It is the spirit that quickeneth; the flesh profiteth nothing: the words that I speak unto you they are spirit, and they are life.  But there are some of you that believe not.  John 6:63-64

Am I Thomas or Peter?  What evidence do I require, what words will convince or do I simply believe?  I have seen His Revelation, that is a thing from which I may not look away.  It is hard to give up our lives for Christ, yet we must if we are to follow and be disciples.  Simple service, keeping my place in the world will never suffice.  Oh, that means my relationships must be challenged if not lost, my wealth given voluntarily or taken with the added burden of bitterness, my life submitted to His guiding hand and direction.

I want so much to please you, those whom I love, but I have one Master, The Lord Jesus Christ.  You make me choose and He bids me choose, for me there is no choice, I choose life.  I love you enough to become the man that God intended.  I cannot stay, living a set of directives designed to provide a false sense of security and control over a life for which we never had any.  I stand and move forward as possible, knowing that the Lord has a destination for my progress, the result His Glorification.  I will never leave you or fail to cover your needs through His love for us, but I cannot be that man I was never intended.

There is no where else for me to go Lord.  You alone have life everlasting, this world offers only finite satisfaction.  Your Word is life, Your Love True and Your Faithfulness, even where it concerns my reformation is dependable.  Lord I hope that when challenged I do not deny, I do not run, but stand proclaiming myself Your Kin. Once again I am offered the opportunity to surrender all.  I have heard my voice in song saying these words, but they are just words without the walk of faithful action to confirm their truth.  Give me the courage to take the actions for which you have offered the opportunity.  Allow me to follow you with my whole being serving the purpose for which I was given breath.  Lead me to victory, a victory to which I have voluntary surrendered.  Teach me to love you enough to do whatever is right to do for Your Glory, Your Plan.  In Jesus Name I pray.