Can the wound speak? Can the wound truly love? Can the wound hurl us into complete madness seeking an end to its unraveling control upon reality? I have never loved in the past. A horrible confession of a man led by internally wounded, past seeking validation and acknowledgement of the love I was never given through the attention and allegiance unavailable. Until the Lord first loved me I never knew truly what this greatest of life’s treasures was fulfilled.

I will not pursue you to answer the voices established by tragedy and mistreatment of my past. For I do not yearn but seek to be led by God into that which brings Glory to His name and fulfillment of His plan for this universe. What the yearning taught me when I obtained the object of its insatiable quest is that nothing was fulfilled but the instantaneous release of the quest for attention followed by a natural dismissal of the love which may not be found in substitution. The yearning could not find love only recurring pain in observance of a relentless mission to fulfill a slight of passed inadequacy.

The voice of the wound cannot and does not know love. For love is a decision, a choice an enduring covenant meant to pay its respects when yearnings and adoration are absent or long gone. When do you need love most? When you are unlovable, caught in the maelstrom’s of life. Ladies this is when you need a man’s love when the chips are down, you’ve got no answers and every safe space is locked or unavailable. This is when a man demonstrates the underpinnings of real love. When a man stays by your side in your worst, hurt and unworthy moments then he has made the choice to Love, as he made the choice to Love the Lord our God. For true love is offered and chosen by the recipient, never forced, coerced or established in the brief wonders of romance.

So, we must first have a good look at the trials of childhood and adolescence to see the formulation of any wounds to psyche that may be dictating irrational pursuits of our adult or inhibiting the healthy choices that adults make when confronted with Love’s offering. These voices especially when incited by the mention of someone truly in love with us are most often the greatest power of deception leading and controlling our decisions, emotions and feelings of abandonment, temporary fulfillment and yearning for that which we want but may not have.

Lord God, If I am to love let me do it as you have done for me. Let me love overlooking the deficiencies, inadequacies, quirks or mismanagement within the life of mates and colleagues. Instead let me see these things and decide that they are part of the offering of love for I cannot love a person completely without accepting the entire package or person, passion, pain and yes the inevitable revelation of wounds and weakness revealed by time in relationship. I do not wish to speak the romantic words of the yearning boy inside my heart. Rather I wish to demonstrate the evidence of faith, love and hope, by showing someone broken, happy or hopeless that I have made the greatest choice in life, to love them as God first loved me. In Jesus Name.