To respond to the anguish my body calls me to silence. The addictive nature of food, flesh and drink. Can’t even think without my hand striking the pose of the coffee cup it conditionally wants to hold. Is conditioning the resolution that bends to unrequited love?

Would I be enjoying the rewards of bountiful life if my skin and organs called me to take the next puff, pop the next pill or look upon the outrageous video demonstration of coitus? Would the love of Christ be in my heart for my wife or husband as I dreamt or envisioned another?

What is the cause of the viewing of grass beyond the fence of God’s provision? Is my simple wife less appealing because I have seen the world’s definition of beautiful and replaced the one God gave me?

Funny looking, beyond brilliant in my figuring but immature in my quest to understand the nature of this gifting. Simply, what did God make you? Then that is the imagination for which I must strive, is to understand the purpose for that gift, not to live in a fleshly quest to replace it with that which the Worldly man lusts.

What is a crutch but a physical replacement for the faith in God I wanted. Each time my body cries out for fleshly gratification and I honor it I am fulfilling the lusts of the flesh, feeding my inclusion with Earth’s Dwellers.

Why my hand tremors for that which I yearn, whatever form the mechanism, I am provided a method of escape to remember and stand upon the absolute dependence upon the Joy that God has provided for my born again life. Having never known this new voice until my rebirth, I am now faced with the struggle against my own internal yearning.

A struggle that will always be watched for by the enemies of my existence. How else do I believe that they will steal, kill and destroy those joys reserved for me having been extracted from the prison of flesh, mortality and sin?

They are wonderful promptings leading us back onto the path of greatest resistance the Only path to righteousness found upon my way the King. Is sex good when experienced in love with your wife or husband, most certainly. However, it ought not be camouflaged with the yearning to fulfill the sexual addictions or “mind’s eye” of the porn or strange flesh that my mortal man yearns.

Simple questions provoke the most anguish from those challenged with addiction. And by addiction I mean any compelling influence to take an action outside of the Joy and Freedom of the Abundant Life we were given. Are you drinking in Joy or to dampen/embellish the experience? Are you smoking for the Joy of fellowship and experience of life well lived or because the nicotine, weed or whatever will return to that state of agitation/calm you could not find in Christ? Are you opining or coercing wife or husband into sex so that you can feel that moment of personal satisfaction or to experience the blessings of oneness that God promised in Your ordained marriage?