Did you wait for Him to whisper? Did you get tired upon the waiting or fed up with the call that was offered? How long does it say in the Word that each of us is to wait upon God? Just curious because it appears that even if it were a short while we all believe it eternity’s length.

What does walking blameless, in purity, in keen understanding of God’s Will and Word look like? What is deliverance? Is it my pleasant daydream resolution designed in my own head yet thrown upon the heaven’s to respond to my command for salvation? If I became betrothed to someone that I truly trusted who said that I am to wait until she returns would I at some point throw in the towel and forget to believe, forget to honor that promise, forget that she was my intended?

The Life is quizzical at best and down right circuitously frustrating at worst. Our emotions pull toward a range of resolutions delivered by drives and internal passions of a compromisingly temporary and fickle nature, yet most resolution to grand problems reside in the dusty shelves of tempered attitude and patient endurance. What is born at the conflict of this nature and learned attendance?

I am not going to leave this life until He allows it. My purpose lay within this life that He allowed. My talents give me access to solve a certain level of problems with perspective and acuity within a range of His allowance. My assets give me access to the benefits and provisions that He has allowed me that I be allowed to give or combine with others that we might do greater than our individual allowance. There is air because I have been allowed to have lungs and a cardio-pulmonary system capable of extracting the elements from the air and perfectly placing them with my cells to travel to my extremities and back again. But within that which has been allowed I am graced with the responsibility of making decision of tremendous gravity, size and difficulty simply for His review of my free will actions.

I am not perplexed rather honored to be confused about something so complex even the angels call it mystery. I am challenged of course by the actions I am apparently expected to take when I see nothing in my honor, talent or adequacy indicating that I could ever rise to the level of proficiency to evoke such action or act as catalyst to such change. These are the days of my presence leading up to the eons of my departure to be present somewhere else for untold purposes. Being with the Lord in Spirit, Comfort and Counsel even for moments in this lifetime makes it painfully evident that there is no other place for me but for that wonderful eternity spent with Him and You.