What is it that I really want?  Maybe riches, in gold, land, material goods a conglomerate of immeasurable wealth?  I doubt that any of us would say that we have never contemplated being truly wealthy.  I like to think that I would be a philanthropist, changing the world, utilizing my great wealth to further the kingdom, keeping myself pure, remaining consistent with the Word.  But it just doesn’t match up with the reality I have seen in my own heart.  Typically for me, the wealthier I become the less concern and focus I pay to the things of Christ.  For me the foothold of the enemy in my life is complacency, comfort and a luring away from the things of God.  For this reason wealth may be poison to my walk with God.

Perhaps, I would like to be in love so much that I would go to war, travel the seas, sell my kingdom, just to spend all my moments with the one that I love.  She would fulfill me in a such a way that I could dismiss my ambition, my envy, my longing for purpose.  There are few of us who have never imagined this type of consuming romance, losing ourselves in the eyes of our beloved for eternity.  But, I know myself, and I always wake up at some point realizing that this other person, however astoundingly beautiful is after all just another human.  I come awake to the fact that it wasn’t as life altering as I originally expected and frankly leaves us with the realization that a love relationship with another human often entails a lot of work, growth and personal sacrifice.

If not love or wealth, what then would fulfill my life, power perhaps?  Conquering, leveraging, strategizing and overcoming every land, group, individual and corporate/political entity standing between me and total control.  Maybe standing at the top of the world overlooking all the territory over which I extend my authority would give me peace.  But, I know the tyrant within me, the consuming maw of controlling master, the never ending quest for more power.  This beast would never allow me to be at peace.  And evil has no partners only servants.

What now, not money, nor romance, nor power, will nothing fulfill my agonizing quest for purpose and understanding?  Could it be magic that I seek, maybe a control of matter, manipulation, cleverness and science?  Would that endow me with the completeness heretofore unattainable?  No, for I would conjure evil, even when I intended greatness, for this is the true alignment of my heart in wizardry.  I would be bent on obtaining all power, all knowledge all craft turned to the fulfillment of my own desires.  No this too would be spent on nothingness, pain and suffering for those around me.  Arch angels were incapable of self control in their self-worship via God given power, how then could I hope to maintain reason?

You see my service to God is not only a faithful walk of love but also withstands reason’s interrogating finger.  I know myself and I want to know God, more and more each day.  This is my purpose to love God and do His work for there is no other fulfillment in this life or the next.  I have seen love, power, money and magic and none possess the qualities of a life well lived for God through Christ.  Do I want miracles, yes, when God in His wisdom shows me the glorious imagination of a child or the caring heart of a saint, I am amazed.  Do I want power, yes, I want the power to choose to obey, having the faith in something greater than myself, standing in the face of overwhelming adversity, believing God for His Divine Promise.  Do I want love, yes,  the love of my wife, equally human and wonderful, struggling to remain pure in the world seeking to consume our goodness.  Do I want magic, oh yes, the magic of God’s wisdom finding a home in the mind of a man who deserves neither wisdom nor the love of God.  I choose God because it makes sense to do so.  For in so doing I am fulfilled as with no other device known to humanity.

http://freebeacon.com/national-security/fmr-israeli-general-iran-hezbollah-planning-joint-invasion-of-israel/  Hiding, turning a blind eye or cowering will never make evil simply, “Go away”, some conflicts must be confronted before the threat becomes reality.