I know I have always asked for the crash course, so that reluctantly I can say that I waited just as you’ve directed.  But we know Lord this sped up timing is not because of anything I am waiting on from you, it is because the time is short and I did pray that you would make the man you wished me to be in the time remaining.  I am sorry that I dallied so long, it is not right for me to ask now that you some how accelerate my course, but I still do.  I see that you are going to hold me to it.  I am sorry for the costs to those around me Father, it must burdensome.  I know that just as in Isaiah as he realized he was staring into the light of God and being asked to speak, I am not worthy of your presence Father.  I am clear that it is your spirit dwelling inside me and my washing in the blood of Christs that now allow me to call you Father.  I am grateful that it is real, but I still don’t deserve it.

Lord Jesus, I see so much false doctrine, spoken of even in the circle of the saints.  I wince as I hear their version of your Gospel, I beg them listen and in some instances they hear and leave, but never do they stay and show error.  Pride prohibits them from realizing how far down the broad road that had unwittingly traveled.  I wish they would have trusted what I said when I told that the only reason I mentioned anything is because I wanted to learn the Truth together.  Too bad men cannot admit their negligence in study and prayer. Lord I pray against the false prophets they are so dangerous to the remaining few left to hear the Good News of Christ.  Lord please protect the fledgling believers that they might learn the Whole and Holy Truth of Your Gospel.

I don’t want to live out on the street anymore Lord but that is where the battle ensues.  Is there a group of believers I might join to go looking for one hundred, because it seems all the churches are satisfied with the ninety-nine or thirty-seven as it appears apostasy has reduced their number.  The youth know least, for they have not known a relationship with you.  They do not know the sweet honey of your Word.  Father, again I thank you for the discipline, the education, the instruction and the encouragement.  I know that they are all facets of your perfect love for me.  I pray that I make the best use of all that you have given me and that I lift up those around me to become fulfilled in their walk with Jesus.  Love us, cover us, come and bring us home.  We await your direction and your return, Amen.