Are we done? Have we given in to evil or tasks yet beyond our power to achieve? What is the price for taking on things above self? Is it really God’s Will that all will come to the knowledge of the Truth, finding salvation in Jesus? I never could becomes I never can.

If I am to believe upon the impossible tasks of Spirit then why have I placed faith in my own ability to deliver those things solely within His grasp? Worse yet, why have I lost faith in something for which I never could deliver and in the Spirit’s ability to do the impossible?

Is this the hole I have dug for self or must God bring me into self-failure before I may truly believe? Has my hope always been invested in my impermanence? Am I equal to or above God failing to acknowledge His sovereignty and suffering the failure of faith?

I have seen the river’s divide between bride and her waiting Groom. She dawdles and prattles tending her ministries never once listening of awaiting the filling of power, hope and fealty for the King. When will her lamp be full? When will she be urgently waiting for the Trump?

Why would God bring tribulation upon His beloved? Right. Necessary for there is simply no other path to our conversion. He knew, He always knew we would not listen until all options seemingly removed. What does that say of the seemingly faithful, never believing or placing faith in self?