I wish there were sufficient distractions to obscure the clarity, but clarity is that way it cuts through the dim, fog or unready heart.  Be steady and keep my footing remembering the fixed stone beneath them.  Yes, it appears that we are called to the impossible, that impossible task of forgetting or losing ourselves as the Bible states it so that I may find the joy of Christ’s intention for my life.  This is not a collective discipline and when I use the pronoun we, I simply mean “me”, but I am deferring the reality to distract myself from the decisions that must be made.  Lord, you know I don’t want the disinformation, the shiny object, squirrel or misdirection, but I often employ it as delay tactic to avoid the inevitable actions I must take for You.

It is foolhardy to ask for illumination, clarity, discernment or wisdom if in the quest we have not already determined to listen and obey that clarity.  Stop saying it if the willingness does not exist at the time of prayer to accept and respond to the requested answer or movement in reality.  I am so sorry Lord for having consistently wasted your time when my heart really wasn’t in it from the outset.  I was just looking for the appearance of faith, not the reality, the stone’s footing reality of being prepared to stand against the tsunami’s of life, fully dependent on Your Will to deliver me.  For I never could save myself and if I enter the impossible situation I need to understand that my efforts were insufficient from the beginning.  Otherwise I will always be “doing” instead of “waiting”.

Thank you for the clarity Lord, now is the time of action.  I pray that I step wisely upon the path you’ve lighted, giving full regard to the importance of each foot step.  I know that I am afraid Father but that is a nervous fear, because these tasks do not depend on my capacity to deliver the expected results.  My fear again is irrelevant unless I were fooled into believing it is my strength, my talent, my strong sword arm upon which my safety depended.  It is irrelevant when looking at the victory that shall be provided.  I must look at it logically, for example, do you believe the Christian Brothers and Sisters killed by animals in the Coliseum of Rome for God’s good glory, believed that they would be able to personally best the Lion, Tigers or Bears?  They gave their lives willingly for the sake of Christ.  Do you think they believed the false prosperity doctrine being preached in wickedness that they paid their tithe and that they therefore would never have to potentially give life or limb for the Kingdom.  We were never made that promise, in fact the Bible offers the opposite, a word of readiness, maturity and preparation for whatever may be asked of us by God.  It is only in this mindset that we may enter the field of performance for the Lord because whether deliverance or death it is His Hand that provides either.

Lord thank you for opening my eyes to my own consistent lack of demonstrative faith in my thoughts, beliefs and actions.  It is through faith that I may please you.  Lord, I ask for that faith and continue to seek, listen and respond to the Word that will increase it.  In Jesus’ Name I offer my prayers for you today.  Prayers for courage, protection and abundance all from the hand of God through Christ.  In Jesus’ Mighty Name may you stand your ground in knowledge of His Promises.