Father, forgive me for limiting the blessings you’ve intended by my impure action.  I know in that moment which I peer into those fiery eyes I will understand what I could have done for the Kingdom had I not been ferocious in my quest for self rule.  It will be the saddest moment of my existence when my eyes and heart are opened to the damage I have done, thank you for making me human as I prepare for that reckoning.  For my time remaining please keep from evil, let me not harm others and let me bring the greatest available glory to your name, reflected in my wise, just and honorable actions.

Lord I read Your Word and I see so many Kings, so many Priests, so many men and women diverting from your intention bodies, sins, wounds and curses in their wake.  Is this too the story of my family?  My own venture littered with the remnants of my failure to comply with the things you’ve demanded of me?  Oh, what a wrenching feeling in the center of my soul.  To know that I was responsible for the damage, destruction and continuance of other’s pain brings a new depth of searing dishonor to my history.  Lord, why couldn’t I just do right?  It was always what I wanted to do, why did I have emerge in rebellious and dangerous action?  For these things I repent and ask that you quench my regret.

Yes, there is some positive outcome in reflection of my misgivings.  I must know with certainty the price of each action.  This self-inflicted regret is an emotion that no man enjoys.  Why then must we take action that will produce lasting remorse?  It is the sinful man that still clutches at the reins of my mastery.  I am still in this mortal body and yet have been sanctified of all unrighteousness through the Holy Spirit in this crucible called life.  Yes, I yearn for that release from this sinful flesh, but even more I seek to live as an honorable man through Christ who lives within me.  Why now that I am indwelt with the Pure, Holy, Righteous and Powerful Spirit of God do I still continue with my evil, regret inspiring ways?  It makes no sense, yet it remains truth.

Father, for my part I want no more of this frail behavior, yet I know that I will continue to fall and get up.  I am so thankful that you love me and in spite of all my mess ups, you still find a way to use me for your intentions.  What am I that you would treat me so?  Any station on this Earth would disqualify me for the evil things I have done, would banish me for the ills I have caused others, yet with You I am not cast out but forgiven, cleansed and put back to the plow.  Please don’t ever leave me, don’t let me do something that would make you curse my family for generations, keep me from Your Fury.  For I truly love and praise you and am sorry for my continued willingness to stray from the path to purity, the path to life, the path to You.  In Jesus’ Name I ask that you heal those whom I have brought hurt.