The factors of my capacity to motivate those around me has always been compounded and supported by the Love of God. Those who hated me most never forgot the honesty with which I shared and were forced to reflect in disbelief the impact our interaction had upon the outcomes in their lives. Those who I have loved knew someone who loved them for who they were and became subsequently aware that their other relationship were not playing in the same space or by the same rules. As I have grown, the less me I bring to the table I am allowed by God to have learned a greater love focus, truly observing the person before me in adoration, learning, listening and actually helping with their burdens rather than simply looking for a pause into which I may inject some wisdom or self interest. God has given me the ability to truly love and taught me its treasure and having seen this wonderful gift the rest of life’s pursuits for self fulfillment became opaque, translucent or mauve.

I cannot stay with you if you do not wish to know the truth and grow at accelerate pace for time is short and I have none to expend in arguing about the purpose of my visit. You want to be like Christ, well I appreciate and support that but I will not deal with the days, weeks or years it is going to take you to stop trying to be the best Christian in the room or the wisest person for these are inhibiting your Christian Maturity and I have no more time to help you work through it. Yes you are precious but you are saved, You are one of the sheep that is okay in the paddock, now work out your salvation with the Body around you and I prayerfully hope that you lose the worldly need to argue, battle or shine as the brightest diamond among Brothers. I work for Christ. He is the Light. I am a servant and happy to be one. It is neither pleasing nor my job to transform your Christian walk that is entirely between you and God. I would suggest surrendering to His hand but you do as you must the Master will get you to where He needs you to be for His Good purpose. My job is out there.

Christianity is not an excuse to stand around appearing wiser than most judging, criticizing or deconstructing the personal work each Brother or Sister are doing with the Lord our God. That is a private personal walk and if they grace me with the loving privilege of sharing their walk with me it is not license for me to tell them how they are doing it incorrectly or lead them to the benefit of my brilliance. Salvation is of Christ Jesus and He knows exactly what each person needs in order to reach sanctification, I do not. He alone is God and has the capacity to love and adore you even when you walk astray, that is a capacity He is teaching me that I may go find the one outside the ninety nine. I do not wish to judge them simply to find them and lead them to the Cross. To be honest what good does judgment do if someone ends up lost, because I will have failed them and failed the Lord and He will have pronounce their judgment and send them to the Lake of Fire forever with no appeal. That breaks my heart especially if I have the opportunity to pull them back from the abyss right now and somehow interrupt what appeared to be an inevitable appointment with weeping and gnashing of teeth. If I may serve Christ in that way, then every pain, rebuke, chastisement in the process was more than worth it and I pray that I accepted the Lord’s discipline with gratitude and joy.