The map is useful only for internal works of valor, fear and avoidance. Projection is the obvious choice, thinking myself adequate to changing the construct of external: landmines, festivals and parades. When all along the song and dance were romance with myself.

If the mirror of the world reflects my internal landscape, then changes may only occur inside, reflected upon the monitor of the war within time central. Characters neither enemies nor friends are sent as precise catalyst to produce the chemical, metaphysical and spiritual changes within. For this is the home of Spirit, this is the place where at present we meet God in the Throne Room.

Since the wrestling, struggling and arguing are generated by my own psyche and characters representing the fractured side of this man. Then, the will and challenge to achievement must be played out in mental topography, geography of the mind and the battles, diplomacy or victimhood between my shoulders.

In summation, my perceived struggle for I may have never had to fight, is with myself and the Spirit man emerging. Each juncture requires choice and refinement or avoidance, denial and projection upon a world innocent until held in narcissistic optics. I am seeking through ignorance to avoid God’s direction and thus am given every precise character, situation and episode to aid me in my choice of compliance or disobedience.

Convincing myself of mastery or dominion is easy for I must only convince myself. A character, who is naturally on board with all of its own projection and life couching. Therefore the realization and or consequence comes from the abrogation of consciousness or the acceptance of a false projection written internally by a man who desperately and cowardly wants always to be right. The hero of my own story. Failing to stop the play that I myself have written leaving me victim to my own choices and commands.