I miss all of you when you choose to go away, some more than others but all are remembered fondly and regularly. However, I cannot make the decisions in relationships, that requires two and when you’ve made your decisions in love I truly want to give you what you’ve demanded or requested. For that is love, the free will to choose your own road and who will accompany you upon it. God willing He provides the right companions, mates and enemies that you arrive exactly where and when He wants you.

That this is a common occurrence requires my own investigation, especially after the harsh things that have been claimed by those in parting. Going before God in humility, hope and clarity is the greatest gift I have been given. Assurance in character and in deed may only be found in transparency sitting before the Throne of God. I always see, admit, accept and expect God’s hand of transformation upon me following each descendance or parting. After the interaction though not ending or passing the way I would have liked has been meant for both our reflection, conviction and growth.

If my enemies are provided for my sanctification as I pray for them in love, how much more those of Grace will provide for my edification, even in loss. Man I wish sometimes that I had those perfect skills and words to share at just the right time as you demanded. But I think it is the commitment to face life together regardless the clashes, dashes, dots, yods and tittles that defines true love. So, in some manner I am glad that those who leave have done so. Though it is a nice dream to see relationships work out the way we would want them, it is a far better thing to feel the Hand of God upon each of our spirits as we each pursue the doctrine of perfection we could never find alone.

Do I miss you yes? Do I want for you the desires of your heart yes? Am I the partner, friend, Pastor or Brother to walk with you in each fire, together till we reach out mutual end? These are not questions I may answer myself. However, the greatest danger in choosing my own road has always been that I have not listened or obeyed the command of God. By nature I will invariably first contemplate the easiest path, but always end up on the hard road that leads to greater maturity, growth and spiritual refinement. That being said it is impossible for me to see that the difficult road and interaction both of us experienced, the truth with which I clung in pursuance of God’s Purpose and the Love with which I fondly release you are all the same dedication to objective love. You are not what I want you to be but what you are and are becoming which I adore. Letting you go is a pleasure not a curse.