And likewise also the men, leaving the natural use of the woman, burned in their lust one toward another; men with men working that which is unseemly, and receiving in themselves that recompence of their error which was meet.

And even as they did not like to retain God in their knowledge, God gave them over to a reprobate mind, to do those things which are not convenient;

Being filled with all unrighteousness, fornication, wickedness, covetousness, maliciousness; full of envy, murder, debate, deceit, malignity; whisperers, Romans 1:27-29

God's Word on our times and the effects of turning away from His Objective Truth to our own self worship in subjectivity.

In my arrogance I chose my own path. As trial after trial subjected me to the crucible of this world’s fire I knew my decision making to be faulty. I wondered why my heart was colored to depression’s shadow? In the inevitability of this life constructed by one infinitely more wise, I found that in self direction my heart is a dark place and not therefore to be trusted. Thankfully in my reprobate hell of mirrored reflection I saw the wickedness within and was shocked at not only who I was but at what I would become remaining on the current path toward the Lake of Fire. I went to the source of Truth and found in God’s Word the Truth mentioned above and faced the decision that differentiates and separates all men. God or me, bond or Free, to see clearly or be turned over to my own house of cards for eternity.

Must I remain in the testing ground, the Refiner’s Fire of this world and find transformation through suffering and wisdom in experience? Well it has always been choice. The choice to live, the choice to endure, the choice to be filled with the Hope and Joy of eventual Glorification and Eternal union with God. Now I may take what is pure and prostitute it or transmogrify it, consuming and exchanging its naturalness and innocence to conform to my wicked perspective, but then it is no longer the perfect thing that God has made it, but now my strange flesh of decadent disobedience to God’s Will. The choice to reside in righteousness is never one done alone, nor is the path of the wicked absent God’s offer of Grace. He loves all and gives all the free will to choose life or its absence. Equally, once having chosen God’s Grace He comes along side the boat as we travel this life to teach, guide, secure and make certain the path of those having chosen His Truth instead of our Lie.

We say in absolute clarity that the path ahead is unknown, yet to the Christian that statement is no longer true as we dawn the helmet of God’s Salvation with indwelling of the Holy Spirit’s Power that created everything none may say that this access is impotent in its tremendous discerning insight into the Creation God alone understands. Those choosing God find comfort and guidance in the storm or quiet and those who diligently seek Him are rewarded with a level of wisdom absent in self fulfillment and dependence.

The taste of purity and the path of righteousness is frankly greater esteemed then the addictions of my own impoverished contemplation. When trusting in Self I was always hungry or thirsty for another round of whatever it was my heart lusted. In God I found a contentment a satiation, fulfillment and a full belly, heart and mind. I discovered the access to request a peace that surpassed previous understanding washing me in the comfort of goodness and the hope of everlasting, covering the pain of trial with the knowledge of purification through experience faced with Joy and Patience of Spirit. I am no longer stranger to my God, no longer subject of the jailer who seeks my soul, no longer slave to the sin of my imagination but rather a Free Man indeed basking in the Light of God’s Infinite and perfect Truth, forevermore.