That quiet waterway, with supple leaf, freshly posited rain falling from the brim of my cap, dirt and forest watching me back as I wander on bye.  Night was fractured and dispersed by dawn, divided then conquered in the emerging and cleansing power of light.  What brought memory’s route Lord?  There must be something I am meant to rehearse once again in mastering the role for which I have been handsomely prepared.  Perching upon swollen, damp granite the moss disquieted by my rest, I trust in this moment as it reattaches me to days, nights and trials ended, seeking the one event intended for this teaching.

Lord, life is emerging, not coming forcefully onward as a headwind forcing me to check stance, but awakening, clothing me in the raiment of today’s tapestry.  No emergency, no threat, yet my heart sweats as it responds to reminded emotion, smells and history better left untended.  What is the fear of past fury?  Can it force me from hiding, facing this moment in the truth of things gone historically astray?  Or is it a bridge connecting all the disjointed parts of a man assembling before us, becoming, simply becoming.  Is this that quickening to which each man’s soul and spirit bid respond?  That stretching, adjusting, shaping and reforming sanctification that strips, dips, builds and remakes?

Don’t let them see is my only thought, embarrassed instantaneously by my dependency.  What cannot be given by free hands nor action but the surrendered will costs more coin of different dimension, leaving me unspoken, uprotected, yet safe within the Master Grasp of God.  It is good not to be that which has been but to become that which is capable of being so much more than has been.  This gift shall be accepted by few and understood even less than the outstretched hand of God’s mercy and grace in salvation.  This one is a thing of legend, kings and those things lying outside of this dream called time.  What does it mean this glory we receive?  How do you embrace something you do not nor ever could understand, something made by someone beyond you for purpose beyond comprehension with materials unknown within current or probable reference frame?

Shall I hang on to the present Lord in fear where this venture leads me, past then now then to the beyond of dream?  Or truly consider what you’ve chosen for me as the right decision, one which I was had always planned on making, but only just knew that it existed?  The quandary, the rub, the wrinkle, the apprehension without mention in the waiting hand of God’s Glorious Touch on everyone to rise.  Do you see, do you know, do you quest for the that Twinkling Moment?  Skyward, Onward, Returning as a bride, wed to the Righteous King of All to rule and reign in peace, power and truth.  Amen.

Through the pain of being punished when forgiveness and Grace were sufficient I see the hole in my own performance.  If we are walking around looking for an offense to come then it doesn’t show, do we then manufacture one that we might control the other party by giving them the silent treatment before offering Grace?  What happened to being different from the world, or not being citizens of the world?  People are looking at us because they expect to see something different that they might have a recent to pursue a faith of their own.  When we fail to understand the Grace we’ve been given that wasn’t deserved and we continue to play the game of Crime and Punishment with the people around us, no wonder they don’t see anything different or attractive in our behavior.

And what happened to plain old fashioned respect, accountability and lack of hypocrisy?Oh I should have shortened that and just said, “Christian”.  If I tell you that you should look at the best intentions of everyone around me and then the moment you even appear close enough to step on my toes I banish you from my kingdom, how is that in any way, appearance or realistically, being Christian?  Our actions matter, especially those actions against those closest to us, the ones we have a reason to love.  People are watching are you aware that they are looking to you for an example of Christianity?

I am obviously meant for this lesson.  Thank you Lord for sending me the pain in understanding that Grace must abound if we are to win hearts and minds to Christ.  WE cannot reach them without a touch of the Holy Spirit, so the fact that they are already standing in front of me is testimony that has already occurred.  If they have been placed in front of me because the Holy Spirit directed them there then I must be awakened to the truth of Divine Opportunities.  And subsequently be conscious of the extension of God’s Love at that crucial moment.  If I am so prepared for an offense, do you think it likely that I will be surprised by kindness, love and plain old human frailty?  I cannot keep looking to punish those around me into acting the way that I want them to, for that places me in the position of control a position for which I was never intended.  It is also the process embraced and practiced by this world, so if our process matches theirs please remind me how we are called out from the world, remaining unspotted by the world or just passing through as citizen of the heavenly realm.  If it looks human, acts human and treats other with harshness like all other humans then it ain’t of Jesus and I then pray that the Lord remove it from me for good.  In Jesus’ Name.

You want me to anger yet I love and this confuses you?  You wish that I would discuss my prowess, my past and my conquest of the innocent, especially when they are women or are not here to defend themselves, but I should not ever discuss the souls that the Lord met through using me as ambassador?  You wish for me to speak in text abbreviations that simulate true emotion and make everything including being rude into comedy, yet I am a prude for loving the pure, holy, unpoisoned, unadulterated life of a child whose chosen to live a righteous life? Reflect upon the mirror image of the world God created.

