What do you do when you realize that the person  you are doesn’t match the story you’ve been telling?  The nature of things puts you smack dab in the middle of an enormous conflict.  Spilled milk always seeks the low point on the floor in which to pool or conforms to its container.  How then do you expect to surpass these natural laws and keep the parts of your real personality compartmentalized from the one you virtually maintain?

Christianity makes it impossible for believers to fit into the world.  Those God induced changes bring about a contempt for societal norms regarding the acceptance of sin.  The Holy Spirit continues to remind, rebuke, instruct regarding the complacence, acceptance or participation in the what God defines as unacceptable behavior.  This interaction causes either a conscious separation from the worldly or a chosen determination to those things over God.  Truth is you get changed and then you just can’t hang with worldly folks anymore, that is if you are serious about your relationship with God, ie..truly transformed by a renewing relationship with Christ.

I have found that the world no longer loves me, in fact their feelings have turned to contempt, exasperation or outright exclusion.  One cannot be in truthful relationship with Christ and have the same with the world, it just is not possible.  These two things are mutually exclusive, they will never mix, if you wear the shirt you will no longer be invited to the party.  So, don’t adorn yourself with Christianity if you don’t want to be changed, because it will change you.  I mean the Holy Spirit will change  you, you will truly become someone different then you used to be.  The Lord has transformed me into someone consistent with his Will for my life and that has made me unacceptable to society.  Sure they play nice to an extent but when they quiz me as they always do about the things of God and the Truth of God’s Word, they instantly realize that I am not like them nor can we ever be friends.  I love them, pray for them, but their rebellion against God cannot be overlooked.  Nor can they ever accept me for who I am.  We are separate, why?, because we were made to be that way.

My duty is to God and that requires I tell the truth to a population in desperate straights.  They are headed for a judgment and a sentencing that they do not fully understand.  My job is to tell them the thing that most definitely do not want to hear and the thing that they most desperately need to hear.  The greatest news they will ever receive is that of Christ’s redemption and God’s grace.  It is a joy to tell them, but in that delivery there is always conflict, and unfortunate sorrow upon the realization that many will not listen, no matter what, they will refuse to listen.  The choice is theirs to make.  I think many Christians do not wish to tell them because they know intrinsically that something will change and instantly the relationships they once counted as solid were never more then houses built on sand.

There is no savior complex on my part, merely the desire to show people the way to break free from the shackles I so comfortably accepted in my past existence.  I cannot free you of the guilt and shame of your sin, I cannot provide you the access to eternity, I cannot change, provide and correct your life, but I know who can.  There is a wonderful story to tell and it will lead to the greatest things in this life and the next.  I hope that you voluntarily wish to discuss, consider and choose Christ, but I am prepared for the alternative.  You see, most do not wish to hear, but tell them I must for this is true love, to offer each person a way to escape the pain of sin, shame, death and eternal separation from the God who created everything.