What do you do in the dark that you would not do in the light of day?  Am I a different person in the silky camouflage of night?  What scatters in my own life each time the light is shown in to crevice, cupboard, closet or action?  Have I given over control to God the secret spaces of my life or am I effectively compartmentalizing aspects for which I have no excuse, no remorse or no desire to relinquish?  What am I unwilling to expose for shame, or blame or potential damage to my cherished reputation?  Can I truly know humility having never lain bare these protected facets of my life?  What then does it mean to be a follower of Christ?  Is there a specific or implied trust between He and I which demands release of this obfuscation, diversion or out right concealment?

How forceful is my own resistance to the changing Hand of God’s Almighty Spirit in my own life?  Am I truly willing to subject my entire set of actions/history to the defining edge of God’s Two Edged Sword?  Would my sinews, spirits and truth continue following such review?  I cannot safely say that on that day I look into the eyes of fire that there will be little left to be burned up.  For I have seen my own frailty, my disobedient heart and rebellion and found that left alone it will fester, propagate, linger and continually poison my innocence.  Can I develop an intentionality consistent to bringing down the footholds of powers and principalities for injustice within my own heart?  What manner of terrorism exists within my own disobedience to God?  How might I find peace until these shameful dis-congruent aspects of my own personality have been subjected to the cleansing blood of Christ through the light of His Word.

I cannot love the actions of men which do not stand up to the Gospel.  There is no will, no desire, no inclination to become apologist for these inconsistent unsaintly thoughts or actions.  I pray that I surrender to God, absolutely, voluntarily, all compartments of my life, especially those for which I have shame, reluctance and denial.  There can be little if any progress forward in the battle for truth if I am unwilling to come to the knowledge of the truth regarding my own earthly performance.  Father, let me see every truth, even the putrid and cancerous that lay hidden in my own psyche.  Once I have seen, repented of and accepted these truths, please cleanse me and remove them from my soul.  Let me judge myself by your word instead of projected such judgment upon men of the world.  Let me be found righteous by Your Word, blameless, spotless, resembling Christ.  Let me wear His righteousness in faith for the world to see in the light of day and the dark of night.  Let me walk by faith not by sight to the Glory of Your Holy Name.  Jesus Christ is King.