This world reflects its current ruler.  These are the results of millennia of his influence upon its inhabitants and the damage taken out against all that God created perfectly.  For the current inhabitant of the throne room of Earth, hates God and all that He stands for and thus must prostitute everything Good, Kind And True to his own filthy image, the Lord Rebuke him if he chooses so.  I do not wish to speak ill of things I am incapable of understanding but must clearly demonstrate that his reflection is evident in the things of this world, they have become in some manner an invitation to see the enemy’s face.

How then may we know the things of purity, Holiness, Righteousness and Truth?  Ah, such an amazing question.  I am so glad that you’ve asked.  You see God didn’t leave alone in these tragic circumstances.  He lives in each our hearts if we choose to let him come in and indwell as His Church, His Holiest of Holies, His Heavenly Home on Earth.  He gave us His Word that we might know Him clearly in the dim of the shadow of death in which we find ourselves committedly walking.  He gave us the creation which withstands defilement that we might reflect upon His majesty and Glory in Creation’s View.  He never left us to the mercy of an enemy who has none.  God is Alive, He is here and He will take back the Scepter and the Throne of Earth and better yet, combine it with Heaven that we might reside together forever.  Amen.  Praise Jesus.

Many of those unanswered questions that I have from the pages of the Bible weren’t answered by God.  Several options; He didn’t know, didn’t want us to know, left is up to us to find out, or didn’t tell us because the timing would be appropriate to tell at a later date.  Of the things that were not expressly explained in the Bible we were continually reminded that they were; “sealed up” for a later date or that we would know by the signs of the times.  So I am going to emphatically reside on the option D, that we weren’t told because we didn’t need to know until we were told at the appropriate time.  I believe the fact that many of these age old mysteries are being revealed at this time in history is in it self and indication that time is winding down toward the imminent return of Christ the King.

Why didn’t He tell me?  Well the answer to that although it seems silly is that He knew my nature and if I knew what was going to happen that suddenly I would become a prophet, telling everyone that “the sky is falling” based upon my “knowledge” of the truth.  Isn’t that what has revealed the charlatans throughout the ages, the fact that they continue to make predictions, firmly based on their own understanding, only to find that the date they predicted comes and passes without the occurrence of the Biblical event predicted?  Look I am okay with not knowing because in not knowing my faith is increased, because I have to choose to believe in something I cannot see which what the Bible defines as HOPE.  Without faith it is impossible to please God.  If me just taking the Bible verbatim and believing upon it just because God said so increases that faith, then that is the position I am going to take.

Why do you think Christ went away after rising?  If he stayed would we have had to faith in Him or would we see Him standing in front of us, dismissing the need for faith?  Additionally, His going away supports my argument that “it is not yet time” for Him to return, so we don’t see Him until that perfect timing.  Faith is the basis for the courage I feel, faith is the basis for my relationship with God, faith is also the Rock upon which I reside for in believing His Word, His Truth and His Sovereign Promise to return for His Reign I am strengthened to a position outside the control of anything in this realm.

I don’t know because I will know when and only when I am supposed to Know.  Is now that time, it appears to be so, but only YOU WILL KNOW.  In Jesus’ Holy Name.

I don’t know what to say to you, I am just so sorry for always coming back around to the limitations of my humanity, instead of watching Christ.  Depression is the byproduct of my poor faith habits, for when I consistently remain in prayer, meditation and Bible review my attitude and spirits remain high. The moment I my practices begin and end with worldly review or communication, that immediately sours.  No matter how many times I experience these same lessons the Lord continues to reacquaint me.  Forgive me Lord for my extreme hard head.

Just because it don’t look, smell or appear like my expectations does not provide instant cause for concern or failure review.  It appears that I have already given critique of the film before the show has even started, via creating expectations that may have very little to what God wanted from the interaction, but in my not-so-infinite wisdom, I of course decided it was supposed to Produce X Squared plus three minus 7.  Try as I might I continue to fall back into this low point of the kitchen where all the gunk accumulates.

Father, can you please free me from me.  Too much and more of me makes me really tired and not looking forward to more of me.  Folks I sympathize with you having to deal with a johnny boxhead like myself, but that’s the rub, the cover charge, the gate fee.  Chances are that many of you determine the price to high for the return and head for the hills.  Although I am concerned about hurting any body’s feelings or losing friends over the whole thing but most concerned about how it taints my attitude for harvest.  I pray that I don’t miss a single divine opportunity by taking myself out of the frame of mind necessary to be in that moment.

