Lord, the ends rarely justify the means.  My objectives do not allow me to hurt, malign, disapprove, castigate or treat someone discourteously for the sake of getting my point across.  Yet, I still do it and some times it provides positive effect, because you turn to good what I did poorly because I love you and walk according to your purpose.  I understand that and I am humbled by its meaning.  I just humbly request that you teach me a better way than the frail method of delivery upon which I so frequently rely.  The people are priceless and I am juggling the rare importance of the moment with the battle axe method that I presently demonstrate my love.

Must I require that the swallow the entire pizza at once each time that they ask me for assistance.  No, but yet that is what I most often see in my behavioral or active reflection.  Lord, I am not going to ask you to remove me from my assigned duties because I am pleased to be used and additionally know that you knew beforehand exactly how bad I would be at this direction.  I will continue to apologize and consider myself a poor student, listener or vessel until someday I fully comprehend and follow the guidance you consistently provide.  How did I manage to get through so many years of life being such a clumsy example of slow comprehension and limited bandwidth?

Father going forward, I hope that I begin to develop some delivery skills that are more closely aligned with you kindness, love and gentility, because I fear I am about as gentle as a grisly bear at a salmon eating contest.  Shall I remain silent and find my place in the crowd?  I never had that much wisdom, besides I know that I am on the road you’ve directed, however poorly I navigate its borders.  I am just amazed that You tolerate me and allow me to continue.  I have to assume that you see some eventual progress coming my way that is not currently visible.  I am so glad you love me, because if you didn’t I would really have a hard time finding it elsewhere especially my own critical heart.  Forgive me.  In Jesus’ Name.