In forgiveness cleansing reveals, refreshment, change and the peace that transcends the credulity and cruelty of circumstance. Ten reasons to remain in this estate. First of which a certain curiosity of purpose to see the train and its characters coming round the bend. It is altogether daunting and enjoyable this not knowing, but knowing that whatever it is that I do not know will shortly and certainly come to pass. There is comfort in this.

Thank you for not settling. Thank you for seeing beyond the parameters of my garden. Thank you for placing my heart and love to test. I now may reside peacefully naked and unashamed, sorry for the mistakes but grateful for having remained obedient. I never could do what was before me and thankfully have again acknowledged that the things of God must be completed by His power. My only authority is commitment. The will to surrender the desire to run and rather stand in Good Courage knowing that what God has ordained shall come to pass, regardless of equipping, treasure or talent, which will logically always remain in scarcity.

If it was not of God then it would not have happened and this good that came from it would equally never been revealed. I thought one thing and it turned out to be another thing. The only saving grace that all along I watched for God’s Will and surrendered to the absolute certainty that I was never good enough and always good enough. The sweet spot of faithful understanding. This hurts, but because it hurts I am closer to God for having walked in surrender to that painful understanding. Mistakes were made but there will always be mistakes in every enterprise or undertaking. It is always in reflection, cooperation and reaction to mistakes that success or derivation is found.

There is no guidance here but righteousness out of departure from God’s direction. Each time I am reminded that even one footfall from God’s Discerning Spirit provokes unpleasant, unpopular and growth from departed opportunities taken. The Righteousness of God was revealed through: poor action, inaction and reaction all standing in wait to serve the Essence of God. I don’t know what is coming next and as I have fore-mentioned the uncertainty of things is a joyous undertaking, as this means it is not sponsored by will or wish. I cannot get to where God wants me to go without having first received His counsel and direction. Waiting is the wonderfully power and oft unpleasant reality of service to the King. For only in faith may we wait upon God whether alone or in union to meet the coming revelation of that skinny path and the light that guides us beyond it.