Oh Lord Jesus.  What do you see when you look at me?  Do you hear positive reinforcement of your will for my life, sound, clearly pronounced words of courage, faith and a heart absent leaven?  Do you see my loving eyes pointed skyward, waiting, watching, hoping that even this night my be my last and my first.

You foresaw the rising cost of righteousness, knowing that none of us would escape coming persecution.  They are changing so rapidly our choices are being forced.  Tolerance, blind acceptance, committed weakness or perhaps assistance with cause furtherance.  Our Christianity has been made weak or whole, there are few standing upon the fence at this time, having chosen more hospitable surrounding.

I know that you wait for my Brother.  Forgive me for speaking to him in such naiveté. My grounds should have been firmly established long ago upon discipleship in maturity, instead I scrambled, struggled and barely found courage to confront his confusion.  Though I said something Lord I do not remember that it was either done in a convincing, educated, heart felt or gentle manner.  I never ceases to amaze me, these shortcomings.  My I have another chance, I promise to be ready, after all I know how much he matters to you.

I think again of the promises your word made to me.  The faith, the nights of sleep and the educating dreams I’ve received outside of your promises, I am so thankful to have known you for such a time as this.  I know that I have been of limited purpose, use or return for your kingdom and for that knowledge I am ashamed.  But you didn’t want my sacrifice only this obedience that I offer right now.  Give me the chance Lord to overcome the objects of my disobedience.  Speak to me Father and I will listen.  Hear my prayers or worship, honor, Glory and praise.  You are the greatest part of me.