It is with deliberate intent I try and be gentle in relaying the material within my heart.  However, no matter how intently I endeavor to adjust or modify my grammar and word selection, there is always someone who takes offense to what I’ve written.  Forgive me, if I have said anything untoward, froward, impermissible or potentially heavy handed. Though it is not the intent, I do understand that there is a saying about paving the road to Hades with good intentions.  Please understand that often times I am writing from a place of spirit and can barely force my fingers to keep pace with the word disbursal from my brain.  I truly wish to live in harmony with folks.  In so doing I must also keep balance with the things that are being conveyed by the Holy Spirit and find it difficult to apply a governor to that relationship.

This world hurts, Christians should not be considered as those piling on to the burden already placed on us by this world.  I do not seek nor do I want to harm anyone.  If I have done so please forgive and I will repent and move on attempting once again to be open to the goodness, kindness and gentleness of God’s Holy Spirit.

I am simply trying to listen to the one Master each of us should have, that special relationship with our Creator who designed us for specific purpose.  Mine is to tell people about Jesus and to spread a general sense of urgency to get about the work that he prepared for each of us to do before His return.  People don’t want to hear it, they want to capture the energy that behind it or they simply want to label me some kind of simpleton who is not worth the listen.  Oh, but there are the few that are prompted by His spirit and get about the work.  That is okay with me.  I am done with false agendas. If you want something from me tell me what it is so that I can be honest with you right up front as to how I can assist or that I cannot assist in its achievement.  If you want glory, you want me to tell your story, you need some help with a project, pain or plan, then give me the respect of letting me know.  I am no longer going to tolerate manipulation if you want something then you have to tell me.  The first part of this paragraph told you my purpose and I pray that your agenda is consistent with that for if it isn’t I will recommend who to look to for help, especially because it won’t be me.

I have failed at relationships time and again because I have tried to fulfill them at the cost of my purpose.  I don’t want to be your friend if it means that I don’t get to wear the hat I was ordained to wear.  I don’t want to be your husband if it isn’t for the purpose of living together for the honor and fulfillment of Christ’s Glory.  I don’t want to be your pastor, your teacher, your com padre or your team mate if we aren’t working together for His Glory.  If you have some other agenda than that, I am not the right choice for whatever team it is that you are designing, in your head.  Let us be entirely honest, the enemy, you know him I know him uses those buttons in our lives to paralyze, dissuade, deny and destroy our efforts for the King.  Mine is love, mine is a bit of the sense of fear of abandonment, mine is lust for the intimacy of a good woman.  So, the enemy uses these, my “weaknesses” or access points if you will to effectively divide my focus and thus stop me from achievement for the kingdom.  Well, I will have you know that I have surrendered these to the Lord and they will be removed, deactivated or pull out by the roots if need be in order to make me more effective for His purposes.  I must deny self, it is after all the only way to gaining Christ.