I can either run, become bitter about what God has given me or I can be satisfied, rejoice and be glad in this day, these trials, these talents or treasuries.  The first two reactions are normal for a worldly person.  These are the promptings of stress that spark the fight or flight mechanisms to which evolutionists hold fast as evidence of our mud based origin.  But these are autonomous, reactive and frankly immature responses to a world that holds some complex relationships.  The saved woman looks beyond the stimuli of her eyes, holding to the knowledge and reliance upon God’s greater purpose in our placement.

It just isn’t what I wanted and frankly I deserve to be happy.  This proclamation, writhe with entitling undertones bemoans the thinking of a self-actualized man.  If this is what He gave me and it frustrates or provokes my sensibilities, then I must assume that in the unwinding of its origins I will find the intended learning requiring my participation.  Yes, my kids make me crazy, but why am I getting such rich provocation from them who should be bringing me peace?  I ought not to seek a way out of it but rather surrender to it, understanding that their insanity probably reflects something missing or present in my own chemistry.  God does not make mistakes, so my chosen environment is exactly what I need to become more like Him.  How then might I embrace it and hasten or assist in His edification of my soul?  If I am meant to have peace then let me find it first right here.

There is great joy in being satisfied.  There is greater communion and relationship with Almighty God when we find peace in our present.  By nature, we all want to become heroes, just as those from the Bible, but to do so we know that it will most likely require severe humbling, a walk in the desert and most likely great hardship.  So, how might logic be served if I wish to be a hero but I don’t want the edification, sanctification or life defining hardship that most or all Prophets and Apostles endured.  Perhaps that is why we don’t step forward for our calling, because we want the ribbon without the trial?  God might use me.  However if I am not readily and voluntarily serving in my present circumstances then how might I consider the likelihood viable that He might transport me to other circumstances in order to employ my utilization?  If He cannot use me where I am, then I am certainly headed for trials to prepare me for the place I will be considered useful.  My logic must be adjusted.

I love my life.  It is frustrating, difficult, beyond my capacity to overcome and often more frightful then the enemy’s assaults.  But that is precisely what defines it as perfect for my edification.  I am stretched beyond ability, beyond patience, beyond my level of self efficacy to teach me that this road may not be walked without the power of God.  These things He bids us do require His authority, His provision, His Love, forgiveness and presence.  Being brought to the end of myself is essential to being used by God.  This life does that for me, therefore I should pray for the ability to rejoice exactly where I am.  In Jesus Holy Name.