The humility and disgust I experience in remorse of seeing my sin are the catalyst of my resolve to stay closer to Christ Jesus. Therefore the mirror of the commandments remains essential in the transformation of all men, those seeking Christ for the first to find forgiveness and repair and those desperately relying on faith to keep them firmly on the skinny path to God.

With His Glorious help I will get there, stumbling as I do through the mire of my continued manly attempts to achieve the objectives of my failing flesh. I wish that it were otherwise and that I could demonstrate without mistake the unfailing resolve of my heavenly rebirth, but that would require no mistakes which are essential to this completed pathway.

I weep at my repeated and obvious willingness to fall short of Godly purpose. I tire of myself and find the disgust though clearly integral to the process of sanctification a distasteful guest to my otherwise restful home. Praise God for walking with me, KNOWING that my failures as abhorrent as they have been pivotal in any subsequent or consequential adjustments.

Control although a byproduct of relationship with the Holy Spirit are not my objective or cause. For applying my own controls denies, ignores or avoids the reality that becoming Heavenly in spiritual rebirth is a thing planned, conducted and completed by God alone through Christ alone. Establishing a desire or feeding the same to establish, maintain or rely upon the effects of my own controls upon the world is reluctance to acknowledge the sole Hand that may bring me into heaven.