I don’t know what to say to you, I am just so sorry for always coming back around to the limitations of my humanity, instead of watching Christ.  Depression is the byproduct of my poor faith habits, for when I consistently remain in prayer, meditation and Bible review my attitude and spirits remain high. The moment I my practices begin and end with worldly review or communication, that immediately sours.  No matter how many times I experience these same lessons the Lord continues to reacquaint me.  Forgive me Lord for my extreme hard head.

Just because it don’t look, smell or appear like my expectations does not provide instant cause for concern or failure review.  It appears that I have already given critique of the film before the show has even started, via creating expectations that may have very little to what God wanted from the interaction, but in my not-so-infinite wisdom, I of course decided it was supposed to Produce X Squared plus three minus 7.  Try as I might I continue to fall back into this low point of the kitchen where all the gunk accumulates.

Father, can you please free me from me.  Too much and more of me makes me really tired and not looking forward to more of me.  Folks I sympathize with you having to deal with a johnny boxhead like myself, but that’s the rub, the cover charge, the gate fee.  Chances are that many of you determine the price to high for the return and head for the hills.  Although I am concerned about hurting any body’s feelings or losing friends over the whole thing but most concerned about how it taints my attitude for harvest.  I pray that I don’t miss a single divine opportunity by taking myself out of the frame of mind necessary to be in that moment.

Lord Hear my prayer for this nation.  We really are on the brink, the brink of greatness or failure, that razor edge peak that runs east to west and can only be straddled for so long before a radial tumble down one side or the other.  Give us clear site of Your Glory, that decisions might be made in plain site of the best of choices.  Father we thank you for offering us the opportunity at redemption.  Please let us take it seriously and be content with what we have been given but yearning for more, the More that is You.  In Jesus’ Name.