Each of you has perfectly shown me the encouragement of promptings of chastisement for which the Lord has sent you into my life. Why was Nathan so effective with David? These views, understanding and regret available to those who have heard from them close, are gifts for our own salvation, walking in fear and trembling, working this out for ourselves. I will not admit that all of that which you have given is pleasurable, in fact many of the people sent in to my life are those who have chosen Satan or who have yet to consider surrender to Christ Jesus. Loving them requires that I never blame, hate or remove them from my life for the lessons they were given to deliver. However, having done the work of God and pursuing a life without God as their impetus, sometimes it is the best choice to exercise my only power of simply stepping away from the interaction. I will admit that many who live in fear of the inherent danger of human love will often choose to avoid deep relationships believing themselves safer within the self designed parameters and false power of being alone.

This is frailty and fear in using the distance between myself and others as a self-defense mechanism. This is theft from Divine Intention, as we are meant to have interaction with humans as the only method of demonstrating the example of God has for them through each of us. I cannot tell people about Christ Jesus unless I am willing to overcome my own fear of the potential for heart pain to tell them the Gospel message as God commanded. Yes, there are opportunities for discernment and choice for not every relationship is meant to be pursued as the perfect mate God may be offering, but rather as the opportunity for Divine intervention through that sustained relationship. Nor am I to hate the disobedient for their lack of spiritual site or searing of conscience. They too are making choices that have been Divinely distributed, and if they wish to spend eternity in Hell than barring a good discussion through the Holy Spirit and the commensurate demonstration of love I have no other tool to offer and Pray that the HOLY SPIRIT do miracles in their lives.

I am not saddened by failure but invigorated by my next meeting in the throne room with Father, Son and Holy Spirit. Therefore I am grateful for your prompting to take it to the Lord in prayer and sorry to you for any angst my trespasses have caused you. Thank you for heeding God’s direction in courageously offering me His lessons for which you’ve been sent.