What treasures I have walked right bye, foolishly brandishing a list of requirements and expectations? The King’s good gifts are meant to amaze and surprise not fulfill worldly projection or fulfillment of Earthly wounding. May the Lord heal the internal abrasions of this world and may I never do the unloving thing of projecting that healing upon another human.

You are good enough and so am I. No amount of bending, contusion, extrusion, folding, mending, shaping necessary. When love is given and freely received it is always by the person accepting the now for the time in anticipation. If a person must be changed to be considered acceptable then the parting gifts will be the only useful experiment.

I seek the Divine. Opportunities not created by me but for me to prepare me for an expectedly wonderful future. To take from the Hand of God and say, “This is exactly what I need in other humans” is declaration of desired foolishness. For God’s Word says not to depend upon human understanding but to wait upon His guidance in direction.

Am I willing to admit right out that there are times when what I thought I wanted was so much less than what God has given? Yes. Are there times when I yearn for a thing and find that choosing early deprives me of the blessing beyond expectation having waited upon God? Also yes. My pain has always been found in the yearning or impatience.

My life may go bye in chastisement, shaping, honing and steady march with the objective, perfection. Or there may be a steady lope toward the light, experiencing mysterious and unexpected people, places and experiments. I will not make anyone miserable by conforming them to my expectations and depriving them of God’s sovereign ability to surprise.