My worst personal moment; that time when I could not bare to see myself, the tears a symptom of the thirsty internal wasteland. My absolute greatest failure on display for my family’s torture, replayed in media time and again that I might never see beyond it. The loss that threatened psychic eruption, something so dear that its loss provoked nightmares proportionate to lifetime. All of them gone in a greater moment of transformation in adoption by the King. The reflective realizations often the most valuable I see now that even if they had lasted a lifetime, with God I would endure. Without Him I had nothing but the hope of simply making it through the toughest times to the next incident of challenge. Now they are faced with the joyful anticipation that someday, relatively soon I will be beyond these corrupting and corrosive influences of circumstance to dwell in a life that never fades.

How great is your pain? Is this the moment that you truly feel will break you? Have you come to that last ounce of energy, the remainder of hopeful reserve, the last straw? Will this last forever or is it the feeling that you are incapable of enduring such pain, loss, sorrow or humiliation? How much time do you have left in this lifetime? If you were to have to remain in this moment, this pain, this lesson for the rest of your lifetime, could you endure? When will you stop doing it alone and welcome the power given each of us through the Holy Spirit to endure, not just in tortuous resolve but in the joyful expectation of coming eternal reconciliation? We have been bought, not with payment of money, crops, emotions or things but with the PURE, incorruptible seed of the perfect sacrifice, a Holy Sacrifice that transcends the wealth of man. Your pain is over if you want it to be though you may be asked to endure a circumstance that threatens your humanity, it has no hold over Spirit. Walk with Him in Spirit and Truth, live outside of the trappings of this world. You can do all things through Christ who strengthens you. If he has chosen you to live with this issue for the rest of this temporary life then He knew before you entered it that you would make it across the lake, through the storm in faith, your faith in His ability and promise to deliver you.

This ain’t easy stuff. They laugh at us as if believing in the works of a Holy and Righteous God, loving you enough to buy you back from slavery to sin with the offering of His own perfect sacrifice were somehow an easy contemplation. This is complex, it fascinates the angels. God’s Plan is intricate. His Love is Simple. Am I to remain focused on my loss and my tragedy or the anticipation and Joy of my coming life with Him? I guess that is my choice having been offered one by God. I am not a victim but a party to my maturation in this life, preparing me for the next with the pain, love, loss and gain that are all part of this crucible. I will endure through Him, through His Joy, His Strength, not my own. For now I am indwelt as promise of my coming incorruptible life with the Holy Spirit and in Him I can endure it all. In Jesus Name I pray for you this day. May he heal you of whatever ailments you face or give you the courage, strength and endurance of Spirit to endure it with Joy in Your Heart.