If I knew then I wouldn’t need to come to the Lord and ask.  As men, we fight, fuss, lie and avoid telling those around us that we simply don’t know.  Our egos are so fragile that it is potentially hazardous to reputation or self-image to admit that we are not prepared or are in the need of education.  This is absolutely ridiculous because by its nature we are ignorant of a thing until we have learned it.

Children know that they don’t know and so they approach a circumstance with that eager mind, accepting that they don’t know and are ready to learn.  Then the world gets a hold of them and threatens them with constant criticism, bullying or shame for not knowing and they become adults like me who are basically ruined innocents, unwilling, afraid, terrified of admitting that they might not know and thus in need of assistance.  As tragic as this is in isolation it is tremendously compounded when it begins to interfere with our Lord relationship.

Coming to the Lord in humility is essential to reverent fellowship.  If I know everything or cannot admit when I don’t know for fear of worldly admonishment then I will never fall at the foot of the throne for merciful assistance.  I cannot nor would I tell other people how to approach the Lord, but for me I just admit my ignorance up front and let him know how desperate I am for his helping hand.  I simply don’t know and want to learn.  I mean he knows I don’t know anyway, right?

I am going to tell people when I don’t know something.  No more deception no more unintentional prevarication, that’s “lying” as a note to self, who doesn’t want to admit that he not only doesn’t know but also covers up that fact with lies.  Father, there is so much in this life for which I am unprepared, ill-equipped or awaiting your intervention.  Lord, I simply don’t know.  Let me be free of my desire to be seen as complete by this world.  Let me be seen for the man I truly want to be which is a man who is fully and happily dependent upon his loving Father.  Lord, let me not be an example of a worldly man, who is independent and self-sufficient of the relationship with you.  I want you to have the glory so don’t let me “put on airs” that I have some how overcome every problem or have some grand revelation about things that allows me to overcome the things, by nature, that I do not yet know.  Let me be okay with not knowing and express a childlike willingness to learn.

In Jesus’ Holy Name I pray.  Amen