I first whispered and hoped, then I argued and cajoled, then I spoke the Word and honored God’s control of the outcome.  I have been hoping and praying for the many of you who I have shared the Gospel with over the years, that you would have Aha moment, where the Holy Spirit revealed something to you.  God has now told me that tribulation is coming, not as a matter of simple, outrageous wrath, but as a grand gesture of His Love for mankind.  He loves you enough to turn the heat up to 12 so that you must let go of the ladder you continue to climb in to darkness.  He is going to make the light so bright that you cannot stay in darkness except by choice.  He is going to make the series of tragedies so compelling that everyone knows God is in charge.  I now know that my job has been completed, I now ready myself for the return of the Lord.

Please review your works.  You manipulate everyone around you, you deceive trying to control the situation with magic or clever behavior.  No one will apologize to God for you, because that he does not allow.  We will pray, that he has mercy upon your soul, but forgiveness is his, redemption is his, eternity is his alone to dispense.  I have begged that you see your illness and cry out to God for assistance, begging again for him to set you free from bondage.  He has been waiting for your repentance, with the keys to your shackles, patiently he waits to set you free.  I am sorry that you have not availed yourself of his forgiveness, that you have not heeded his Word in justice, but the time for payment approaches.  I hope that you understand the cost for if you stand without decision made you still have made a choice through disobedience.

What now is left for me but to encourage, comfort and build up the Body of Christ.  I will preach the Gospel and allow its effect to be of God.  God gives us clear guidelines regarding how to conduct ourselves in the world.  We cannot ignore his command to holiness just because we have not written his word upon our hearts.  We cannot ignore his command to remain unspotted and free of sin while we walk through humanity.  We are to conduct ourselves as his children, with clear understanding of what that means, especially when we thing he is not watching.  For the power of God is in the Holy Spirit, which indwells each believer.  Therefore conduct unbecoming a child of God, grieves the Holy Spirit and demonstrates a willingness to serve another master, whether it be self, or false god or sin.  The Church is now in the state of luke warm salvation.  They seemingly do not care to be obedient only to comforted in their self service.  As believers in Christ if this is the truth then it is the truth that we should be speaking.

I cannot make decisions for you.  I am the worst of sinners, I need God.  I beg him to rid me of this worldly skin, so that I might know again my innocence.  If I have asked that you hear God and you have never listened then please forget my words.  For if you will not heed his word enough to ask him to tell you the truth, then you never wanted to know in the first place.  I am sorry that you will have to face tribulation.  I do not plan on being here for that.  I pray that it provides sufficient awakening that you remember the things of God.  I pray that at that time the seed I once planted sprouts and delivers you unto eternity with Christ.  However, your choice is your choice, I will weep no tears for you in heaven for you are serving whom you wish to serve, right now.

I cannot argue effectively or defend my faith without contention, for the Word provokes either resistance or capitulation.  God does not ask, He tells, He yells at the universe and it obeys, why would a man have leeway?  Because a man is beloved, so God speaks calmly waiting for the choices we all must make.  Do not contend with God if you like winning, do not contend with man if you wish them simply believe.

It never returns void, the knowledge that the plans will always sprout, the sun will always shine that someone will love you forever.  This Word is unlike any treasure you’ve found, it is the power to make, to break to shine light upon the fake, shaming, taming, waking and growing all things to zenith.  It presents you with The Truth about life, death and what comes after, between and before perception.  This Word is perfect, it was with God at the beginning, it was and is God.

I stand overwhelmed in my simple crisis of humanity, struggling to understand that which is beyond my comprehension, my universe stretching, frighteningly toward rupture.  Destiny has made me the man God wished.  I have seen glory and become addicted, that face, the face of a God willing to die to get my attention, my allegiance, my faith.  How can I have ever pleased this perfect God, which seems impossible? Yet, he tells me that he sees me cleansed and righteous, wearing the suit of armor gleaming like the sun, The son given a second chance to live a second life for purpose, for reason, for the Glory of a deserving King.

He died so that I might live, Jesus be praised.

The concrete of my life falls away, leaving those things green and supple.  I am nothing that my dreams have made, the dreams made me.  Having become what God intended, I yearn for Him and hunger for the redemption of mankind from the cruel reign of false gods.  There are many things I had once wished to conquer or complete, now my only hope is to save as many as may be saved in the time remaining.

They have gone astray from God, wrongly equating Him and the Church, they now have decided upon it irrelevance.  The apostasy is God’s present reminder that we rapidly approach and end of the Church Age.  We are not of desperate mindset, only quiet understanding that those who have ears to hear shall hear and those who sit upon the fence shall forever regret having never exercised the greatest gift of free will choice.  That is the abomination here, is that a humanity which might be wholly save turns its nose to the food of restoration.

Lord, I am so thankful that you chose me, for any purpose.  The fact that I have been able to any positive effect for the Kingdom humbles me and delights my mind with new and positive memories.  These people you love and I am sorry that they are too self-focused to come to you and be saved.  Please forgive us for not telling them sooner, perhaps we may have made a difference.

Your love sustains me as I lose taste and desire for the things of this world.  I see the innocent smile and that brings me joy.  I see those who love you and obey your commands and that makes me smile.  I see the men and women you’ve created and your love for them shines bright from my eyes.  They don’t know how to handle it Lord and are often left for words.  They see immediately that I love them even before we have ever spoken.  I am sorry for the times that I looked at my Brother otherwise.  As this world grows strangely dim let them see my readiness for rapture so that they too might have oil in their lamps, watching for your return.

In all these things I love you Almighty God for all that you are and pray that Your Name be Blessed in Heaven and Earth, In Jesus’ Holy Name I pray.