Living in the public eye brings with it a clarity and a maturity that nothing may be hidden. Your lumps, warts, bumps and intemperance are there for all to see, inescapable.  Certainly, you may employ the tools of camouflage or even go to the extent of developing Thespian and makeup skills to “appear” as another man, but when pressed, tired, hungry or alone the truth is revealed.  I truly wish that I had no blemishes, faults or in temperance, but that is not the truth and serving the truth is not just a part time volition.  This is who I am, I love, cry, worry, rejoice, make funny faces and sometimes feel like karate chopping people who have not found sensibility or sensitivity to the other’s need. That is what makes a human human, yet we spend so much effort and time attempting to conceal the characteristics of normalcy.  Foolish errand.

Now my greatest struggle is that the Lord calls me to remain pure, holy, righteous and set apart as a Bride waiting for her Groom. That is when the rubber starts chirping as I take the quick turns and stops all in a quest to somehow remain upon a skinny path that is not meant for driving. I have to first learn to walk with the Lord before racing down the pathways of refinement.  That requires time spent with Him that I might be transformed. It is not a thing of self, sanctification is of the Holy Spirit and requires my surrender but the work is done through His power, in His timing.  Now resisting sin is my job, for that is what qualifies as overcoming. He has given me the power over this flesh, I have been set free, but I still have this carnal body calling me, egging me on in a quest for human cravings.  That as well may be hidden from the public’s eye through Thespian adaptation, but God knows the heart and mine is not yet Pure.

I do not seek to hide from people’s view or opinion.  To some extent I think this frightens folks, makes them critique me and laugh out loud at my misgivings and humanity, but the greatest thing it provides is the curiosity.  They are curious about authenticity and so many start out in disbelief that a man could be so unafraid of his humanity and so humbled by grace that he could live in such a transparent environment for all to see. There is no other way to lead folks to the Cross in my opinion.  They must see a courage, yes a courage to stand against the circumstances, odds and public inspection with a steady willingness and faith that God will make the changes when it is in deed time to make them.  I don’t hide it, doesn’t mean I don’t feel funny that you see it.

We are rapidly approaching a time when the Lord will be collecting His own.  In my heart of hearts, I know that He loves you so much that He cannot wait for you to accept His offer of Eternal Life with Him. If the open review of my humanity, weakness, worship, Love and Strength in any way provides the inspiration to come to Christ or the motivation to fight the fight until the end, then please consider my life Open for inspection in my service to God and You.  Please understand that being human is a wonderfully frail and temporary position in this dimension and therefore precious beyond compare. I live this life to the fullest, hoping and praying that my actions somehow bring honor and glory to the King.  Thank you for loving me for being me.  In Jesus’ Name I pray the same comfort and surety for your life.