Lord Hear my prayer for this nation.  We really are on the brink, the brink of greatness or failure, that razor edge peak that runs east to west and can only be straddled for so long before a radial tumble down one side or the other.  Give us clear site of Your Glory, that decisions might be made in plain site of the best of choices.  Father we thank you for offering us the opportunity at redemption.  Please let us take it seriously and be content with what we have been given but yearning for more, the More that is You.  In Jesus’ Name.

They do not rise for sound doctrine, but for tales of Robots, Magic, Nano Tech and aliens.  What then is time in which we reside?  I will acquiesce to your tolerance, to your excuse to your holy wisdom if you can color it different than that unholy time upon the Earth where God’s Wrath is nye.  They want the worldly king, they will get the saul, but much worse, the messiah they seek.  What if the anti Christ has the power to heal cancer, do you think that those who are not filled with the Spirit will be able to withstand that kind of Sign or Wonder.  You know that is what he has the power to do when he gets here right?  What then would you have me whisper, lullaby’s, Party Tunes, LOL’s and reminders of your beauty, wisdom and longevity.  Well I used to have charm, charisma and good looks but let me tell you clearly all things in life fade with age and time. Will you fade with them.

How may I reach those who are pent on something other than the Lord’s Word of Truth.  I cannot. And in that knowledge I must reside, saddened but educated to the folly of me pursuing fish who cannot ever be caught.  My job is to love you and in so doing I have shared the truth of God’s Word and the Love He has for you as his daughter or son.  I have shared the Truth of His Word that the world has a time limit and is currently ruled by the wrong members of the heavenly realm who deceived its ownership from the rightful leader first assigned, Adam.  I have loved you enough to share the Truth of Christ and how the second Adam, Christ who lived a perfect life will come to take back the title deed of the Earth that was swindled by the enemy.

I cannot reach, preach or teach without an ear to hear, for then they are just words into the darkness.  I will not preach, teach or reach out to those without a hunger or a need to follow and find God.  What a world that has made itself comfortable without Christ.  I am sorry for those choices because I maybe could have done more to make folks aware.  No, that too I have had to accept that you can do all that you can do and still fall short of the mark you set for yourself, because it was never your mark to set in the first place.  He told us to tell them, but there will be a time when our voices are silenced, not because we haven’t done the work, but because time ran out on your opportunity to listen.  I must truly pray for you now because it is clear in Revelation 18, that you will need all the prayer you can get because that king that they want and they will get will not allow you to work, buy or sell if you don’t take his mark and worship him.  What will you do then, perhaps you will wish that you had listened now?  In Jesus’ Name

Why does truth have to hurt, I mean it is just a clear description of what is actually happening, previously occurred or is going to come about?  Why should that have the capacity to mend, bind, erode, clarify, cleanse, sting or convict?  It is not in the truth’s definition that the potency lay.  It is in its comparison to this dimension of reality and the realization that they do not match up that the conviction occurs.  I know there he goes again, the deep thought master, coming at me with ideas and concepts that frankly don’t clean the clothes, do the work, pay the bills or sort out my chaotic cranium. This one folks makes a lot of common sense if you stick with it for a moment.  Follow me if you dare.

Jesus said in John 8, Then said Jesus to those Jews which believed on him, If ye continue in my word, then are ye my disciples indeed; And ye shall know the truth, and the truth shall make you free.  For example; Re read that statement by Jesus.  Does it say that anyone has the truth or a select few who have met the criteria of the first two requirements within the sentence?  The Truth.  If you aren’t a disciple of Christ and you don’t believe upon Him, then you were never given the Truth.  So What?  You were never set free you are remain in bondage.  In bondage, to What?  To Sin, To death, To the Devil.  The Truth, the painful truth.  Read all of John 8, look at it in context of the entire passage and you will see that the entire Passage is about the TRUTH of Christ being from the Father.  That is the Truth that we are given as disciples, as believers that sets us free.  Without it you have no freedom you only have enslavement to the things of this world and death for your sins have not been cleansed, you have not been forgive, you are not redeemed to God, he does not hear your prayers and you are a servant of the ruler here now, Satan and his minions.  Salty Truth, I think so?

The truth is like the Law, it is not something to control your life for we live by every word that proceeds from the mouth of God, but the Law is a mirror, demonstrating to us that we are out of synch or in line with God’s requirements.  So the Truth only “hurts” or “stings” when we see in its reflection that we have been living inconsistent with God’s commands.

