To teach the ideals and commandments of God, we must commit ourselves to a continuous and lasting review of those things we do that are inconsistent with the teachings of our Holy and Righteous God. When I sin then tell others not to it immediately enters me into the hypocrisy of do what I say not what I do. I abhor my sin and each time I say or do something inconsistent with God’s direction it makes me viscerally ill. Not only because of my trespasses and violations against God but because it hurts my witness for Christ. Being an anointed believer engaging the power and the truth of God’s gift to tell others to do right while doing otherwise is to me a disgusting violation in itself. I pray that I am without blame for that is what I seek for all those given unto my responsibility and care. There is no resolution to this but success in the Spirit in not sinning and immediately when something is said or done owning it and awaiting God’s direction and correction to repair any wounds.

Washed clean for a reason. The blood of Jesus set me free from past and future sin, but may be incorrectly perceived as license to commit further offense with impunity. Reading of Matthew and other text firmly establishes that this false, abhorrent and twisted translation of God’s Word. This is not only literally evident but comes with potent conviction from the Holy Spirit. Sinning is the last thing any born again believer wants. I don’t crave my sin’s of flesh, eye and pride, I seek to be made new of the desires that led my fleshly man to yearn for their persistent completion. I am here for the purposes of Christ and bringing glory to God’s name and the sins I commit in this state are especially repugnant to the man of God I purport to be. Now is the time to get it right, not through effort but through committed submission to God’s refining fire in my life. The danger begins for each believer when they quench the convictions of Spirit in attempted quelling of the guilt and dangers of continued sin. Eradication of my further sin and elimination of the desire to serve it is the reason I was washed clean originally. There is no version of thinking that allows me to continue in that vein.

Remaining pure is just as impossible as forgiving our sins without accepting Jesus. For these works are miraculous display of God’s Love for all mankind. If I could never achieve any of this then it is fully dependent upon God’s provision of mercy and grace. My only power is that of choice. The choice to remain in alignment with God, if He so allows, to approach the ideals of perfection, correction, sanctification and eventual glorification in Him. I would love to say that I have remained pure before God. I would love to present myself without Blame before His throne. I would love if it were a thing that I could somehow achieve. However, my desire to be found righteous is only useful in the commitment and dedication to remain in the righteousness conveyed to me through my belief on the only self-existent righteousness, that of God found only in Christ Jesus. I cannot attend to my sin and remain righteous. I cannot forgive myself the offenses of stepping away from pursuing a blameless life. I cannot give myself eternity I may only walk the path God says leads to that end state solely established through the power of the Holy Spirit in promise, conviction and transformation.

I love all of you but the mere mention or avoidance of the conviction given us by the Holy Spirit ought be consistent with God’s call upon our lives, not with self-righteous or evil pursuance of the poisons of this world. We have been changed forever. No amount of continuance in those behaviors consistent with the flesh is going to further our eventual adherence to and expression of a likeness of Christ. Therefore, if a relationship leads me away from the those things of God I need immediately step from it. Doing so is the loving thing He would have me show you. Doing so is the only method of remain aligned with the Holy Spirit in His leading in to Truth, transformation and the pursuit of perfection He demands. I no longer want to be associated with my own quest for sin. It sickens me to see myself a man who would teach purity and then do something of display the foul mouthed allegiance to the cage of my worldly existence. Please don’t attempt to associate this a lack of loving compassion for you or the health of a relationship in family, friendship and Body. For we know emphatically, that a consistent commitment and pursuit of righteousness is the only recourse of true love.

If I run from you to save us both from the trials, hypocrisy and potential failures found in moments of humanity. This is love. Many Biblical characters would have succeeded in the face of repeated failure by stepping, running or fleeing the opportunity for sin, until such time as the Holy Spirit could change them. Taking the “Way” of escape was often the only path to their success. I cannot remain indifferent in this sanctified and anointed relationship between pastor and saint. Recognition of the dangers found in a particular situation, circumstance or trial is the path to change. For the conscious understanding of my own predilections, propensities and sketches footfalls is the beginning of anointed judgment that must persistently and painfully accompany every anointed preacher, teacher and disciple. I ask you help in setting me free from your internal expectations and invested outcome so that I may achieve through belief and commitment that blameless history of a true believer. For to love God as I do and love you the way I would want to be loved demands this commitment to my Gospel and created purpose.