Messy

Father, let me master the simple things in faith that I do not continue to trip over them as I tiptoe through the delicate parts of day. When I believe it seems to flow through me and when I have the greatest demands is typically when I have forgotten to remove my shoes before entering Holy Ground. Reviewing my continued behaviors I am flabbergasted by the little sins that pile up before me, almost forgettable in their leisure and the pleasure but they still carry the penalty of death in your law.  Father I know by those teachers gone before me that this body remains corrupted and I will not be free from its inclusive sin until the day when I am allowed to become more like you.  Is that perhaps how it works Father, that having removed the egregious sins from my performance, now I am left with all the miserable characteristics that are tiny infractions however just as repulsive and distasteful?

Lord, the little fibs, stretched truth to accommodate my envious desires to be love by the world.  Sinful pride as I walk with turned up chin, thinking so highly of myself that I have forgotten the purpose and place of humility.  Avarice within my eyes looking upon everything with covetous intent of a child, “that’s mine and this is mine”, I repeat internally as I review all that I intend to conquer.  Thoughts of retribution and unforgiveness, exalting forms or violent actions as somehow justified when the only true, worthy judge is you and in so doing I condemn myself. Wicked words falling from my brain and almost making it past the pure spring of my lips, speaking ill of people that you created as if I may slander them with doing the same to You. Carefully manipulating situations and people to bring about conclusions that I had planned and pieced together in the topography of mind

Father, I want to be free from these characteristics of the old man, who refuses to realize his place was on that cross in death my belief.  Please give me the power to resist these things to the point of not having the thought about, trapping them in the realm of nothingness.  Lord I want to be so freed of sin that it never even enters the forms of pondering, that they have no hope of deployment in this world.  I truly wish to be the example you’ve called me to become and this is the only route to that achievement.  Father, I know that all this is done in your perfect timing, I ask that I become something more pleasing to your eye and reflective of your glory than I have been capable to date.

Thank you for loving me enough to save me and working all of this wickedness from my soul as we go along through life.  I so do look forward to that day when I am truly free of these ill virtues.  Have mercy on me and forgive me as I continue to mess things up. In Jesus’ Name I pray.

 

 

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