I do not fear the Truth nor the Law for I have been given the understanding, THE ABSOLUTE TRUTH of freedom from the Law, Sin, Death, Hades and concern by the truth that Jesus Christ is God and came to free me from all of those things through his substitutional death on the Cross for me.  Why subsitutional, because the truth is he took my condemnation, my conviction as a criminal and went to pay the death sentence that I deserved for my sin.  The Truth, Sin, even one little tiny sin, earns us death in God’s System of Living.  Jesus paid the price I couldn’t afford to pay the price if paid would have sent me to hell for all eternity separated from God.

Why does the Truth hurt, because we fear what it says about what we’ve done, what we are doing and what we are thinking of doing in the future.  The only way around that sting is to live right within the Will of God and that is frankly impossible.  Why impossible because none of us can ever undo the sin we have done.  We have earned the conviction for the crimes already committed.  The ONLY way out provided by that Truth is the before stated Truth of Jesus.  I can only live right, cleansed, guided, indwelt and sealed by the Holy Spirit of God living within my heart and mind.  Through Him alone can I do the impossible, through Him alone does the Truth set me free.

If you ain’t got Spirit, You don’t have Truth, because you cannot fathom the Truth without the touch of His Spirit.  Why does the Truth Hurt, because we know we don’t have it, we don’t want it and we cannot be set free without it.  The truth hurts because we must come to the end of ourselves before we can surrender to the SALAVATION provided by the Truth of God.  In Jesus Name I pray for you to come to the Truth today.  Amen.

In your mercies I am embraced, held in time for as long as it takes to wander peacefully back to myself.  In that peace I meet love, friendship and care as I am stripped of concern, self-focus and repaired to the onslaught which confronts each of us.  Missing you is constructive and indicator of the value of belief, acceptance and faith. Where is my place, right here with you, out there on the line wishing I were with you or somewhere in between, because it all is done in confidence that purpose is being fulfilled. How may I best love those you have given me, by extending that same grace and mercy through peace.

None want objectification, none abandonment, none to be used for the temporary needs of those who would be filled by love, admiration, encouragement or consolation. That however is the truth of reality, especially in a world where the light shines on each of us each day, not the Light of God, but the spot light of this world requiring we dance, sing, tell a joke, do a job, finish a sentence to placate the maw of man. Should we take offense that the simple workings of this experiential clock, nip and bite at tender under bellies, disregard our hearts, producing stone where supple leaves were once beheld? Machines consume fuel. This one the fuel of innocence, dreams, sweat and ardor, it don’t care if it eats young, old, sick, healthy or dying, for its omnivoric appetite will never be filled until the clock displays triple zeroes at the helm.

Understanding man is perhaps the easy part. Remaining with God a thing to be done with the mind, heart and feet.  Standing on a prayer and a dream I face tomorrow in the wisdom he would show me, that despite the night the dawn is always there, waiting for simple revolution and geometry to play their part for time.  So come all that are in greatest need for I may not be consumed, but renewed to refresh, rekindle, ignite and repair with the never ending power of the Spirit wish may not be diminished.  But let us stop in our quest for consummation the drives that have grabbed upon our hearts and remember that the King for our service and bid us do the same, for them.

I pray that the Lord reveal that which has been concealed from you each day to be remembered each night giving you the peace of questions answered.  In Jesus’ Name.

The choice.  Viewing the world through the perspective of dichotomy of conquest and loss is a deception of limiting and crippling intent. If I have to win or I lose then if I am handicapped in some way this immediately pronounces me, well a “loser”, when in fact my overcoming my challenges whether physical or mental is the greatest demonstration of a “winner”?  If I must overcome everyone around me to be declared acceptable or be recognized as successful, how then may I stop to allow someone else to achieve victory just to see them smile or to compassionately let them feel that moment of success? And conversely, if I have lost ever time how can I then even understand the concept of what it means to win, having never experienced it?  To me it becomes irrelevant and in fact in this realization I become a winner.  And finally, if my identity is tied to either one of these descriptive terms and I am a winner, what happens to me the first time that I lose?

Let us not be limited by the parameters of another man’s thinking.  What if there were more options than just winning or losing, perhaps sharing victory, or working toward another man’s gain, or losing for the sake of winning by the context of greater understanding?  Or what if there never were a winner or a loser, just participants and outcomes?  Just like the good and the bad that occur in my life, I will invariably have some things that would be viewed as “wins” and some that will be viewed as “losses”, but that is a judgment within my own perspective that categorizes the outcomes based on my expectations.  If I must win then to lose is a bad thing and vise versa.  It is all in how you personally look at it.  Now do not ignore, minimize or discount societies need to put things into categories for that is what societies do, because if you do ignore it you will find the beast of public pressure is in deed alive and well and ready to show you its scales, claws and rows of razor teeth.

