Renewal without reigns or stirrups trying my best to strengthen my legs and stay upon this animal. It is not hard to offer kindness to those who hate or despise me, it is truly impossible. This new saddle requires a re-calibration, things that were persistently done in the flesh must now be surrendered in order to bring into understanding. No more exhaustive attempts because they have been thoroughly proven foolhardy.

Why does the wind whirl so, forcing me to the right or left, is this the abrasive conditioning to venture solely onward as God expects? I am so sorry for those gifts that are no longer appropriate for large audience. Those of family are the only souls that may see the core of this heart. It is a blessing to trust those around you implicitly and cherish that some who know you welcome the chance to walk the same road.

So many positioning themselves as the only fruits of Christ Jesus. Lord I do not know about the salvation of other men, but mine is fearfully held within Your hands and will. I have no stomach for argument and even standing against the deception common to conversation turns my stomach, but the sheep matter more than my desires to remain aloof. I am thankful for the opportunity to participate and stand in Your Spirit.

Continue my training in love Lord. And let me step away without explanation or coarse word. They don’t owe me and I certainly don’t have to stand around waiting for the crows and vultures to pluck out my eyes and make me dinner. Father bring down those of Dominion who mean the vulnerable harm. Hide me protect me from Your Enemies that I may sneak up on them real close and sing Your Praises in advance.

Love has always been so precious because it is freely given and accepted. I want no more love with string or obligation. As Pastor let me give no advice except that which is truly meant to heal and edify. As Teacher and Preacher let the Word of Your mighty Love ring in each ear, heart and mind. Let them live free knowing that you have made it so for each of us. Whether man decides to spend eternity with You I commend to Your Loving Care.