In silence I may finally hear the voice of God. Left behind the expectations and lures of this world, it is such a joy to hear the call of God’s Holy Spirit. All falls away amazingly the imaginary self would have me cling is left in a random pile at my feet. This is freedom, being able to step out of the masquerade and be what He bids me offer.

There is no preparation but this. Seeking nothing from the list of wants and needs but to hear God’s clear direction to fire, sea, battle and peace. I hear Lord and the only request I lift up is that I am once and forever found obedient. This is the path I am counseled in surrender to find the comfort of doing the will of God as created.

Not sorry that the man I was fell away, as his pursuits were always guided to match the fallen. I was not made to find misery in ignoring or being disobedient to God. For their is no flower in the doomed shrubbery of my defiance, only sadness, weeping and crunched teeth biting upon the desires gone wrong in the poisonous heart of midnight.

I rejoice at your compelling. I dance to see the success in the laughter of what once was misery. Let those fruits grow to abundance that have been watered by His making. Find good Earth for seed and tend the ground with faith in the promises He gave each of us. We are not what we wanted to be but what gloriously emerges as all falls away.