False Authority and the brutish push to make people perform my wishes. I never had the ability, though sometimes I intended to bulldoze those who were vulnerable enough to mirror my thinking, sight and demands. But as a Man of God walks he learns that Moses tried this as did Aaron and lost to God. For it is a nasty and foolish ideal to wrestle with the Almighty. I do not want people to suffer the trials and expectations of my worldly man. They should rather be free from me and go about joyfully finding hope, peace and comfort in their own pursuits.

People will do what they will do and if they will not listen to reason then the wise man disappears and falls back allowing all to make the free will decisions God has granted them. For sometimes they too must feel enough loss and pain or chastisement of the Lord to be purged of the things He would take from them or give them. Or they must make a choice in their appropriate timing without rush or recommendation. My greatest change has been that the urgency in my heart for God’s unfolding plan may not be transferred by osmosis, suggestion or even brow beating. People must grow in their own time with God. Some have had to forgive me for pushing a bit too hard in the Spirit of Urgency and clocks winding. I am sorry. The time I have will be used for better things than arguing or berating others into alignment with my desires for they do not belong to me but to Him.

He alone should be their guide. He alone shall I serve and none other, excepting the brief Brother, Sister or peaceful partner who wishes to paddle alongside me in this canoe for His proposals. I love, that does not mean that I will fall in love with everyone simply because I have heard their good intentions. A man, especially myself must be tested and in the empirical observance be found worthy of trust and favor or departure. Most people are good and have good intentions and heart, but walking in the life of discipleship is so unlike this world it requires a special amount of evaluation to see if the intentions match the footsteps.

For many times I have heard the word only to left on the side of highway or forced to walk away from someone because their words, vows, intentions and heart pursue something in a worldly neighborhood far from the scarce grounds of spreading the gospel. If it is the house, the dishes, towels, mirrors and foyers that a man seeks then his concerns will be upon his manna, not the people surrounding/needing him. I have been bought with such a price that perhaps there is no one who would want to align with me for I am sold to righteousness.

I find that as I seek things in the world: houses, trucks, relationships, approval that I weaken in my dedication to the ultimate prize, fulfilling God’s destiny, “every millimeter of it” for my life and those around me. I am responsible not only for self be those who may fall short walking with me, so we must at the outset be dedicated to that end, the One God has created for us.

This nation, our states and each individual is in the middle, perhaps in the early stages of the greatest tests and challenges that we shall ever face in this lifetime. To that end there is no wiggle room for me to operate at less than levels outstanding, supernatural in fact, empowered by the Spirit of God Himself living in our hearts. I want to be alongside you, but I cannot depart from the duty of my Soul.

My greatest want is that all given to my care find the fruits of the spirit from me to aid them in readiness. If there is a circumstance that inhibits that fresh/healthy transfer of His Fruits it must be questioned, challenged and changed or suspended in Hope that what I cannot do shall be completed in God’s timing, power and Crafting Workmanship. If my fruits are sour and terse then I am doing myself and you a disservice and must retreat to safety of testing, honing and shaping in God’s Hand. Joining me on that difficult, sometimes impossible road is a path that very few would ever choose. And I always counsel to choose wisely.