It’s not the shine of my little heart, but that my heart becomes much bigger when filled by your Light.  It is apparent that I know very little, have seemingly insufficient character and mannerisms to do the job you’ve given me.  In that clarity I am enriched by faith.  For if I shall achieve that which I cannot personally achieve the only explanation for that makeover gap, surpassing the upper control limits of my personal calculus, IS YOU.  You Are, just as you have described yourself to men throughout the last four millennia.  When I look to you Father I have awe, fear, comfort and some measure of peace just sitting and chatting in your direction.  For I know with astounding clarity that you hear me and notice that I want to obey, I will obey your commands for our lives.

My problems were all either created, fostered or increased by force of magnitude through my own incapacity to deal with circumstance.  Each time I have made decision without addressing what you would have me do I have limited my capacity for fulfillment in time utilization.  My heart shook this morning realizing that I have in my own attempts to jury rig the system or evade the consequences decreased the amount that I might be fulfilled in this life.  However, faith declares that you will use all things for good for those who love you and walk according to your purpose.  This understanding that your indwelling may surpass my/the impossible gives me hope that my machinations and poor decisions along the way may somehow be overcome by your power, authority and indwelling guidance to discernment.

So, feeling alone, simple, underappreciated, deflated, depressed or ignored are all simply guiding emotions meant to deliver me from the reflections of self-inspection to a place where these emotions build my reliance upon your Presence for relief, restructure, retrofit and transformation.  For in each of these emotions I find the lack of abundant life or even prescience and perspective that I was meant for these things in You.  There is nothing negative, nothing positive, those are judgments of my own worldly attempts at life’s mastery.  I don’t need to master life, I just need to keep my eyes on you.  I don’t even need to try that hard just do the things that you’ve written upon my heart and have faith in You.  That makes this life a much simpler animal.  Just as you are, I am, simply being and living and leaving the componentry or concern of completion of efficacy to You.  I am enjoying this life as you’ve said was one of the reasons for your visitation.  Thank you for setting me free.  In Your Precious and Holy Name I pray and live this day.  Jesus Christ the King.