Had I tasted victory, despair would be too sour to capture my taste.  Had I known peace through prayer, anger and the world’s molestation would own me not.  Had I dreamed in a glimpse of eternity, the past and present would make sense as a parts in the sum of the whole.  Had I known the truth, lies would have lost all adhesive quality in my heart.  Had I seen love, then my kind whispers would chase hate and fear to the darkness of their origin.  Had I seen the face of God, my joyous reward would be complete.  How then does a hypocrite profit when none of these inspiring influences have overwhelmed such that all else becomes dim?

It is not about religion, it is about following Jesus in truth, serving God in love, obedience and purpose.  It is not about the holiest man having been inserted between each of us and God for there are no barriers to majesty and no man who is free of sin but the Lord Jesus.  It is not about emulating the deacons, pastors and princes for each of them struggle alone in the dark asking God for guidance and forgiveness.  It is not about being alone because my vision of perfection somehow excludes those who are dirty, messy, poor, sick or confused.  It is about Love and only Love.  A Love so kind and deep that it overlooks imperfection, struggle and brokenness.  It is about following Jesus Christ, calling upon the Holy Spirit in power to sanctify each of us making us more like Christ then when we began.  It is about the walk, with purpose, truth and intention, demonstrating love for God as evidenced through action, not to win some prize but knowing the prize has already been given and works are a natural part of thankful joy.

I do not want to be like my pastor, I want follow God.  I do not want God’s power, I want to use it to the Good Will of His Glory, Majesty and Love for mankind.  I do not want to be congratulated for my prowess, gifts or faith, unless it is from the mouth of Jesus welcoming me home to His Presence.  There is no defeat now but not loving as God has directed.  I must have Love, the Love of God, nothing else matters.  Forgive me Father for pursuing any side road that does not lead directly to Your Righteousness.  May my heart, life and words always be true to my quest of following You.