I suffer from a past filled with stupid; thoughts, actions and ideas. that is no longer the case. The mistakes I make these days are mistakes of attempt not of intention. My mind has been cleansed of my own insanity, pride and immaturity leaving me freshened but humbly responsible for all that I say, do and think. It is precious this life, too precious to allow my own power to pull me into the displays for which my heart will experience regret beyond the living of this life. Having escaped that past it now appears near impossible to hide from accountability or plunge headlong or cooperatively into the stupidity of days born of this present age.

Love has born me aloft. Yes I have always wanted the love and respect of a good women but that is something that has never been given me. Oh, but the Love God prevails in my mind’s heart and walking that skinny path of His direction is sweeter than any union that I may imagine. My flesh and this world would have me participate in the fruitless contention for vain Glory or items beyond my earning having won them through argument or worse. These things are filled with palsy and paralysis for the Growth found in God. I don’t want trappings when I am trying to live free from encumbrance, I do not want folly when searching the mind of Christ for the foundations of the Universe and I do not need passionate opining for the love of my life when I certainly have found a Love that surpasses all of it.

What then is the pursuit of a man neither tethered to the things, ego prizes or amore of this world but the things yet to come which may be leveraged in this life to help ourselves grow and others reach beyond their own propulsion or captivity? Though imagination remains an engine of what that may be or become it is inadequate visionary apparatus for those things which may not yet be perceived through the eyes of a man attached to this dimension. Prophetic clarity has never been offered through the Sovereign Window of God’s Eyes and Word. I do not crave those talents or gifts I have not been given for that would cause to look upon the Ones I have lacking contentment or perhaps look upon my Brother’s gifts with envy, neither position is rewarded in the Kingdom of God.

I do not yet know all that I have or will be given this side of eternity. I do however know that what I will be given is more than I deserve, more that I will need and probably going to eclipse any preliminary musings thereof. Contentment is a tool of confidence and resolve that wastes not the yearnings of my present man in pursuit of the unlikely or upon some false impression or identity. I am what I am in Christ Jesus and that is not just okay with me, but better than okay. Part of the self induced doctrine of Happiness is being content with what you have been pursuing or have yet to find. IN fact, happiness is so sweet when it is seasoned with patience for the PURSUIT of happiness is all the founding Fathers could promise. For they must have known that it is unsustainable and must be revived, refreshed and continually sought to maintain flavor. For men may never remain continually happy only filled with the Joy that God gives without end.