Which is more difficult to exhibit, the capacity to love and forgive your enemies or the ability to wait upon God, no matter how long it takes?  Often my grief and unforgiveness has lasted decades while waiting upon God may take a lifetime.  Both require transformation, both are beyond our ability and can only be endured/completed through the Holy Spirit.  Which then is your greatest burden?  Are there those in memory who you refuse to let go?  Or have you asked God for delivery, grace, blessing and find it beyond reason to continue on in patience, leaving the outcome to God’s determination.  We have entered an era in God’s blossoming plan within which the slights, mockery and injuries against Christians and the innocent have become commonplace.  The chaos, lawlessness and denial of truth rule each day and continue to increase in frequency and severity.  Do you feel the stress increasing, is it nearing your capacitance limits?

I submit that both of these victories are inherently tied together.  We cannot forgive and love without the patience to wait upon God’s filling and supernatural peace.  For some things to humans, are unforgivable; the abuse of a child, extortion of the elderly, murder for greed’s sake and withholding readily available/bountiful food stores or medicine from the sick and starving.  These require something beyond us, but praise be to God that we are indwelt by the POWER of the HOLY SPIRIT.  When I am exhausted, tapped out, drained and beaten is when I can truly give God the reins of my life, to be used as vessel for His Glory.  It is at my end that I shall truly know, respect and surrender to God’s Sovereign authority and omniscience.  Through Him I can love the unlovable, forgive those, who like, me never deserved grace and wait upon His Divine intervention through prayer, fasting and growing faith.  These things will always be outside my capacity in this lifetime, but I continue to learn through God’s ministering power, overcoming these obstacles when I cannot.

This world cries, hold on, never surrender, don’t give up, you can do it.  It seems insanity to them when a Christian proclaims the opposite.  I know that these things are beyond my capacity, but they are thoroughly within the power of God.  The quicker I get to the end of myself in realization that these things lay beyond my ability the earlier the Lord may intervene, with caveat, in His Timing.  I never saved a soul, but I led them to the one who could.  I never created a miracle, changed time, saved a life or cured a disease, but I know the great physician so intimately that He shows up when I need Him most.  I cannot forgive those who deserve damnation, punishment and judgment, but I can warn them of the consequences of their actions while asking God to forgive for me.  I have no authority except that derived by prayer.  I will exercise my authority as an Ambassador and joint heir through Christ, asking God for patience in unleashing His judgement and wrath upon humanity.  I will forgive now and wait upon God to make it real within my heart.