We were not made to define ourselves but be defined by the Creator who made us.  He says that each of us was fearfully and wonderfully made for a specific purpose within His Plan for Mankind.  He says that He loves us completely and that when He looks upon us He sees His Son Jesus.  How can someone who has a Father that knew them in the womb and never leaves their side for any reason feel as if this world might be defined by simple gains and losses of the war torn world?  Be at peace and understand that we are already victorious, eternally victorious in Christ Jesus the King.

What is so important about what I was if I am a transformed creature now by the hand of God’s transformation?  I don’t know my friend, let us investigate that question.  If what I was were something for which I have established nostalgia or pride, perhaps confidence of youth and exuberance, then the memories of such will continue to pique at my curiosity, reminding me of a different way to think. If the old me reminds of pain, heart ache or exceptional regret then I may refrain from past contemplation.  If my past is mundane, innocuous, nothing spectacular I may never give it a moments thought.  Well, that review is all fine and good but what does that have to do with my initial question?

Okay, fair enough, but take a breath and let me see if I can piece this together into something resembling something that will fulfill inquiry.  If you loved your past, do you repent of what you’ve done, or do you perceive that nothing ill was perpetrated?  Are you reminiscent of the old you, perhaps to the point of struggle with who you’ve become, reflecting currently on past reward or trophy in comparison to what God has duly promised as slave to righteousness?  Does being called a slave make you squirm a bit? Did you come to Christ in sacrifice or humility or did one day seem like the previous one, it’s just now you call yourself a Christian?  I mean have you seen a transformation?

If you come from painful past, you understand the relief that came with salvation?  Have you let go of your past or do you continue to use it in conversation to produce sympathy with bystanders or has Christ healed those wounds and you now truly feel the result of having been made into someone whole? What then of your pain do you ignore it, forget it, try and avoid the conversation or does the pain of your past become an asset through which you may console those you meet in like need?  What happens when you try and stand up for the things you’ve been commanded of Christ?  Do you still fall pray to the things that world says of you to the point where you are inhibited, stopped or paralyzed by revisited fearfulness?

If you had a mundane past do you understand the gravity of what has occurred?  Are you telling everyone about Christ as the greatest joy you’ve ever known or is it perhaps just another day?  What about that smile on your face, is it fed by the free given joy of the Lord, empowering you to motivate others to seek Christ?  If mundane did you perhaps overlook the gifts that you had in the past and if so, how now do you view the abundance that is provided through relationship with Christ?  Do you feel your cup overflowing or is your perspective still one of nothing unusual happens to you?

Look we may have left our past behind, or carry it as a badge or honor or try really hard to forget all that occurred, but try as we like the past is part of who we are now and who we shall become, because it is the foundation, frame of reference for our comparison against the transformation God promised.  If you don’t remember where you were how can you make a comparison for perspective purposes to where you’ve been brought by the indwelling of the Holy Spirit of Christ?  We ought to be overjoyed at our current position, based upon our cleansing, transformation, filling of the Holy Spirit and progressive resemblance to Christ.  If not then why not?

As to now, we have to see progress in our lives even if we are facing trials, tribulation, enemy assault or growth.  Yes, now may be harder to see than anything because it is held with respect to our judgment of the circumstances in which we currently stand.  Are they bad or good circumstances?  Well that is purely perspective, they may be both, neither or none of the above.  Perhaps they are just the things that God has planned for us to go through in our journey to prepare to be with Him?  Some may be difficult, unpleasing, uncomfortable or difficult and others may be fulfilling, joyful, rewarding and pleasing, but whether they are bad or good is a judgment.  Oh and I thought judgment is the Lord’s job, so perhaps we can just live today with a focus toward simply the enrichment of living it.

An to the future, the future is the basis of hope and faith.  For those are the concepts fed by belief in the ability of God to transform our personage our perspective and yes our circumstances to something resembling victory for the Kingdom and the reward in the Joy of Living.  We look to the future based on our perspective confident that it will provide challenges, difficulties, love, trials, mercies and abundance in our knowledge that Christ told us that we are His ambassadors here until He returns for us.  Does that give you joy, it ought to?

So does that answer suffice?  Do you see why where I was, where I am and where I believe that I am going are all important in my Christian Perspective?  If not, let me know and I will ask the Holy Spirit to tell you and ask forgiveness that I ever used my own words in the first place.  Be blessed in all the things of Almighty God through Christ Jesus.  Amen.